sometimes you wish you could let it go
you've been holding your feelings in for far too long
and you want to break,
and bend,
and just let it go

you want to stop hiding
every bad feeling you feel
because keeping it all in,
will never let your broken heart heal

you cant do this anymore,
you can't keep it in
but you cant let it go

please let it go,
it will help you heal,
conceal don't feel,
let it go

i sit in the cold
angry, frustrated, fed up,
done

i dont move,
not an inch
all i can do is think

as time ticks by,
my begin to feel numb,
like my heart,
like me

and then they get cold,
like my heart,
like me

and then they get warm
just like me

things get happy before they become numb
same thing happened with my hands
same thing happened with my heart

my point is,
you feel darkness,
for a long time

and for a second,
you see the light,

and then you feel nothing
and now,
you will always be numb

we were driving
but we were driving way to fast

didn't know she was drunk,
didn't know she was under the influence
didn't know anything

and here i was,
in the car,
with my drunk mother

i knew we were going fast,
i really didnt care
i just wanted my mom to get out of my hair

as we turned a corner,
my mother turned on the gas
we were going way too fast

she was giggling and laughing,
just as a drunk person would be

my mother was drunk and driving,
and i was in the car

i secretely hoped she would hit another car,
as she accelerated,
i hoped that the car would get totaled,
and i would die

dont drink and drive

I wonder what its like to die
to get away from this horrible life
to stop suffering,
to be happy for once

i'll see you there,
and I hold you tight
and you'll tell me its alright

you'll look into my eyes and ask me,
" why are you here? your too young,"
and i'll say, " I was just done"

im done with my life here
my life is pointless

I want a taste of what she has

here I am
left alone,
broken,
and torn

no one seems to care
no one asks why,
I am forcing myself not to cry

they just let me live through life
with all of the pain in my eyes
they don't care,
about all the burdens I bear

so I sit alone,
because I have no one
and with life,
i'm just done

there's nothing left to give up on,
my demons have already won

I know you,
I know you so well mom

I know you didn't love him
and I know you don't love me

so go ahead,
tell me the truth,
you don't love me

you never have, and you never will

its the word that kills us all its more then a prolonged sadness; its a monster. it takes over the best of us and turns us into horrible creatures. it ruins lives, it turns families on each other, it ruins friendships, it makes you fail out of school, it gets you fired, it ruins your dreams, your goals; everything. it hurts you over and over again until you stop trying. and even then, after you give up on trying and you give up on yourself, it still likes to torture you. depression is like the friend that comes back in your life over and over again. when people tell you it gets better, depression slaps you in the face and tells you that it never gets better. depression takes the happy person in you and never gives it back. it likes to beat you up. guess what? you never heal. no white capsule in the world can **** the monster embedded inside you. yes, it won't make you miserable, but the monster never leaves. it waits and waits for the right time to come back and pounce. you can fight against it for the rest of your life, but you will never win. you can try as hard as you can, but you will never truly win. no one ever wins. that why i'm giving up