As I leap forward to touch
I pull myself in danger and terror
like the forbidden tree
I enter into a forbidden trance

A place where only desire resides
where hands are restless and reach for love
where bodies arouse
I enter into a forbidden trance

A mixture of feelings and emotions
a wave of fear that sweeps off the smile from my face
i touch my finger tips to yours and caress you
I enter into a forbidden trance

The thought of loss petrifies me
your soul conquers me
it is you that I yearn for knowing the consequences
I find myself entering a forbidden trance.

Let the spotlight shine on us,
Let the route take us to a place without any fuss.
Let there  be haters,
Let there be lovers.

I just wanna play in this rainy weather,
With my friends,
Let people Judge all they want,
Let  them haunt.

Because clearly I don't care,
About you,
About him,
Or about them.

Somewhere afar,
                                                 ­ There
                                                   lives
                                              something
   ­                                                   so
           ­                                         dark,
                  ­                                  That
                          ­                          evicts
                                ­                  the soul,
                                      And sets the body apart.

                                                     This
                                                 evil demon
                                                     first
                                                 possesses
                                                  the body,
                                        Leaving behind scars.

                                                       I
                                                have not
                                                  found
     ­                                                  a
                                                 suitable
                                             horror movie
                                                       to
                                                   watch,
                                                      So
 ­                                                  this is
                                                    what
       ­                                        so far I got !

A sedation that leaves only thirst for more
a desire unsaid of love and wreck
a mixture of two odds
sinful, yet irresistible

A bond of two
sensationally and physically tied
strengthened by a charismatic bond
so involved, so intimate

A journey to depths
in a state of euphoria
existing in a place like utopia
where there's only passion for more and more

A craving for you to come close
a relentless yearn of not letting go
such little time but such long distances
leaving behind everything and going faraway

A feeling of emptiness on the skin
tears involuntarily stream down touching the corners of the lips
'tis the last time in a long time that we meet
'twas the departing of the lips that silently whispered, 'Until next time'!

My heart  sinks in abyss,
My lungs stiffen,
And my brain stops,
Delirious is my soul,

Unshaken memories,
Pained and mortifying me,
My life ruined,
But as i seek, i pursue peace,

Such a deep hole,
Dripping blood from this drenched soul,
Cold as ice and hot as a stove,
Trying to mend this scar to heal as soon as he comes home.

Words cut deep inside her flesh,
Her eyes drip salt trailing down her cheek,
Before he would come and stop it from dripping off her cheek,
Now she has no one to stop them as they shed,

Her heart breaks reminiscing the times she spent with him,
Weak and careless she feels not being rectified,
Before he would be near and escalate her heartbeat,
Now her heart merely beats abyss through her veins,

Her wounded arms feels him grasp her,
Deprived they are of his touch and scarred all over with blood dripping down,
Before he would trace the veins down her arm making her skin ache for more,
Now she feels empty thinking when he would come back.

How enticing were you, my dear,
How beautiful was our love,
Drowning in the river of despair,
Taking in might from everywhere,
I look into your glistened eyes,
'Brace yourself', I say as I walk away,

Before this I was the one who would say,
'Please don't go away',
And you would say,
'Love changes with time',
I would cry for you to stay,
But you would not even look back to stare,

My abhor for you rejuvenates,
My heart frail though my emotions fade,
You come back to me in realization that you'd made a mistake,
But i guess embracing our love will put my heart at stake,
Shaken by our long lost love,
I take down the path where my demons are caged and ready to escape.

I vow to that day,
If I ever found you somewhere,
Devastated and hurt,
I'd come and console you before you break in tears

This was the promise you made,
Now look where it took us,
You fled away,
Leaving me to myself in tears,

I will love you forever,
Till the day I stay,
Never will I let a drop fall,
Because you are my life forever more

If this was your definition of everlasting love,
Then I'd rather shove all of it away,
Find myself somewhere else,
Hiding myself in a dark place,

I will always support you no matter what,
Never will you receive any sorrow,
You are precious to me,
And you're my eternity,*

These were the last lines I ever remember,
The next thing I remember is you left,
Breaking all promises you never kept,
My mental and physical pain you should know is because of you and your ***** little lies that I embraced

Unsure of my faith,
I take down to the path that's vague,
Where there's paradox and limitless clues-
That somehow intervene these strings of hope,
Loops and knots assemble one by one that cause recurrent pain,
Shadowed by the blanket of darkness,
Illuminated by the edge of dawn,
A low sigh escapes,
Breathless and outdated-
Remorse lurks behind the doors of ache,
Ready to be set free once every ending year

