I think you’re already the person you want to be,
You just don’t let yourself be her.

how do you disemble a wall you never conciously created.
how do you let someone into the deepest parts of you when you dont even like to go there for long.
when you cant get there.
lost under the shadows of the ever growing walls.
knowing any attampt to climb would be to accecpt death.
yet to be overwhelmed under them
is to be forever lost
Therfore never truly even living.

I just try and ruin everything before it has the chance to ruin me.

you'd rather ruin a good thing,
in attempt to control some level of hurt,
rather than soak in current happiness.

confusion about why I'm confused.

How can you support someone,
while they're the reason youre needing support?

why do so many words whirl though my mind,
but so few come out my mouth.