your eyes search me
looking for scars
that might tell where I’ve been
my body is clean

your words search me
inquiring about my past
and waiting expectantly
my response is brief

your lips search me
feeling for impressions
left by former lovers
I’ve been smoothed over

so I write this poem
to urge you to keep searching
for you are close
and will find me soon

you are birdsong
you are moonlight
you are white snow
you are rippling cornstalks
you are rolling hills
you are the sun setting behind the mountains
you are morning air, and dew
you are a ripple in a quiet lake
you are refracted light in a flowing stream
you are a bed of lilacs warmed by the sun

you are beauty
beauty is you

Sitting in my bedroom
Tryna write this English paper
When my sister calls and tells me
That the boy who wouldn’t date her
Has gotten her pregnant
The boy who up and left her
After getting in her pants
Wasn’t down for the romance
Just a plethora of one night stands
And now he’s got a kid on the way
Whether he goes or he stays
‘Cause my sister would never have the will to say
“**** it.”
And I feel it,
This real ****, the intense hit
Of news in my face
Things are gonna change
And although I’m both sad and happy
For my single sister and her baby
All that this has taught me
Is that **** happens to the best of us
And the sun shines on the rest of us
But I don’t know why

There is a single pile of wires cluttering my living space.
It grabs onto my feet, and threatens to trip me.
Everyday I shake my innocent feet free.

Sometimes, it gets wrapped around my feet,
and tangled in my toes.
I pull, and push it out of the way.

It's a Friday when the pile grows exponentially.
I attempt to walk over it,
like I had done so many times before,
but it doesn't let me.

It slithers up my legs and tugs,
and tugs,
and tugs.

I fight its grip with all my might,
looking for leverage on the walls, and the table.
but I could not find a thing to keep me stable.

It yanks me down.
I land face first onto to floor.
It snakes around my wrists, and pulls me into itself.

I push it away from my face, but it comes back stronger.
It wraps itself around my neck.
I will never be free.

My Boy

So you’ve got yourself a new girl
She hot?
She pretty?
She nice?
She ****?

I don’t know
Probably nothing like me
You see
With me
You were on fire
Always such heat
A firestorm in the rain
Making the water evaporate
Till there’s nothing but steam
Good ol’ steam

You see
It was fun while it lasted
And it sure lasted awhile
All the teasing
All the tempting
Thank god I wasn’t under age
Little minx
Little temptress
Woops
My bad

You think you’ll have to touch
For her
The way you did for me?
Nah, I doubt it

I doubt you’ll stop your truck
During your rounds
Pull it over the highway and come
Come all over your steering wheel

I doubt you’ll get all hot and bothered
While the kids are sleeping
And come
Come right beside them in the bed you’re sharing
Having to bite down on a pillow
To keep from screaming out my name

I doubt you’ll stop your work
Stop cleaning
Just to *******
And ***** all that you've cleaned
Start that job over again

You see
You just couldn’t help yourself
I don’t blame you
I mean
Look at her
Look at me
Is she wrinkled?
Or is she young and firm

Ah
She’s an older lass isn’t she?
Ready to settle down
Give you what I never did
Reassurance
That’s ok
I gave you something she never can
Never will
Just can’t

I made you lose control my boy

Now run along
Hold onto your control with her
So stable she is

But when you try to bang her brains out
Make sure you get the names right
It won’t be me you’re getting pleasure from
Never me

Regain the control you lost
Pick up your scattered clothes
And have fun being so prim and proper

No more fun and games for you
Oh well
My games just started
My boy

I miss you lying next to me
This bed has never been so cold
And though my arms are free
To spread - -
They lack your chest to hold.

I miss your rhythmic breath
I crave your steady warmth
And those silent stolen kisses
good night - -
realizing now you are my solid strength

I lay my head to rest
And set sail into the west
Where I find your beautiful embrace
Always - -
Completely fills me best

I bid thee sweet dreams
my love. Reality is far from near
Yet tomorrow - -
Will surely prove me closer
To your realms.

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but now it's come to distances and both of us must try,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.
I'm not looking for another as I wander in my time,
walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme
you know my love goes with you as your love stays with me,
it's just the way it changes, like the shoreline and the sea,

but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't
untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.
I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't
untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.