you think i'm yellow
happy,
vibrant,
but i'm really blue

on the outside, i'm happy,
but my inside, is not
you think i'm pink,
but i'm really blue

i'm always smiling,
but my smiles are fake,
i greet you kindly
i'm really in so much pain

i'm not yellow,
i'm not green,
i'm not pink,
i'm not anything,
but blue

there's something different
in my face,
in my eyes
i'm caught in a swirl of emotions
that i can no longer hide

that doesn't matter
i'm going soon
i will no longer
be terribly bruised

soon i'll be going
and then i'll be gone
i want you to know,
you did nothing wrong

as i get closer,
to my terrible death
your figuring it out
but are nearly close

i wish you knew
that i'm going
going,
and then i'm gone

i look in the mirror,
i want to see a skinny girl,
a beautiful girl,
but i don't

all i see is me,
ugly,
fat,
stupid,
worthless,
unhappy

i'm not like them,
they are pretty,
they are skinny,
they are smart,
they are worth something,
they are happy

sometimes,
i want to break that ******* mirror,
I've already had enough bad luck
whats the difference if i have more

sometimes,
i want to break down and cry,
i don't want to show my skin,
i don't want to show my fat
i don't want to fake smiling anymore

we all have our flaws,
i have so many,
i am a flaw

you can call me anything,
"ugly"
"fat"
"******"
"stupid"
"dramatic"
"annoying"
yo­u can call me anything,
those words don't tear me down
just don't call me retarted
it kills me

over time,
you loose home
**** happens,
if you didn't already know

i lost everyone
i just can't stay strong
and now,
i'm lost, confused and broken

people promised me it would get better
life continued to get worse
they said it could only get better,
well, i'm rock bottom

i'm not going anywhere
i'm staying here
i can't do anything about it
i'm rock bottom

i can't go up,
i can't go down,
i can't get help
i can't move on

when you're  rock bottom
people tell you the only way is up,
they are wrong
i

why the hell,
did you pity me?

deal with it,
i had my issues
your pity,
makes me feel like ****

we all have our bad days
so forget it, leave me alone
i don't need your pity

only if you knew
what my life is really like
they you'd give me so much pity
it would overwhelm me

i may loose everyone
i may loose everything
just don't feel pity for me

I'm glad i was forced to say goodbye to you
I'm glad i had to
i may have missed you before,
i will never miss you again

you turned evil,
you turned into a witch
more like a *****

we parted at just the right time
i no longer have to face you
i don't have to deal with you,
and all of your ****

you were simply a *****,
you are mean
you were extremely mean to me
and now, you're not my problem

you're gone
I'm gone
i hope you miss me,
cause I'll never miss you

oh look,
its a *****!