Under the moonlight,
He stood mesmerizing the sparkle and glow on her face-

Those beautiful eyes he saw for the first time,
Stole an eternity of charisma,

Her eyes so electric and enticing,
Opened up all the secret passages in his heart,

Under the moonlight,
He stood mesmerizing the sparkle and glow on her face-

Her eyes held so much intensity,
That they could drown anyone who would look at them,

Her gaze melted him from the inside,
And yearned for her attention,

Under the moonlight,
He stood mesmerizing the sparkle and glow on her face-

Captivating smile,
Engrossing all my attention,

I had no such intentions,
As to pursue him,

But it was that smile,
Entrancing and sensual,

His words so replete,
They make me gullible,

Your precious and enchanting presence,
Important to me.

I will refute your thoughts,
Shun every word you say,
And break all the rules,
Because we both know I'm already astray,

I get caught up in my wistfulness,
But that's all because I'm mortified of what people will say,
My sanity loosens it's hold around me,
These once unbreakable chains now set free,

Two ends that may never meet,
This is more than just an affair,
It's a story of love and hate,
Lust and escape,

Innumerable times have i said i love you,
Countless times you've said the same,
But now I feel as if it was all in vain,
The flame we ignited burned everything in its way and left us with nothing but pain.

I will keep in my mind,
From the very day you stop talking to me,
I will assume we're done,

I just can't take more heart break,
Neither do i have the guts to give you a chance,
I'm far too weak to listen to you blab.

You mean more to me,
Than diamonds and sapphires.

His idiocy infuriates me,
He is always trying to ridicule with people,
Thinking he can win all respect.

The way he talks,
He puts me in paradox,
Thank God !
I'm impervious to his absurdity.

Falling a prey to his stories,
Would be a fault,
Don't want to believe his sarcasm,
Because all it gets me is wroth !

I was told the first time you lay your eyes on me,
It was not attraction it was love,

I was told about things you hadn't felt before,
For i was the reason that made you feel more alive,

But this time if something happens to me,
I'd say I'd be the reason of your salvation!

Departed is my soul;
that fled ages ago,
from my mind and my heart,
in angst and sorrow,
chained by the perplexities of tomorrow,
I drag myself to my salvation,

pain is what defoliates me internally,
I defenselessly weaken my strengths and stumble on my own burdens;
stammer on my words and live in my past full of regrets,
for I may have erred;
which is why I am compelled to think of desolation,

since I fear to lose my companions and the people I adore the most;
i am shattered and feel no more,
all my once ecstatic energy fades,
yet I believe there is much to decipher;
to untie the knots within me,
and to mend my frail and lost soul.

Senseless and sensual kisses cover my body,
trailing down from my lips to my legs,
your hands move slowly down my back
locking me in long breathless kisses,

The feeling of your lips on mine leaves me tangled
arousing each and every part of my body,
butterflies and knots tighten and loosen in my stomach,
it feels like haven in your arms,

The gap between the two of us closes
igniting ****** sparks and yearning our bodies for more,
you touch me in ways I can't explain
and my soul so mere, rejuvenates!

I've stayed quite long in despair,
Lurked my fears, faked my emotions,
I've been asked by many if i was okay,
But I kept myself composed and engraved,
So many times i fell in abyss,
A different dimension with hopelessness contained,
I cried alone in the darkness,
Everytime that i was pale I'd say,'I'm okay!',
Slowly and gradually i lost my faith,
In burdening up sins and choosing to be left stained,
On losing a part of me i realized,
How alone i was and how regretful i was,
It was the emptiness in my soul that struck me hard,
It was the fraility in the choice of my words that sunk me in the dark,
Every tear that  I shed,
Every memory that i had,
All but a lie pulling me to my own death,
All the guilt that i had,
Scared of what I'd done and i how I'd face God,
I lost myself half way and the other half just faded away!

I thought that the pain had ceased,
I thought that I was healing,
Like the scars that once marked my body,
Or the memories that once haunted me every night before I slept, they were no more,
But I guess I was wrong,
I mistook my feelings,
I was broken through and through,
I was still drenched in abyss,
My heart still ached and regretted of letting go,
Whatever song I hear,
Whatever I read,
Whatever I watch,
All it leads me to is you,
You're the root cause of all my failures and my hurt,
My soul seeks only your presence,
My comfort, my stability,
You weaken the chains in my heart that were once strong,
Now they just rust on the edge and fall apart in a millionth piece,
I thought that the pain had ceased,
I thought that I was healing,
But I guess I was wrong,
It's all melancholy that has me going on and on,
Though, hope that's kept me calm for so long.

