anu: Poems

246 · May 2018

anu May 2018

I am dead in everything
When I found I am nothing
I thought my presence is made for something
But the fact is God tells me that ur cursed to get pain out of everything !!

Paining to much !

246 · Aug 2017

Self !!

anu Aug 2017

Self !!

Could find one thing clearly
Am not totally wrong

Longing
Hurts
And
Triggers
Me
To
Be
Brutal

But I won't
As I found
This would lead me
To hate myself

Just time will answer
All my questions

For me

246 · Jun 2016

Doubtful Hope!!

anu Jun 2016

Doubtful Hope!!

Hope something good
Might happen
Today

Hope as usual
Nothing could cheat me
Today

Feel tired of this longing life..

246 · Oct 2020

Confession to Lord !

anu Oct 2020

Confession to Lord !

Confession
"Problem is with me "

Confession
"Done Sin - Loved too much"

Hear My Confession Lord !
Not for forgiveness
But for Punishment...

Take me from this hell and have me with you !

244 · Nov 2017

&-------&

anu Nov 2017

&-------&

God I beg you
I wish to die
I don't want to have the next day dawn

I am crying
And will cry ever...

Sorry for posting !!

243 · Nov 2017

Who am i ??

anu Nov 2017

Who am i ??

I hate myself
When I couldn't stop
My bulshit emotions
When I couldn't stop
My eager to express feelings
When I couldn't stop
My mind recall all memories
When I couldn't stop
My affection towards loved ones
When I couldn't stop
My living

Yes !! I hate myself every second !!

242 · Dec 2016

New Lesson To Get Out From My Prison !!

anu Dec 2016

New Lesson To Get Out From My Prison !!

Just missed yesterday
In a beautiful way

All my senses adored you
And you are new
(Full Moon)

All my thoughts searched you
And I reached you
Though you are few
But you gave a view
That I have to grew

To know that
You're not the poorest
But the richest

In the world of happiness
(Poor in status and rich in happiness)

God, showing me different things.
Doesn't know how to react
But forcing myself to let go !!

241 · Oct 2015

Fate vs Me..

anu Oct 2015

Fate vs Me..

Every thing goes wrong
What to do

I'm just struggling
With my fate

Let me try
Howfar i can !!

Struggling But smiling..
Let me hope for the best..

240 · May 2017

God

anu May 2017

God

When I saw in TV
I doesn't know the real pain of last days
But when I know that someone is really counting the days
It hurts to the deep

With tears
God
Sometimes your plans
Are hardest !!

240 · Apr 2017

What is life ??

anu Apr 2017

What is life ??

Life is what ????
I think
Life stands for
Life is full of emotional pains !!

Paining !!

239 · Sep 2015

Love

anu Sep 2015

Love

I Think,My Love(s) don't deserve and deserved
To talk about true love

Hate loving..But Will love my parents(My heart..)
Others or just...

239 · Oct 2017

_-------_

anu Oct 2017

_-------_

Just every moment I am dying
Ah!!! Just no one should get pain like this
I am ******
Hate every bit of my life
Wish to die every second
But going to hurt myself
Physically

238 · Oct 2017

If

anu Oct 2017

If

If I have a magical powers
I will use to **** myself for first
I know how good I am
So I will not be brutal like God
Will sing a lullaby
And will made myself sleep forever

Self consoling is the process of self killing

238 · Mar 2017

Love All My Hates

anu Mar 2017

Love All My Hates

When anything exceeds its limit
We won't cry or worry
We will feel
What is next

Ha ha
A unique experience

Ha ha !!! ???

237 · Oct 2016

Why ??

anu Oct 2016

Why ??

Just thousands things reminds me
But why you forget me
God ??

God,let no one have this pain in the world !!

237 · Apr 2016

Me And My Hp..

anu Apr 2016

Me And My Hp..

Missed Many things in life
And Missing Many things
But Missing Hp
Makes Me
To Fell
As Missing
Myself..

Miss Hp A Lot..Especially MY lovable and friendly poets...

235 · Feb 2018

Hatest hate !!

anu Feb 2018

Hatest hate !!

I hate this moment
I am dead inside

God I never known
You are brutal enough

To hurt the purest innocent hearts

What sin I did ??
How can you hurt me this much ??

234 · Nov 2017

*-----*

anu Nov 2017

*-----*

I am tried of everything
Start pretending
Keep smiling
And moving

No other go !!

233 · Apr 2017

Hate

anu Apr 2017

Hate

Every second who dies in the world
Its me

One day I will be mine
I do something

Hate everything

233 · Feb 2018

Proud and feeling blessed to have a great friend !!

anu Feb 2018

Proud and feeling blessed to have a great friend !!

