anu: Poems

252 · Oct 2016

anu Oct 2016

God, you cheated
And left me as a orphan
Thanks for everything

I won't and I can't
Smile from my heart
I want
Just haunt
Diseases
To please
All my pains
Which fills my veins

Love dying and want dying !!

252 · Aug 2015

For my friend...

anu Aug 2015

For my friend...

I Know She will not come to me
I Love Her Eyes
But Now It's not ready to look at me
I Love Her Smiles
But Now It's not for me

She Knows well that I Love Her Still
I'M Ready to go to her
But something stops me
Is it my ego or my true love or my wounded heart
But it is true that i loved her truly..

you gone without informing me that what i did
you do not know that how i tried to make my heart hard
God knows....

(Anyway,i know, u will see this ...i tried to express this in straight but ...sorry if i hurt u and thanks for your love.)

251 · Jul 2018

Never more !

anu Jul 2018

Never more !

Machine is no more
If there is no power

Man is no more
If there is no air

The same way me and my life is no more
If there is no brother
( my ana )

Anaaa..... I want to epic on you
S I will write one day ...
Ana....u changed me na I could sense really happiness in me .... Not 2 min happiness u r the one who made me think I feel complete luckiest etc ... As I told u ...u r my God's human form na ...
Proud to say I am my ana's thangachi ...

250 · Aug 2017

I

anu Aug 2017

I

Its hurts heavy
When someone avoids
For what you are

But I couldn't avoid me
For what I am

Because it is I
Who makes me what I am

Hurts
Let me don't want to disturb anyone for anything

250 · Oct 2015

Hate -loving her..

anu Oct 2015

Hate -loving her..

Hate u too
You may be know for your harshness
But sometimes think others have hearts like you..

250 · Aug 2016

Please help her !!

anu Aug 2016

Please help her !!

Just lived for them
Hide all her worries
More than that
My lovable loneliness
But they just told
That she has
' Age problem'
More than 20 years
She is longing
Does it mean
'Age problem?'
I think
It is that
Just 'she herself is a problem'

Girls are always girls!! As a girl if someone helps her I will be happy..

250 · Feb 2017

Powerful ??

anu Feb 2017

Powerful ??

Time is powerful

That's it

God, Make me strong !!

247 · Feb 2017

Memory !!

anu Feb 2017

Memory !!

Memory

Did I need you

Could I exist without you

I think only a surgery

Could take you

From my memory

Paining
But am smiling
( OK )

246 · Sep 2018

I !!

anu Sep 2018

I !!

I am ******
I am ******

I am cruel
I am cruel

I am Monster
I am Monster

I am a scavenger
I am a scavenger

I am cruel devil
I am cruel devil

I am dead !
I am dead !

245 · Nov 2017

Just a hate !!

anu Nov 2017

Just a hate !!

I found one thing
I hate the gender Male in total
But I don't know whether everybody is wrong
But I hate everyone of them
I don't know how good girls are
But I know that they are
As bad as others

I hate few
But that's forces me to tell that everybody is wrong

244 · Dec 2016

Wish

anu Dec 2016

Wish

Hate myself
Just wish to Stab myself
Thousands times
As at least it could
Wipe away my
Unshakable
Longing
Thoughts

Hate completely
Me and my life !!(tears(:(:(

242 · Sep 2016

Want But Don't Want !!

anu Sep 2016

Want But Don't Want !!

The word

Never threaten me

When I heard for mine

As I am waiting for it

But when I heard

It tried even to see my lovable souls

The heart stops for a moment

So my dear

"DEATH"

Come to those

Who wants you!!

Am in the amidst of pain

242 · Apr 2017

Self discussion to Self

anu Apr 2017

Self discussion to Self

Need some one to talk
At least to hear me

So many were by my side
But I don't want to open
As they all were emotionally closed

Is a pain has this much power
To ruin oneself

But how could I be OK ?
After being with this everything

Oh ! Never expected that you're
This much stronger

But I will show you
That I am strongest

By living
With smiling

Just self conversation to pour out

I think I am still OK because of this protected God POETRY and a great protectors POET FRIENDS

:(:(:( just will keep prayers

242 · Mar 2017

Dream as a Redemer

anu Mar 2017

Dream as a Redemer

I am happy and contented
It doesn't mean I got
Whom I lost

But I got their beautiful smile
Though for a second
My dream makes me a happy cream

Its not that am happy
But this proves me
That I am still true to my loved ones

God,at least u gave me a dream.. Thanks

242 · Jul 2016

Lo(ve & nging)!!

anu Jul 2016

Lo(ve & nging)!!

Am I your adopted child
Only you are there in my side
And I never hide
Anything
And everything
To you
And it is not new
That love you
And only you

My dear
Longing!!!

Dying but smiling

241 · Sep 2019

Change that can't change !

anu Sep 2019

Change that can't change !