He resides within my heart,
My soul ready to succumb,
But I have sadly erred-
To an extent where I've compelled him to leave me in despair,
Stranded alone in this suicidal world,

I lost him on my doings,
My moods and my desperation,
He's gone faraway and I, space bound-
Shed tears and wait for him to come back,
Wanting to rectify my mistake and change things forever,

Told people that I moved on,
That I've forgotten the pain he's put me through,
Though embarrassed of my eagerness,
He should've known he was my drug,
My healer, my decay,

If I die a millionth each day-
It's because of his absence and his ignorance,
Going through shackles,
Pulled into abyss,
How shallow am I, wanting someone who doesn't want me?

In this deserted Island,
Where I currently reside,
I move in haste,
So I could runaway,
From all this crazy haze.

I need chocolate moose,
And some yummy soups,
So I can quinch my thirst,
Not by drinking though,
Just eating food.

Bit by bit
my faith fled
leaving only pieces
and shards of evil,

The darkness that dwells within me
the hurt that excruciates within me
it all showed
in form of hate,

The walls of my heart vandalize
leaving behind scars and pained memories
it was not me
it was what society made me.

The luminous cascading of light-
Penetrates through my soul,
The warmth of the radiance,
The glow within the pores of my skin,
Alights my heart and yearns for more,

Acknowledging the deprivation and the cold,
Stranded in a meadow shattered and alone,
My eyes shed poignancy,
And my heart remorse,
What you don't know is you're my shelter as a whole.

crumpled in a corner,
slavery and savagery strikes him hard,
on his body marked
and scarred,
bruises increment linearly down his back,

whipped not once,
not twice, not thrice,
innumerable times,
his body aches and trembles in pain,
****** tears shed as he prays,

gazing in the sky,
he seeks for help,
cries for his mother,
an infant is he,
taken away by barbarity and atrocity,

'mama' he screams in pain,
'where are you?' he keeps shouting,
the murderers keep striking, keep slicing,
slowly killing each child,
causing pain and tortuously straining,

crawling towards the end of the street,
beyond the wall he lurks,
the arising pain seems to augment,
as he controls himself trying not to cause distraction,
silently sobbing for God to help,

he knows this is the last of the city,
corpse's lay in each street,
with blood streaming in drains,
burnt houses, beheaded children,
in the whole city bodies lay either restless or awaiting for their souls to be taken away.

They say people get stronger with each scar,
people get wiser with every step,
but its all the total opposite,
scars make you weaker,
and experiences shatter you into bits and leave you restless.

Convinced by the hurtful lies and beliefs of tomorrow
i probe deeper into my thoughts
and find myself fixated at this one incident that haunts me forever
since i was a child i was told that things get better
that times heals your pain
but now i know, it was all just lies
the promises made by people
the reassurance of my companions that they would stay by my side
everything is so clear now, i lost it all
all those poems and quotes that i once never understood
all the lyrics and the untold stories that i grasped from people who were depressed
they all seem now to have clouded my mind
these things were all going to happen
yet, i was ambiguous of the fact that they'd occur
reality is what hit me hard
all my expectations went down the drain leaving nothing, but me frail!

White pearly skin,
Red blazing lips,
Deep greyish blue eyes,

Her alluring touch,
Her walking style,
Seducts him and captivates his eyes,

My wounds slit open
With blood oozing out
Spilling and emptying from my veins
My flesh so deeply ruptured
My heart almost beats its end
Only a minute away from death
My desires unheard
My story untold
I regret as I was once an introvert
Wanted the world to know me more
But nearing my death, no more!
It's not me internally that departs
Not just my soul
But also my existence will now only be a secret
Veiled and buried forever.

I could not have been more sure about my feelings,
Until the day you and I began,
I knew for sure that it has always been you,
The one whom I have been waiting for,
You came in my life, like a bolt swifty taking all of me away;
Piece by piece,
I knew from the start that you would change my life,
I prayed for the day to come where God gives you a chance to prove to my family about your worth,
About the love that you have for me,
Our promises were not just put in words,
I carved each and every bit of detailed conversations we had to my heart,
I know you are my other half,
And I know that it's only you i want.

