I woke up from the rain
For two hours I remained
In my bed thinking
In my own thoughts I am sinking

Over and over this thought comes to mind
What did I do this time?
Did I make a mistake,
Or is this guilt fake?

I feel like I hurt you
What have I come to..

Have I turned into a monster?

Wondering and waiting, sitting and watching
Am I not aware of what I am causing?
I keep a watchful eye on you, but still I am clueless
What are you thinking, I know wondering is useless

What the hell am I going to do
I just want our bond to be renewed
Please don't hate me
But this is what I foresee

I am so scared that I ******* this up
Please go on your way, and I wish you luck
For I am truly sorry for the pain I caused
And for now everything is paused

She feels empty
Every morning
Every night
It seems like things
Will never be right


Her life is crooked
Her love has faded
Nothing she does
Is ever appreciated

Kicked aside
To the curb
No one cares
if she’s lonely or hurt

They just laugh, point and stare
It’s not like she really cares
She’s the odd one out,
The freak of the crowd

To them she’s just another joke
They wont allow her to be close
An outcast is she
Never to be free

She sees only one way out
The way that cowards take
A bullet to the brain
A knife in her side
Standing in front of a train

All she wants is the pain to subside

Pierced through me

Is the shard she sent

Through her eyes

Oh she’s so divine

I cant keep her off me

Scratches
Burns
Scrapes
Kisses
Scars

Things that wont ever fade

Physically beautiful

Mentally insane

Why are things this way

Get off me-- just get off

I’m done with you

I told you we were through

I hope to die,
I hope to perish,
Leave me-- just leave

One more night

I dont have anything

anymore

everyone left me

to rot

they all just forgot

that I existed

how could this happen

again

I thought things were..

I thought things were..

improving

and now all I have are tears,
plenty of fears

and a heart full
of broken promises

I can't do this anymore
The tears come regularly
And another slash is added to
the final score,
the final tally.

We are already at
one too many,
overflowed,
full and plenty.

I can't move on,
I just can't seem to get a grip,
I really can't forget,
you flood my mind--
fill my gaps--
And without you,
I slowly collapse.

I know this happens often
To suddenly be tossed away
And forgotten
Stopped before completion,
Left to rot, and then readily,
Crumbles to pieces
Only to be swept to the side
I know what it feels like to be lonely,
Sad, broken hearted and led to my demise
Let me cry and sob and thrash
I know this time I wont last
Leave me be, just please leave me
At this point, nothing will complete me

woof woof
went the dog
who barks until his throat is sore

hiss hiss
went the cat
who growled until her fear was no more

ouch ouch
says the girl
as she slowly fades away

die die
says her mind
which thinks she's a waste of time

forget forget
says her heart
which tells her to stay strong

fight fight
says her love
which keeps her going along