Missed her and missing her
Longing and longing for her

Doesn't know why
But want to cry

How much I loved her once
Till today I’m trying to forget her
I’m tried to hate her
But she is pure
She deserves all my love
I mayn’t deserves her love
Once how I enjoyed her smile
How I enjoyed her care
How I enjoyed her scolding
How much I love her
How I chased her
How she was such lovely person once
And how I reached her for the special day
But now I know I have lost everything
But I will try
Because my love is true
Though she will not respond
My world will give all the comfort that I want..

Just lived with thousands of dream
But u throwed me as a waste neam

Will we wont live back
To heal my dead heart back

Have I not there in your heart
Atleast to remain you that I lived with you as a part

God Let him think once
That I am his wife who still runs

Make him realise
That I loved him without any wise

He should come back to me one day
Let me get peace till that day

AMEN

Missing her

She gone

And I'm torn

Never cares for me

And It seems she don't miss me

Angry

But I'm  not ready to be free

By her eyes

And her love

Miss you
Miss you

                    WHAT  ACTUALLY  I  MISS ?
                                      
                                        BUT
Miss you
Miss you

Never minds what others think about me and my love
But minds that how often they misunderstood my love

Does its means that i'm not right
Or they don't want have me as a weight

Misunderstanding will breaks  pure love
But it couldn't destroy ine's true love..

Hate my fate

Music
Tunes me
To be
Muscial
In life..

Does Intuition has power
If it has
It shouldn't work !!

Majestic look she had
Adorable character,it add
Mind blowing personality as a third
                         which makes me mad.

Even In your absence
Within me, I could fell your presence,MAM,

Your absence
put me in silence.

Your memories
Forces me to hear melodies.

Your word
sounds  even when i'm unheard.

Your care
Initiates me to share.

Your perfection
Leads to have you as my inspiration.

Your teaching
Informs me that it is preaching.

Your  everything
Forces me to tell that you are my everything..

A man who becomes my mother
Love and Care was his place of wisdom
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever.

He presented me a beautiful flower
She blooms the happiness of my brother's kingdom
A man who becomes my mother

Was her power
Who took her to paradise with his presence of welcome
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever .

An eminent founder
Who founds my hidden optimist and sounds it with a feel of awesome
A man who becomes my mother

Was my living saviour
Who views me through prism
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever.

He is my mighty creator
Who could reedem me from dead lonesome
A man who becomes my mother
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever .

My last wish ...........
I should get a heart
Which knows only
How much love it gets

Y God ??
U told to give more
Hope I have given enough

Even now
I long ......
As I am too week

My only hope
Is your human form
My anaaaaa .....

As He will say
Have positive mind

Wish to be positive
At least to have that positivity ....

Never care
How worse the situations are
Never care
How clever the traitors are
Never care
How challenging the lives are...

Yesterday you scolded me like anything
But now what your doing??
Is it you have planned everything??
Never Excepted
Even in your last message i felt your are leave
only at this time
But you have gone totaly

On that day, there was a dawn
And it was the day,that i was born

There was a day,where i thought
My parents could lead me
But they left when i was matured

And,there was a day where i got
My friends,who could guide me
But they left when they were matured

Then,there was a day when i bought
My wealth which could protect me
But it left me when it was destroyed

Atlast,on one unpleasant day,with hopelessness i fell down
But still i had a hope that there is someone
Like GOD who could be with me forever..

How long i could bare these pains?
I can't hold this
There is none to share this
A friend will hear untill she got a lover
Every relations hear untill their problems comes in
I don't acuse   anybody
because i'm getting hurt out of my own character
it's ain't my problem
god who created me in such a way
what could i do
i'm longing i'll long
i dont want anybody
they don't want me too
i shout at them
am i a ******
oh god!just take me away from everybody
i dont fit to be in this world
how long i could console myself
no,i cant
i will n't die too
because that little thing cant equate these pains
..oh god am i sensitive
i am loving every relation in deep
but that cause a pain
why cant i act
as others did
really god ,,,
do something
i can take
even  pepoles
dont accept me or
love me (deep)
but i cant take people
hate me
ok...i want to be alone
i don't loose my character
because of my pschy actions..
i dont know what is the reason
for all these problems
but i will live these pains
Ooooo....

sorry this is not a poem
but  a pain...

Hate to be in this World
Why She Comes back
Am i cheater
I know myself
Hate everyone
whom i loved
Because though they doesn't recognise my love
How they could devalue it
Hate-loving others
Especially loveling truly
Just want to get out of his world..

Sometimes Life tells me that I'm nothing
And Sometimes I use to tell that Life is nothing..

Though thousand things are changing
In and around me

And nothing could change my everlasting
Longingness in me

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No one is there
To know my real feelings
Everybody is there
To misread my words and feelings

I'm tired of crying
Inside
But not  tired of  acting
Outside

Want nothing
And  nobody
If my affection
Becomes nothing
And to nobody
My life would
start smiling

But I never think about changing
As I'm the product of God's thinking
And I'm glad to have Him as my everything