Petal by petals shed,
Each petal holds bits of my soul,
The day it all sheds of this rose,
There will be no rose and no soul,
You'll cry then,
And there will be no one to attest.

A true gentleman tells you what wrong you've done and doesn't do something against your will, rather than abusing you or manipulating you.

Writing.....
It gives me peace,
It makes me feel at ease,
Comfort and love
Not a question
Its better than eating and sleep.
Whilst writing I feel free,
To write anything I like,
No one to consent,
No one to condemn.

I'll forgive you when I want,
Just not right now because i can't !!!

As I spill droplets of ink on my pages,
As I take a stroll down memory lane,
As I make everyday a joyous day,
I will still say,
I have a dream,

As I connect with my thoughts,
As I sail beyond the horizon of this world,
As I make each and everyday count
I will still say,
I have a dream,

As the wind blows in extreme,
As the meadows afar my country call for me,
As the conscience in my head communicates with me,
I will still say,
I have a dream.

What is it about you that's so captivating?
What is it about the way you smile that leaves me breathless?
What is it about your touch that makes me numb?

It could be the way you talk, the way you play with your words that touches my soul,
It could be the way you beam that attractive smile or laugh, when I talk ludicrous,
It could be the magnetism in your touch that leaves me marked all over,

What is it about your eyes that sinks me into their depth?
What is it about that laugh that gives me goosebumps?
What is it about the way you brush your hands through your hair that excites me?

It could be the sparkle in the way you look at me that makes me fall more in love with you,
It could be that when you laugh at my idiocy I know that you notice me and listen to what I say,
The reason could be that this happens in my presence, whenever you look at me you brush your hands through your hair.

Fear of losing someone has made her pale,
All she ever does is sit in the dark and stare,
As her heart pumps blood she feels him near,
Wounds and scars all over her body seem to scare,
She feels her soul being awaken,
Though her heart is broken beyond repair,
The experience of falling apart has made her stand on her feet,
She now knows how to absorb the heat,
Ups and downs have done her good,
Because now she knows that what was worth, was understood,
A new life has now come forth,
Leaving behind all the sarcastic oaths,
She has now forgotten his presence,
Learning only from her regrets, a lesson of pride and possession....

You made a mistake,
But you have no courtesy to man up and say sorry !!!

Drunken,
Laying under the magnificence of thee
Enchanted in your company
Searching the eternity-
My eyes scan beauty
Your raven black hair that fall on your face,
Your silken kisses
And soft touch
Trembles my body
Erupting arousals
My legs locked unable to move,
Electrifying each stroke
I feel at haven when encased in your love
I move in to touch you
And you vanish in a flash,
I open my eyes in tears
Knowing that it was just another mind game,
Dreams sadden me
As I lay on my bed alone-
Lost in my memory,
Feeling its exquisiteness.

Losing her was the worst thing that ever happened in his life,
The heart touching flashbacks were very painful,
Her demise had a devastating affect on his career,
All he could think about was how beautiful she was,
The only memory that she had left behind,
Her breathtaking smile that could mend a gazillion hearts,
Her eyes that would sparkle under the moonlight,
She had left only a glimpse of herself,
He felt miserable not telling her earlier how he had felt about her,
And experiencing his utmost love and desire for her,
This guilt had ruined him and broke his heart,
He could now never love someone as much as he loved her,
Her presence was enchanting to him,
She was everything he ever had,
His heart had to bear her absence but deep down he knew that she would always be there for him.....

You shattered my heart,
Broke it like a colliding star,

Afar this galaxy as I see a shooting star,
My eyes and my heart teary as well as scarred, feel vexation grow every passing hour,

Your ignorance kills me from the inside,
My pain and anger, it just doesn't matter at all,

For you I'm just another toy,
Use me, tell me you love me and then leave me,

This I know you will later on do,
Break me into a dozen pieces and make me feel worthless.

I tried to encase the demons within me
But they escaped and fed on me
Slowly and consequently controlled me and my actions
Oh God i shunned and acted astray
I did the unutterable and made quite a few mistakes
But it was not me
It was because of society that led me to commit such acts and awoke my demons
I was trapped amongst perfectionists and flamboyant people
I was so carried away by what others did, had i known earlier of the consequences, i would never have erred
Expectations and manipulation provoked me
I became so weak that i forgot what it means to be free
I tried to encase the demons within me
But they escaped and fed on me.