sometimes,
you have to accept

that things won’t ever change
no matter how much time and effort
you put into it

i’m not strong;

i’ve just learned
to accept the things life gives

and stop wishing
for the things i cannot have

that’s not strength
that’s wisdom

i smile,
to hide the hurt when i am out in public

i laugh,
to chase away the tears so people don’t know

but,
look into my eyes;
you will see the pain hidden there

if i don’t fit
in this generation’s standards of beauty;
if i have to follow others’ standards of beauty
to truly become beautiful,

then, i will have to become a different standard

no, wait
this can’t happen yet

i need you to know,
i’m not some insecure, jealous girlfriend

i just,
when i get something that i’ve wanted for a really long time, sometimes i do this thing

yeah, i’m overthinking

but sometimes,
i say things that i don’t really need to say
but, i’m just scared that i’m the only one thinking of them

it’s just that sometimes
when people do nice things for me

i short circuit

maybe, i’m not used to it
or maybe i’m scared of getting hurt
or being rejected for being myself

those stars,
look like they’re close to each other
but they’re actually very far away, aren’t they?

it’s like you and me;

the things you see aren’t always real
how hard must i try in order
to understand the unseen truth?