Why Lord !
Will this pain change
Or
Atleast will I change
To move for change

Paining too much

241 · Feb 2017

When ??

anu Feb 2017

When ??

Could anyone tell me
When
Ones heart become calms
With no words ??

??
I know
But
I want to know
??

240 · Sep 2015

Silence For Being Silence..

anu Sep 2015

Silence For Being Silence..

Hands and Heart trying hard to message her
But a thought stops that they need my sometimes silence ..

For my friend who came herre for me..Miss her..

240 · Nov 2019

Exclusively for her -HAPPY BDAY !

anu Nov 2019

Exclusively for her -HAPPY BDAY !

If my absence
Doesn't disturb u
I never mind
Your presence in my life

Yes I am stubborn
Because what I emphasis
Is correct
Even today
That you're (so called frnds.. only we)
Missed u
And
Missed our a year back memories
But
For u
I become
'Madam'

Its k
Once again
Hearty wishes from us
'Happy birthday '

Exclusively for her !

239 · Feb 2017

Who & Why ??

anu Feb 2017

Who & Why ??

Hurting me to much
Who
&
Why

An unanswered questions ??

239 · Feb 2016

Missed Many

anu Feb 2016

Missed Many

Missed things
mixed in me

Mixed things
merged in me

Merged things
emerged in me

When i found myself in hp

Missed many
But
I Don't Want To Miss My Hp
And Its Members.

239 · Aug 2017

Prayer for this day !!

anu Aug 2017

Prayer for this day !!

God, I must be strongest
As my lovable souls must be strong

I can't be by their side
And take care of their every side

But I could pray
To make them smile
From their heart

:(

239 · May 2018

Pour out !!

anu May 2018

Pour out !!

I came back to hang in words
Always I am all alone
I don't have any
I love my mom
Who is just like me
Who faced too many
Once I thought my dad as my life
But now I found his life was his son
So what I thought I had my friend
But she never think about me at all
So many mocks at me
For being myself
I have a god sent Angel
My bro
Even the stone might have for his words of positivity
But me a dead rock
A ****** can't change
Who torched others
Wish to **** myself
But scared on thinking about my mom
C is an innocent child
I die in living until c lives
Enough ..
God I thank you
For this ...

237 · Oct 2017

Happy Birthday Mam !!

anu Oct 2017

Happy Birthday Mam !!

No one knows
How much I love her
But she knows
Because I expressed it to her

Once I adore her
Now I don't know anything about her

Still my heart loves her
Though I don't know that I still love her

Tomorrow is her birthday
But my mind couldn't it
Today whenever I wrote dates something tells that there is something in this
Later as sth ****** me inside a sudden spark came out that it was her birthday tomorrow

Happy birthday Mam (Ajantha)
I know but my prayers will be there for you every year

236 · Mar 2017

Prayer

anu Mar 2017

Prayer

Just worried too much
Some were too awesome
Meeting them
And missing them

What is this ??

Lord , I think it is to hard to hold too much

236 · Dec 2017

Happy to have a good friend in life journey !!

anu Dec 2017

Happy to have a good friend in life journey !!

How friendship differs from positive friendship
Nothing great
A friend will tell you
You are good person
But a positive friend will make you release
That you are good person
In that way I am blessed

He is an excellent friend
Though he merges with modern trend

A guy with good moral
I wish soon he wants to be an laurel

A fun filled friend
Who is always in trend

A guy with extreme talent
Who could sustain it with extreme patient

On the whole,
Proud to say
That I am blessed with a ray
With
A real true patron
Who becomes my inspiration

This is for my great friend Bala sir ..

235 · Aug 2021

Missing him

anu Aug 2021

Missing him

Just lived with thousands of dream
But u throwed me as a waste neam

Will we wont live back
To heal my dead heart back

Have I not there in your heart
Atleast to remain you that I lived with you as a part

God Let him think once
That I am his wife who still runs

Make him realise
That I loved him without any wise

He should come back to me one day
Let me get peace till that day

AMEN

PRAYER TO MY LORD 🙏

235 · May 2017

Hates

anu May 2017

Hates

No one knows
How I feells

Doesn't want this
Everything irritates

Hate all hates

234 · May 2017

Living

anu May 2017

Living

Paining
Hate crying
Just want moving

Irritated

233 · Dec 2016

Love You Lord !!

anu Dec 2016

Love You Lord !!

God really you are amazed
Never expected
That you will answer for my prayer

That is your are strengthening me
From that old lady's words
"You will be blessed with a
Beautiful hubby and family"

I helped her with no expectations
But you blessed with no exceptions

Love you lord !!
Merry Christmas !!

Just prayed with hopes
You showed me that I am not helpless !!
Happy birthday Esuvay !!

232 · Dec 2016

New Lesson To Get Out From My Prison !!

anu Dec 2016

New Lesson To Get Out From My Prison !!