Never thought that
One's words
Could lift my spirit up

But the thought states me that
More than his words
His support lift my wounded hearts up

A great friend
Who is not ready
Wipe tears
Instead who made u
Realize the value of tears to be wiped

Really feeling blessed to have a great friend.. Thanks @ samiyanadha

232 · Aug 2017

Memorable Memories

anu Aug 2017

Memorable Memories

Had a great time today
After 10th
After reaching the 10th
Year of 10th
Celebrating
The celebration

Had a happiest moments
With my parents
And going to have with frnds too

But still
I know
I longs

For
??

But thank God
For what you have given
I will beg you
Only for one thing
Let everyone smile from their hearts forever !!

232 · Apr 2019

I Wish !

anu Apr 2019

I Wish !

Wish
Better to be cloud
Than to be a beautiful rainbow !

Wish
Better to be a scribble
Than to be a beautiful paint !

Wish
Better to be a human
Than to be a beautiful girl !

Wish
Better to live with smile
Than to live with happiness !

231 · Jun 2019

Nevermind !

anu Jun 2019

Nevermind !

Nevermind !
Who never mind
What they need to mind !

Irritation brought out in a better words....

230 · Sep 2017

A Challenging Life !!

anu Sep 2017

A Challenging Life !!

Facing  challenges
Will make a life

But  facing challenges
For having a life
Is itself  a challenging life !!

Prayers 1

229 · Jun 2018

If u r ready to help , read this !

anu Jun 2018

If u r ready to help , read this !

Why ??
I am moving and searching
For true love
Care
Affection
Everything ??
Always I am search
Everywhere I am failing
But my heart doesn't feel satisfy
For my extreme love on me

Pls readers if someone could help me here I will be happy !

229 · Oct 2017

A thought !!

anu Oct 2017

A thought !!

A thought
I wouldn't have been
Suffered this much

If I weren't
A girl !!

But I don't want to be a boy ever !!

229 · Mar 2019

MY MOTHER WHO WILL BE WITH ME EVER !

anu Mar 2019

MY MOTHER WHO WILL BE WITH ME EVER !

A man who becomes my mother
Love and Care was his place of wisdom
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever.

He presented me a beautiful flower
She blooms the happiness of my brother's kingdom
A man who becomes my mother

Was her power
Who took her to paradise with his presence of welcome
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever .

An eminent founder
Who founds my hidden optimist and sounds it with a feel of awesome
A man who becomes my mother

Was my living saviour
Who views me through prism
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever.

He is my mighty creator
Who could reedem me from dead lonesome
A man who becomes my mother
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever .

A new type of poetry ' VILLANELLE ' learned today ...
Form - 19 lines .
Repeat 1 st line in 6 , 12 , 18 and 3 rd line in 9 , 15 , 18 .
Rhyme Scheme : ABA ABA ABA ABA ABAA

Important note : My first try - A blend of three heart ... Me my anaaaaa and annnniiii ... ( A wish , picture of best days of our future days )

227 · Oct 2015

Miss Her

anu Oct 2015

Miss Her

Missed her and missing her
Longing and longing for her

Doesn't know why
But want to cry

Missing her..

227 · Sep 2015

A Stranger in me!!

anu Sep 2015

A Stranger in me!!

I had a stranger in me
Tried a lot to build myself
And trying hard

In spite of this
She gets
What she wants

Through dreams. Not even gave space to think about that.

But a beautiful dream!!
Is it beautiful or pitiful !!
As it is a dream
And it will be only a dream..

226 · Feb 2019

Had enough !

anu Feb 2019

Had enough !

Loosing my mind .......

I am blind.....

I am not kind........

Drained......

Still alive....

225 · Oct 2016

Worst and Am not the best !!

anu Oct 2016

Worst and Am not the best !!

Just everyday becoming worst
And worst
I think I am not best
To handle this Past
And I want this to be the last
Day in my life

Knows well I want to live this hell life !!

225 · Sep 2017

??

anu Sep 2017

??

Missing everything
Makes my life and
Me, a very strong one

!!

224 · Jun 2017

My Greatness !!

anu Jun 2017

My Greatness !!

Talked to my father today
Felt like I was born again

He is a great medicine
Who helps me to get out of depression

God, Love him
And bless him ever !!

Love you dad

224 · Nov 2017

Cool !!

anu Nov 2017

Cool !!

I am thinking
Whether love & affection
Can be fake for 25 years

If its not fake
How one hate
Or avoid
A girl
Whom you love
Or care
For more than 25 years

It hurts

No words to describe my pain

But let it be

Its for me

224 · Jun 2018

How long !!

anu Jun 2018

How long !!

