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201 · Jun 2018
Sweet
aryanalynae Jun 2018
Happiness looks sweet on her
It looks cute on you too

And I could cry and sob from joy
Because that’s all I ever wanted for you
197 · Oct 2021
Little hope
aryanalynae Oct 2021
Empty little pockets
Full of lint and a little hope.
I have nothing left to give
But I pray that no one knows.
197 · Jun 2018
maybe
aryanalynae Jun 2018
maybe you won't at all
maybe I'm not worth the call
maybe I don't know you at all
and maybe I tripped and it wasn't a fall.

maybe I got caught up in the moment
and the dream of what we could be
maybe I saw potential,
potential that you didn't see in me.
195 · Jun 2018
Slurred
aryanalynae Jun 2018
Don’t think. Just write.

So I do tonight.

Let the ink bleed,
Let it stain the page,

Nothing feels released
And im still masking my pain

Wondering if what I pour out in words
Will remain my words,
will they remain pure

or will you see them
And tease them
Leave them slurred.
191 · Jun 2018
Vacationing
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I did it
And you did
And when it was ringing
I couldn’t feel my phone in my fingertips.

When you said hey
And then heyyyy
I felt all the nervousness
Beginning to drain

And then before I knew it
We were catching up quick
I’d say those feelings rushed back
But they never left, they were here to stick

And I’m fighting off the words
I don’t want to say them out loud
I know them already
And I’m afraid they’ll bring rain to the cloud

I was living on in that moment
And then you showed up at the door
And I couldn’t choke back the words
I didn’t want to anymore.

Let you in,
And let you in I did
And you took just one step
And I felt my head spin

And I sang in my heart
Your arms wrapped around mine
And I’m still on that cloud
Yeah I’m vacationing on cloud nine
189 · Jun 2018
want to
aryanalynae Jun 2018
wake up when I don't want to
check my phone when I don't want to
take a shower when I don't want to
and still get ready like I'm trying to impress you

like you're going to show up any minute
you'll just be standing in the door
and I'll look all dolled up
and you'll say you want this more,

than you thought you did that day
because you remember how I feel
you'll tell me all the heartbreak stuff
wasn't really real.
185 · Jun 2018
when I, when i
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I knew I was actually heartbroken
when I didn't miss you just at 2am
but also at 2pm, when I was in a room full of people

when I looked for you as I pulled into my parking lot.
when I drove by the event center we went to a couple nights before you left.

when I checked my phone and didn't respond to anything
because I didn't see your name

when I started posting more on that one social platform
hoping you'd catch me smiling and fall for it again.

when I  had someone amazing right in front of me,
but I only had eyes for you.

when I realized every move I'm still making,
is in hopes that it works with the ones you might be making now.

when I came home, and it didn't feel like home.
183 · Jun 2018
Perfection
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I’m not perfect
I’m not even that good
I’m decent
And mostly misunderstood
183 · Jun 2018
Note
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I have a note saved
It doesn’t have your name
But it has all the words
That I’d like to say

I won’t send it
I’m waiting for the time
When you reach out
And I can claim what’s mine

My time was risked
You let it go to waste
And now I have nothing left
Maybe you should’ve thought about it that day

Maybe you should’ve reconsidered
When I begged and asked you to
Maybe you shouldn’t of asked me to leave
When it meant I’d be detached from you.

Maybe just maybe you’ll never send that message
But I’m convinced time wasn’t on our side,
And when it is you will be tempted.
181 · Jun 2018
Happened
aryanalynae Jun 2018
That leather jacket
What happened.

That zig zag zong
Our playlist of songs.

Staying up until the sunrise
What happened to that look in your eye.

We know what happened.
Sometimes I wish it didn’t
178 · Jun 2018
Let ya know
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I don’t want to manipulate ya
Just wanna see you happy
Say what you’ve been doing
And let you know I’ve been thinking

About how you deserve the world
You deserve the hearts you have
And i wouldn’t change anything
And I don’t ever really look back

But I still care about you
And I wonder how you are
I know you’re fine without me
But I still love you from afar

It’s the only way I can
It’s the only way I even know how
Just wish I could wish you congrats
Let you know that I am proud
173 · Jun 2018
all
aryanalynae Jun 2018
all
.







