I tried to encase the demons within me
But they escaped and fed on me
Slowly and consequently controlled me and my actions
Oh God i shunned and acted astray
I did the unutterable and made quite a few mistakes
But it was not me
It was because of society that led me to commit such acts and awoke my demons
I was trapped amongst perfectionists and flamboyant people
I was so carried away by what others did, had i known earlier of the consequences, i would never have erred
Expectations and manipulation provoked me
I became so weak that i forgot what it means to be free
I tried to encase the demons within me
But they escaped and fed on me.

We live in a moraless and more materialistic society.

What is life to me?
It was merely a speck of happiness to me
It came along bundled with expectations and mysteries
But ended with deception and pain,
I anticipated the world to be harmonious
I visioned peace and honesty
I believed and saw the good in everybody
But then discovered pretense personalities and hearts filled with hatred,
I believed that God entrusted everyone with integrity
I never judged another on the basis of their faith or character
To me all this didn't matter
But today I push back my thoughts and falter to state that this world is clustered with liars and envious people who earnestly indulge in despair.

Strive for more but never complain.

Let your thoughts drive you in the depth of your imagination.

A sweet and pleasurable urge to read,
Had I known what was to come forth,
As I read and concentrated on the rhythm of each sentence,
I had fell in love with not the way it was written,
But, the hero himself,
An intense description that I had read,
Feeling a sense of attraction,
Immense heat was present between the two characters,
Finally putting a little effort to search it up,
Only then had i acknowledged the pain,
The ****** in the book dies.... !!!!!!

Shadows haunt me,
I crumple in the corner of my room trying to release my aggravation,
Exiling my monotonous routine-
Of forcefully smiling,
I tremble at the twitch of the corners of my lips,
My tears flow hastily down my cheeks,
Pausing on every bump,
The coldness in my heart and my soul increments as I gradually fade away with the wind,
Crude words; half broken, half unspoken try escaping my mouth,
But not a word is said,
As if a lumpy feeling rages from within and a soundless whisper comes out,
Tortured and chained relentlessly in the dungeon of fear.

We're so far off,
Seems to me like we're seven sea's away,
Half way the globe but we still stay,
And hope we do forever,
Entangled in eachother's arms.

A 100 miles,
A 1000 miles,

Nothing matters to me,
Unless we're talking about you,

A city away,
A country away,

Distances may increase,
But my heart and love for you may never cease,

An ocean apart,
A continent apart,

My feelings of loneliness and deprivation long gone,
They may always fulfill with the memory of you,

A planet away,
Within the stars,

The light or ray of hope I see,
I see myself believe its your heart that calls me,

Beyond the Galaxy,
Betwixt the universe,

A lot may change in my life,
But one thing I an honestly say is, we may never depart.

Four years have passed,
Changing seasons,
Falling leaves,

I remember that September,
That smile on my face,
When we both met,

I have never forgotten you ever since,
Your deep grey eyes,
Your perfect smile,

Our on going  conversations,
And never ending fights,
They were exquisite to me,

Then one day you left,
Shattering all my love and peace,
You were gone, just like that.

I cried my heart out,
But you never came back,
You see, you were everything to me.

One day you reconnected with me in hope of again,
Though it did not make me love thee,
For I lost the love and respect that I once had,

Regretting now what I had done,
I want you back,
Oh dear, please come back.

Calm my forgiving heart,
And we shall never depart,
Till death do us part.

Everything feels, but doesn't feel at the same time.

Dancing silhouettes,
Awaking the dead,
As they pass the forbidden,
They enter a ghastly looking place,
Trees envelope the darkness in there blanket,
Walking deeper and deeper into the jungle,
Slowly the clouds start to disappear,
Voices of predators hunting their prey,
Cold blood everywhere,
Eluding the lonely jungle,
Dwelling into the souls,
Within the forests territory,
A dark looking monster lives,
Afar the trees,
In a tiny cottage,
Where only a chimney expels such hate,
Submerged within the gas particles are the ashes and smoke of the innocent,
Who kills only for pleasure,
Not caring about the rest,
A bright light will one day show,
A man in shining armor,
And kids with audacious hearts will fight against this evil ****,
Stab him in the chest,
And take away his life a thousand times,
The way he took theirs,
To teach him a lesson,
Slit his exposed body,
And slowly and painfully finish him off.