Just missed yesterday
In a beautiful way

All my senses adored you
And you are new
(Full Moon)

All my thoughts searched you
And I reached you
Though you are few
But you gave a view
That I have to grew

To know that
You're not the poorest
But the richest

In the world of happiness
(Poor in status and rich in happiness)

God, showing me different things.
Doesn't know how to react
But forcing myself to let go !!

230 · Apr 2017

)::

anu Apr 2017

)::

Just wish to die
Hate everything in the world
When a girl loses his own control
It shows she shouldn't live at all
But to keep smiles on others' face
How long she will cry

Thank God ..

Sorry for posting
Just poured out

230 · Sep 2016

Ah!! still it bleeds

anu Sep 2016

Ah!! still it bleeds

Feeling very bad
4 years ago
Just thinking
How was this moment

Shocked
Cried

Undesirable

Still it's paining!!

230 · Dec 2016

Am I Living ??

anu Dec 2016

Am I Living ??

Paining too much
Physically
And
Mentally

God,trust me
I trust you till my last breathe !!

230 · Apr 2017

What is life ??

anu Apr 2017

What is life ??

Life is what ????
I think
Life stands for
Life is full of emotional pains !!

Paining !!

230 · Nov 2019

For thyself

anu Nov 2019

For thyself

When your heart is good
You don't want anybody else
God will be beside you !

Praise the Lord !

229 · Jun 2016

Doubtful Hope!!

anu Jun 2016

Doubtful Hope!!

Hope something good
Might happen
Today

Hope as usual
Nothing could cheat me
Today

Feel tired of this longing life..

229 · Oct 2017

Last words to God !!

anu Oct 2017

Last words to God !!

Promise God
I hate you completely
You who throwed me to Satan
I will never come back to u

See one day
U will think
That how I have lost a true soul
Who seeks only me
And my love

But how partial am I
Yes Lord I failed
Satan wins
I told I hate u

Sorry God Satan can never win
I am wrong
So you throwed me
You have taken care of so many beautiful souls

Its okay
You be happy
I know
Good can die easily
And can hurt others heart
But bad has to die
By getting hurt ever

Praise the Lord
AMEN !!

228 · Oct 2018

For jesus !

anu Oct 2018

For jesus !

My
Jesus
Please
Have me with you
Take
Me
!

I am loosing my conscious

228 · Apr 2016

Me And My Hp..

anu Apr 2016

Me And My Hp..

Missed Many things in life
And Missing Many things
But Missing Hp
Makes Me
To Fell
As Missing
Myself..

Miss Hp A Lot..Especially MY lovable and friendly poets...

228 · Nov 2018

A special day !

anu Nov 2018

A special day !

The day with my brother
Went and saw our Baby

A remarkable hapy day
10/11/2018

227 · Sep 2016

LV

anu Sep 2016

LV

Love is not just sharing and caring
But understanding
And its everything

Just thinking what is love!!

226 · Mar 2017

Love All My Hates

anu Mar 2017

Love All My Hates

When anything exceeds its limit
We won't cry or worry
We will feel
What is next

Ha ha
A unique experience

Ha ha !!! ???

225 · Aug 2017

Self !!

anu Aug 2017

Self !!

Could find one thing clearly
Am not totally wrong

Longing
Hurts
And
Triggers
Me
To
Be
Brutal

But I won't
As I found
This would lead me
To hate myself

Just time will answer
All my questions

For me

225 · Oct 2016

Why ??

anu Oct 2016

Why ??

Just thousands things reminds me
But why you forget me
God ??

God,let no one have this pain in the world !!

225 · Sep 2017

(0---0)

anu Sep 2017

(0---0)

I need to talk
But no one is there
It is not a shock
As I will talk
Only to me ever

Just
Wish
To
Be
Deaf
And
Dumb

Atleast I could pour my feelings into beautiful words once
But now I .... Hate myself

224 · Sep 2015

Love

anu Sep 2015

Love

I Think,My Love(s) don't deserve and deserved
To talk about true love

Hate loving..But Will love my parents(My heart..)
Others or just...

224 · Oct 2015

Fate vs Me..

anu Oct 2015

Fate vs Me..

Every thing goes wrong
What to do

I'm just struggling
With my fate

Let me try
Howfar i can !!

Struggling But smiling..
Let me hope for the best..

223 · May 2017

God

anu May 2017

God

When I saw in TV
I doesn't know the real pain of last days
But when I know that someone is really counting the days
It hurts to the deep

With tears
God
Sometimes your plans
Are hardest !!

222 · Aug 2018

Who is HE !

anu Aug 2018

Who is HE !

He is my Green panther
Who sounds the positivity of nature's depth
But, persistent brother of mine .

My first haiku
Learned and tried this haiku
Used 5-7-5,nature's touch , tho different ideas blended in a word ..hope done good

Please my dear poet friends share ur comments to help me to move further ...

First try because of my ana ( brother )
.....My samiji taught me to pour out in a productive way ...Lv u my ana (brother)