Happiness looks sweet on her
It looks cute on you too

And I could cry and sob from joy
Because that’s all I ever wanted for you

I knew I was actually heartbroken
when I didn't miss you just at 2am
but also at 2pm, when I was in a room full of people

when I looked for you as I pulled into my parking lot.
when I drove by the event center we went to a couple nights before you left.

when I checked my phone and didn't respond to anything
because I didn't see your name

when I started posting more on that one social platform
hoping you'd catch me smiling and fall for it again.

when I  had someone amazing right in front of me,
but I only had eyes for you.

when I realized every move I'm still making,
is in hopes that it works with the ones you might be making now.

when I came home, and it didn't feel like home.

I have a note saved
It doesn’t have your name
But it has all the words
That I’d like to say

I won’t send it
I’m waiting for the time
When you reach out
And I can claim what’s mine

My time was risked
You let it go to waste
And now I have nothing left
Maybe you should’ve thought about it that day

Maybe you should’ve reconsidered
When I begged and asked you to
Maybe you shouldn’t of asked me to leave
When it meant I’d be detached from you.

Maybe just maybe you’ll never send that message
But I’m convinced time wasn’t on our side,
And when it is you will be tempted.

I don’t want to manipulate ya
Just wanna see you happy
Say what you’ve been doing
And let you know I’ve been thinking

About how you deserve the world
You deserve the hearts you have
And i wouldn’t change anything
And I don’t ever really look back

But I still care about you
And I wonder how you are
I know you’re fine without me
But I still love you from afar

It’s the only way I can
It’s the only way I even know how
Just wish I could wish you congrats
Let you know that I am proud

You’re not here
But you’re right here
And all just feels so right
I waited years
I waited weeks
And I think I can wait some more nights

it was all in my head,
that's how it felt when you said
those words that brought ache to my heart
yeah I took the news pretty hard.

I never questioned it,
it was something I was sure of,
and when you said those words,
the doubt poured in and was unheard of.

now I'll question it
no matter the outcome
and I'll wonder if it was in my head
or if I just fell too hard in love.

I wasn't looking when you found me
that's a joke, cuz I found you.
maybe you approached me,
but I'm the one who fell for you.

and I can go out and see other people
they see me smile and look nice,
but I'm hugging them goodbye,
and kissing our memories goodnight at night.

emotionally unavailable. Its out in the open every time,
and I state it, and relay it... but you don't know those words of mine.

I'm counting down the hours,
I know you leave in a couple days.
and my heart is hurting because you haven't called,
but what would we say anyways?

I didn’t want perfect
Or magical

I wanted your word
To hold true.

I don’t really care
How or why you say it
I just wanna hear it
Feel it
One more time

a chapter
to me
was a page
to you

a match
lit flame
was a match
burned out

You could be anywhere
I don’t feel you near
Who are you with?
-nah I won’t wonder there

Haven’t felt it
In a minute

Haven’t dealt it
But I might give it

Firmly believed in relying on you
Firmly believed in the truth.
Firmly grasped on strength and ability,
I put all my faith in you.