If only i had a chance to relive my past;
i would
i have a reputation of feeling worthless and not knowing what it really means to be loved
or does it eventually happen when you taste the true essence of life?
if i had a chance to undo my scars and heal from what i have experienced
i would start by conquering my fear and standing up for who i am
i let people overrun me
i let liars and my enemies manipulate me
and where has it left me?
nowhere!
if only there was still a way to remove all my sorrow or my pain
i know i would exultantly leap forward and take the step of erasing the wrongs i have done
and then making each moment precious by believing in who i am
also, rather than being told what to do
for once doing things my own way
i wanna be who i am and not lurk behind.

Stars collide,
Meteors crash,
Planets revolve,
The galaxy swirls in circular motion,

Just like that,
My heart swipes left and right,
Trying to ease and calm a bit,
But how can I be so patient ?

They ask me why,
I say he's the reason why,
The sparkle in my eyes and smile on my face,
It's all because he's rather near.

A strong person always excels in what he/she does rather than crying and saying, 'I feel hopeless'.

Just one small lie and boom there goes your pride.

Never let anyone criticize you and stab you in your heart.

The smoke from the *** erupts,
Making it hard to breath,
Rather causing suffocation,

That's how I feel,
When I'm faraway from you,
Yearning for you to come near,

My body aches,
When I'm not near you,
Enveloped in a tight hug,

My heart feels spaced out,
Not allowing to be let in,
As you banished me,

Lets now forget the past,
And move on,
Remembering only the good times we spent together.

I feel like i have failed in life
Was once so content
Now not even fine
I used to stand upright
Was steady and focused
But now all that might shattered into bits
My soul withering gradually from my body
I have yet to rise
But things have led me to my own demise
Destructed from within
I smile to show others I'm alright
From within however I'm dead and empty
I have failed not only myself
But also the people around me
Now only left with hopelessness and self despise.

Serene voice,
Enthralling personalities,
Qualities one can seek in such audacious men,
Fervent and keen.

Melancholy though can shatter all hope,
Feeling vain,
At times of catastrophe,
All heroic fades in remorse and devastation.

The enraging war,
Has brutally slaughtered millions,
Injured as well,
One can't visualize things that easy.

There's no peace after war,
Blood and human flesh all around,
White coffins and teary eyes,
Death is just a call from God.

The real test is the after life,
Where no one can neither lie nor judge,
Oh please God stop these enemies from slaying our families,
Please let there be tranquility.

Your reluctant nature,
My saddened smile,
Our expressions synchronized,

Our relationship has taken a lot to repair,
Because of your ignorant attitude,
And my eagerness of not having to wait,

This relationship is one sided,
That's what I'll say,
Because lately I see no spark,

Your hesitant self,
My deliberateness,
Opposite of sane,

Nothing makes sense anymore,
Neither the way you talk,
Nor the way you say that you love me,

Let's give it a break,
See others and analyze what the distance will say,
Because it will resolve all the issues either making us stay or not.

I wrote a new rap,
Which is so bad that you won't clap.

What's more sad is that,
It's worse than bad !

How can someone become so ;
Hopeless ?
Not knowing their abilities.
Or,
Talent as well, maybe.

Confused and mortified by society.
I wonder,
How you can move on.

Not even trying,
You keep saying the same thing.

She left you !
So what ?
Keep your head in the game.

Aim to be the best.
Then,
Be the best !

People usually change their perceptions the moment they find out the truth.

Flowers blossom the terraces
the garden filled with a familiar smell
an aroma of love
and a fragrance of hurt
there in the ditch I stumble and fall
reality is revealed
and so is the deceit that I embraced.

You're quite far from me,
My heart calls for thee,
Through the rustling leaves and the wind blowing,
I send you my love,

The particles of love,
Carried across the meadows,
In search of you,
Soon it'll find you and you'll feel the warmth of my hug,

I love you a lot,
Not only on this day,
You're something special to me,
That I'll savor for the rest of my life.

Death has enveloped me in its blanket,
Leaving me shattered from the inside,

My heart cut out from my body,
Stolen by a lover,
Hypnotized by his love-
I grieve feeling broken and in pain,
Wanting only to cut off from this world;
Disappearing, only by locking myself up in my own room,

Because, death has enveloped me in its blanket,
Leaving me shattered from the inside,

Now all I see is tears dripping down, merged by my blood,
Iron and salt mix-
As they trail down my arm,
Scars bleed,
Love unbearable,
He has left nothing to hope for!

Raging beastly within,
Scoundrel you are,
Silly I was,

Then came the days you paved away,
Leaving me drenched in tears,
Poignant and pained,

After the last three to four years,
I stood up strong on my feet,
Audacious and not at all weak,

You now sit alone,
Regretting and reminiscing,
Indeed,

You want me back now,
But how should I put it and say,
That now I'm happy and I don't care,

Now you lock yourself up,
Die inside a millionth time like I did,
Hit your head on things and say,' I'm sorry',

But knowing the pain you afflicted me with,
I won't give way,
Or you a chance to stay.

