Feeling very bad
I’m longing for her
Her “Good Bye” disturbs me a lot

Once I decided the same
For my friend
Whom I loved a lot
But there too I decided it
Out my possessiveness

But here my friend decided it
Out of my irritating possessive

Yesterday I enjoyed her smile
By being at her side
And today I’m at her opposite side
I struggled to hide my tears in smile

My heart wants me
To see her eyes
But I forced hard to close my eyes
I think it is not wise
To look at the eyes
Which would drag me
And instates my cries

I think, God punishes me
For what I did
For my friend

And my friend doing this out her love
I Know as I did it for the same

But now I’m feeling the pain
On how it would pain
On hearing “Good byes”

Let me have this pain
As pain is in my vein.

Thousands of words
Are not enough
To describe
That

Howmuch
I love
That
Flim

Missing her

She gone

And I'm torn

Never cares for me

And It seems she don't miss me

Angry

But I'm  not ready to be free

By her eyes

And her love

Hate this life
Nothing will make me
And help me to know
What happiness means

Just I can't even die
But I died inwardly
I love my parents and friends
They should not die
Because of me
So I won't die
I will die through living

Often am crying
But No one knows
Am crying for that too
What creature am I

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Does Intuition has power
If it has
It shouldn't work !!

Life constantly teaches onething
Nothig is stable
And I'm not able
To take everything..

I  am going to die
Though I cant **** myself
I am going to **** everyone
Yes I am become brutal
Yes I am become brutal

How much I loved her once
Till today I’m trying to forget her
I’m tried to hate her
But she is pure
She deserves all my love
I mayn’t deserves her love
Once how I enjoyed her smile
How I enjoyed her care
How I enjoyed her scolding
How much I love her
How I chased her
How she was such lovely person once
And how I reached her for the special day
But now I know I have lost everything
But I will try
Because my love is true
Though she will not respond
My world will give all the comfort that I want..

Doesn't know
How am going to be without him

Will I Cry
Or will I Die

Doesn't know
How am going to be without him

Even with you am crying and dying
How could I without you
My darling




LONGING

How she could potrayed me like this
Worst creature in the world
No Even now she is awesome
God  let me die or let me forget everybody

I have no other thoughts
PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS­SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS­SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
GGOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD­DDD

Come take me ..

Silence between disturbs me a lot once
But I fails
To know that our talks twice
When it so happy
And when it is doesn’t what’s happy

God, why
I could ask you
Is it that u too so partial
That only few should live their life

What wrong we did ??
Is it that Satan is giving this
As he has given Job

Or do I don't deserve anything in life
Do you think am I selfish Lord
See I have been trusting you
From my matured days
Even from my unmatured days
Could you point me that by telling
'You have asked me for this on this day for you '
But why ??
My lord !!

I have seen people who are suffering is always why
How long
As we were dying each seconds
Why the hell we should have this life my lord

Though am suffering
Could you found me changing in trust with you
I won't
Because that's the way of showing my love to you my Lord
I will trust you ever

As you know
am living to see smiles
On my lovable souls
My parents
Let them live happily for ever

You have blessed me
With wonderful souls
Like my parents
Friends
Well wishers
Students
Hp poet friends
Everyone were very good around me

Then why I couldn't find peace with me
Is it that am I a ******
Or sadist

No its just that am loving all too much
Who will not reciprocate
Or could sustain with me

U r giving
And u r taking
But am dying

Still I trust you
And I will trust you

Sorry for everything Lord
Just I thought
And I talked

Really sorry if anything hurts you my Lord
Bare me or take me my Lord

I will ask everything in the name of Jesus Christ
AMEN !!

A liitle thing can ruin one's life
A little ant can ruin elephants' life

A little sight can cause
In me,A Pause
Being possessive is curse
And I'm in a loss..

Love is a powerful weapon
Either to give birth
Or to take one's birth..

God, let me know one thing
What mistake I did
Ya I am this way
If you want me to change ??
U could have done this
When you have created me
But this how u made
I will be like this only
Why I can't be all alone
In this world
Please stop everything

Missing someone is not  at all gives  hurt
But missing someone without knowing the fact
Is something  like killing oneself with that hurt..