apathy: Favorites

Oct 2013 apathy

maybella snow

if i hung off a bridge
would you reel me in
give me kisses
and hugs
or are you just going to leave me
and wait for a bigger, better
fish to gobble me up

you dont know
you wont know
i love you
i dont want to

Oct 2013 apathy

angry oge8abdinzlkx

Oct 2013 apathy

maybella snow

angry oge8abdinzlkx

everyone's poems are of love
beauty, how happy they are
and mine are of my reality
darkness, lost, sad, real
i want to die
and you are all saying
how you love your life
im glad im the only one

Oct 2013 apathy

Do you deserve to be happy?

Oct 2013 apathy

Emma S

Do you deserve to be happy?

I don't have to see your face all the time
But honestly I never do that when I'm at home either

To know that you hate me so much that you can't even
Look at me

To know that you hate me so much that you can't even
Stop yourself from screaming whenever you decide to say something

There is no point in staying here
But no point in going home either

Wouldn't it just be easier
If I didn't do any of it

If I had a gun
Would I dare to pull the trigger to make you happy?

Do you think you deserve to be happy?
Do you truly think that you deserve to be happy after everything you put me through?

Oct 2013 apathy

let me burrow for the winter

Oct 2013 apathy

maybella snow

let me burrow for the winter

i wish to burrow into your velvet skin

deep down past the harsh coldness

into the veins leading a clear pathway

past the protecting ribs

around your sturdy collarbone

directing me to your heart

where warmth resides

as a permanent member

Oct 2013 apathy

Be careful what you wish for

Oct 2013 apathy

Emma S

Be careful what you wish for

I haven't written much since I met you
Because I've had no reason to
Most people including myself write when they are sad, angry, depressed, confused.
Since I met you I haven't felt any of that
I was thinking about the fact that I miss writing
Even though it's never anything good
Or anything even worth reading
But I miss it
And just like that
You gave me a reason to write again
So... Thank you?

haha... I knew that this, you, wasn't a good idea.
Why do I always try to fool myself?
Nobody likes you, stupid!

Oct 2013 apathy

Shadows

Oct 2013 apathy

Josh Taylor

Shadows

the shadows of branches
sprawl across my
window
reminiscent of veins
and i wonder
if my heart
will continue to
beat
pump blood
to all parts of me
or if it
will give up
as i have
these many years
past

Oct 2013 apathy

the friendly corner

Oct 2013 apathy

maybella snow

the friendly corner

pain everywhere
what to do with life
backed into a corner
stop feeling anything maybella
hold it all together
                 no one can know
                 no one
           because they all hurt
they’ll all backfire and hurt
they don’t care
and if they do
    it’ll be gone soon
don’t tell them
hide it
hold it in
you’ll be okay soon
its just a little pain
    it’ll be gone soon enough
hopefully
keep dreaming mayb
                 you’ll trip
                 you’ll fall
just, don’t bring anyone with you
       remember that
don’t let it happen
don’t let anyone care
because you’ll care about them
         and we’ll both get hurt
you’re in a corner
stay there
befriend the corner
it cant hurt you
we’ll be okay maybella
but we just have to hold it in

written a while ago but i guess it still applies

Oct 2013 apathy

i do want to care for someone

Oct 2013 apathy

maybella snow

i do want to care for someone

i want to love you
but i cant
i'm scared
and you don't
understand

Oct 2013 apathy

Second Chances, Maybe Third...Fourth...Fifth.... Sixth Chances.

Oct 2013 apathy

AJ

Second Chances, Maybe Third...Fourth...Fifth.... Sixth Chances.

I'm so sorry, baby.
I didn't mean to leave you.
I wanted to stay I really did, baby.
I'm back now, baby.
I promise.

I'm so sorry, baby.
I know you needed me.
I just felt like I wasn't good for you, baby.
I made you sad, baby.
I just wanted to help.

I'm so sorry, baby.
I felt like you were ashamed.
You hid me from everyone, baby.
Like I was evil, baby.
Why did you do that if I wasn't so bad?

I'm so sorry, baby.
I thought that I was hurting you.
I didn't mean to leave a mark, baby.
I didn't mean to make you cry.
I'll try not too, anymore.

I'm so sorry, baby.
I just felt like you were using me.
You only came to me when you needed cheering up, baby.
We were happy when we were together, baby.
You were so sad after.

I'll never leave again, baby.
Even if you can't tell your family and friends.
I'll comfort you again, baby.
I'll make it okay, baby.
I promise I'll stay forever.

My blades.
It's not an addiction.
I promise.
It only leaves a few scars.
That's not too terrible a price to pay,
Is it?