How much I could survive
Even after I dead

How much I could smile
Even after all my tears dried

How much I can act like living
Even after dying every second

I had enough !

223 · Nov 2017

I am psycho !!

anu Nov 2017

I am ****** !!

I hate me to the extent
I am a coward
Who couldn't **** herself
I am ******
Who couldn't smile even for half an hour
Yes I am an idiot
Who hate everyone in the world
Yes I don't want any idiots
In this fake world
Yes I am an sadist
Who wish to every bit of me
Just everyone in the world
I am coward
Who is not even ready to **** my own self

223 · Sep 2017

Self write 2

anu Sep 2017

Self write 2

Finally I am succeed
Am out of worries & depressions
Is it got whatever I want
No nothing changes
Except me
I made myself very busy
Ya its paining pyshically
But not as brutally

I am going to my God

Sry God my intension is not to hurt you but make you understand my condition

222 · Feb 2017

Things Surrounds Me !

anu Feb 2017

Things Surrounds Me !

I don't have anything
To react for everything
That happens around me

And I think I am nothing
To all possible thing

God,will trust you ever !!

222 · Aug 2017

Nears Tears !!

anu Aug 2017

Nears Tears !!

Nothing changes
Everything forces me to longs
But still I will have my hopes

My heart longs
Cries
And
Tries

222 · Nov 2017

_-------_

anu Nov 2017

_-------_

I am at the edge of pains
No one could hurt me
More than this
Writing with floded tears
But with the dead heart
I am surviving today
I will not make it tomorrow

222 · Sep 2020

பாலாமஹா

anu Sep 2020

பாலாமஹா

நண்பர்களாய் கை கொத்து
காதலர்களாய் கை சேர்த்து
தம்பதியராய் சிறகு எடுத்து
இன்று பெற்ரோராய் வானில் பறக்கும்
என் ஜோடி புறாக்களுக்கு
இனிய முதல் திருமண நாள் வாழ்த்துக்கள்
5.09.2020

என்றும் அன்புடன் நான் !

221 · Dec 2016

TO THE GREAT SOULS

anu Dec 2016

TO THE GREAT SOULS

Thank you

To all who really supported me
My Hp Family Members

221 · Aug 2017

How me and my this day !!

anu Aug 2017

How me and my this day !!

Just I am dried
And drained

Feeling very tired
Not only physically
But mentally too

Just going to lie down
By clearly knowing that I couldn't sleep at all

Same feeling like pouring !!

220 · Aug 2019

For my anaaaa !

anu Aug 2019

For my anaaaa !

Missing u my dear
Am always with u near
Though u r my brother
I miss u like mother
Yes u r my power
I will live as ur sister ever
If can't think the other way ever !

Feelings pour out !

220 · Apr 2018

Just ignore this !!

anu Apr 2018

Just ignore this !!

Wish to die
Doesnt know what to do
how to move
how long should I move
why should I move
what's the way to move
if you don't want to move

how should I leave
If I leave will it hurt someone
If not will it hurt everyone

Need to find a way to quit
How to quit
Why not to quit
I should quit
yeah I'll quit

Want to die
S whatever it is I want to die

218 · Jan 2018

Bliss 1

anu Jan 2018

Bliss 1

Once when I was in silence
And my heart will be in violence

Still now the war doesn't get peace
And I know It won't let me in ease

Just I said myself
" Move ahead "
Though know well that only thyself
Could push me back from ahead

Be positive

217 · Sep 2015

Chance of Smiling..

anu Sep 2015

Chance of Smiling..

Even I was dying
I can smile
By my buding angel
And by my golden memories..

The Best Memories (when i was with my friends)

217 · Jan 2017

Who is a real mother ??

anu Jan 2017

Who is a real mother ??

Wish to die
In the lap of

Real music

For my unshakable wounds
Music sings lullaby !!

217 · Oct 2016

Please dont read

anu Oct 2016

Please dont read

I just want to run away from this world
why I longs
Do I don't deserve anything
Am I such a worst creature in the world
Working for six day
One day was ment for rest
But am dying on that one day
General studies states that it was my psychological problem
Am I a ******
But longing was there for long time
I running
And running
After my childhood days
I was not OK
GOD y u hate me this much
Tired of everything
Please don't force me to tell that
I hate you
Lord I love you
Though I lost all my hope
No need hear me lord
Just don't add burns to my wounds

Hate myself..sry for posting..

216 · Jun 2017

Prayer !!

anu Jun 2017

Prayer !!

God
Be kind
Be polite
Please show mercy on everyone

Pls hear my prayers
Or tell me
That u hate me
And stop praying