... this seems to say it all.
171 · Oct 2021
Maybe
aryanalynae Oct 2021
Maybe I’m a thought
Perhaps I’m a wonder
But maybe I’m so much more
Maybe, maybe, I ponder
171 · Jun 2018
before
aryanalynae Jun 2018
pull my hair
spank my *****
grab my thighs
and do what you do to me

tell me what you want
tell me what I'm gonna do
give me those instructions
so I know just what to do

call me baby,
call me anything you'd like
just make sure you call me
before 11pm tonight.
169 · Jun 2018
Heard
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I want to be valued
For it all

My looks, my brain,
My heart.

I want to be heard,
About it all

My pain, my future,
and all my inner songs.

I want to be stopped
And told right from wrong
When I’m making fast decisions,
And my moms the last one I’ll call.
166 · Jun 2018
Tick Tock
aryanalynae Jun 2018
Tick tick tick tick
Making my heart sick sick sick

Tock tock tock
Anxious thought thought thought.
166 · May 2018
idc
aryanalynae May 2018
idc
some nights I just get tired,
but on rare occasion I'm inspired.
and you could say that I acquire
a taste for ink... so desired.

and I feel my mind rewire,
it's ice cold, but it's on fire
and I learn to just aspire
to the mind's elevation, higher
164 · Jun 2018
Wait
aryanalynae Jun 2018
You’re not here
But you’re right here
And all just feels so right
I waited years
I waited weeks
And I think I can wait some more nights
163 · May 2018
Enlight
aryanalynae May 2018
spiritually enlightened
Life’s consciousness Is heightened
And I’m dreaming but I’m creating
I’m invisioning and procreating
161 · Jun 2018
so
aryanalynae Jun 2018
so
it was all in my head,
that's how it felt when you said
those words that brought ache to my heart
yeah I took the news pretty hard.

I never questioned it,
it was something I was sure of,
and when you said those words,
the doubt poured in and was unheard of.

now I'll question it
no matter the outcome
and I'll wonder if it was in my head
or if I just fell too hard in love.

I wasn't looking when you found me
that's a joke, cuz I found you.
maybe you approached me,
but I'm the one who fell for you.

and I can go out and see other people
they see me smile and look nice,
but I'm hugging them goodbye,
and kissing our memories goodnight at night.

emotionally unavailable. Its out in the open every time,
and I state it, and relay it... but you don't know those words of mine.

I'm counting down the hours,
I know you leave in a couple days.
and my heart is hurting because you haven't called,
but what would we say anyways?
160 · Jun 2018
So long, farewell
aryanalynae Jun 2018
There isn’t anything left to say about it
I just kind of have to feel through it.
And I don’t want to
But I want to

And it’s so exhausting having this battle in my head
For so long
When you were only here for so long.
157 · Jun 2018
Wanted
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I didn’t want perfect
Or magical

I wanted your word
To hold true.
151 · Jun 2018
Say my name
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I don’t really care
How or why you say it
I just wanna hear it
Feel it
One more time
151 · Jun 2018
perspective
aryanalynae Jun 2018
a chapter
to me
was a page
to you

a match
lit flame
was a match
burned out
148 · Jun 2018
Nah
aryanalynae Jun 2018
Nah
You could be anywhere
I don’t feel you near
Who are you with?
-nah I won’t wonder there
147 · Jun 2018
Lies
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I don’t really know how it works or why it works but things just work sometimes.
But I don’t really know how or why but people do tell lies
146 · Jun 2020
Trust
aryanalynae Jun 2020
Firmly believed in relying on you
Firmly believed in the truth.
Firmly grasped on strength and ability,
I put all my faith in you.
145 · May 2018
away
aryanalynae May 2018
Something shifted
Something lifted
A weight maybe
Away, away baby.

I’m in my center
And I’m manipulating the scene
When I’m in my center
I manifest my dreams
144 · May 2018
Have not
aryanalynae May 2018
Haven’t felt it
In a minute

Haven’t dealt it
But I might give it
122 · May 2018
Shatters
aryanalynae May 2018
Cluttered and battered
Pieces lay shattered

It’s cold and it’s lifeless
It’s dreaming of times when

It beat for the pulse
It beat for the pulse

And I try to clean it up
I try to fix it up
119 · May 2018
|Trust
aryanalynae May 2018
Trust is a funny thing
How we crave it
How we deserve it
Yet we have the hardest time giving it.

Trust is a confusing thing
How we manage it
How we measure it
Yet we can’t manipulate it.

We can’t change it. We can’t just create it.
But we have it, and we earn it.

— The End —