Let not words deceive you.

Grasping in my strength,
My courage seems to spark inside of me,
I need sane and peace-
a chance to be seen,
to be read,
and confided upon,

It's not me,
It's not my ego or temperament,
It's more complicated than this,
I want recalcitrant beliefs to be complete,
I want recognition-
so that people stand by my side,

I want to fight this war alone if I have to,
I don't want to see kids weep,
I don't want the needy to be unheard,
I want change-
prosperity and progression,
I want to be part of this deed,

I want not orphans to be insecure,
I don't want a petrified nation-
weak and restricted to do stuff in terms of fear,
I want to vandalize all walls of abhor-
I want to block out all these second thoughts,

If I have to stand up for my country-
fight for my land;
my soil and its blood,
I shall do so,
No one can stop me from being bold,
At least not threats as far as I'm concerned!

I don't care what people say,
I'm prone to what I do.

I am the master of my own thoughts,
So, rather than complaining
Deal with it !

The exalted valleys call to me,
The echo I hear farthest away,
Speak to me,
Your voice so melodious,
So chimy,
Churns my heart,
Hollowing the holes beneath,
O my love,
Is this love true?

As the sun drowns,
Afar the sea and betwixt the mountain,
It vanishes,

Everywhere a shadow takes over,
Spreading its blanket in the distance,
Only the moon lits,

It's strengthened light guides the way,
Helps during the dark,
Motivates hope and encourages those hiding,

It washes away the scars,
Heals the heart,
And revives the soul,

It's the only time of the hour,
Where you can be yourself,
And not hide away from the rest,

Those who are dragged into a dark place,
Brighten up,
And their spirit sparks inside,

The only time when I feel confident,
I don't get judged,
And without someones consent I can do as I feel.

I feel annoyed,
All my parents ever do is complain,
Complain about this,
Complain about that.
I have no life !
I feel hopeless and shattered.
I'm not a kid anymore,
I deserve privacy.

Reasons and ways I implemented,
Words I carefully chose,
The attitude and furry that I controlled,

Was it not enough for you ?
Was it me ?
Or was it someone else?

You came in my life in a shot,
Captured my heart which in the beginning had already chosen not to love,
But you took it away and then had no courtesy to stay,

You left me without a reason,
No answers had I perceived,
I waited for my pleading and questions to be seen,

Then once you did,
You made fun of me,
I just need to know what I did that's all,

Give me an answer,
And I promise I'll leave,
And stop being hopeful about thee.

I don't like liars,
I don't like cheats,
If they're like this to me,
Then I'm not sweet !

I have lived in fear
Petrified of the darkness that takes over my soul
Spoiled and scarred by the society
I've been taken advantage of
I've been taken for granted
My heart stabbed a million times-
Now shattered into bits
The strength that was once within me, exits my body
I feel hopeless and only it is death that envelopes me into its chains
I am held and tortured
My thoughts drift-
Gloom stricken, I lack the ability to endure
Which is why I have drowned in my own sorrow and regrets.

It may seem all that good,
But love in its way says,
Keep away !!

Never get caught up in this wistfulness,
For love is a matter of haste and betrayal.  
BEWARE !

Lose not your hold over your emotions, but also sway with the crowd and merge in as they roll.

Memories,
Sigh,
Memories will always be just memories,

I remember the time you held my hand,
The time you pulled me close,
And I remember getting hung over,

Your I love you's,
So addicting,
Were a drug to me,

What potion was I given,
That once spell on me still hasn't broken,
It has enclosed memories of you in my heart,

The warmth of your hug,
The way your arms tightened around me,
Magic was in my veins,

It was me wholly entrapped in your love,
It made me happy,
It made me smile,

You made me lose myself,
Most importantly,
My shadow mysteriously vanished replacing you,

Your touch,
Like electricity made me shudder,
These were all symptoms of me falling in love,

But that's that,
They were just memories,
Now they reside incomplete and unsparked in my scarred and used heart.

Mysteries ?
Yes, mysteries unsolved.
Have you ever experienced such a phenomena ?
Last night I went to an elegant ball,
I chatted with a dozen women in the corner of the hall,
Never have I seen something so ravishing as her,
Raven hair hanging loose,
A woman in red dress.
Her alluring gaze,
That just swept my feet of the floor.
I walked to where she was,
Shoving the crowd aside,
I arrive at my destination,
And she's gone !
Where could she have been ?