10th April 2015 dawns
He showed me
The life's first face
       AS
L-Lifelessness
I-Irritation
F-Futility
E-Emotional disturbances


But when 10th April 2015 sunsets
He showed me
The life's other face
     AS
L-Lovely
I-Inspirational
F-Friendly
E-Energetic

I was shocked when He showed the first face
But i was stunned when He showed its second face
Its not that i was stunned because of seeing  life's second face
But because of seeing His Majesty and Real love Which is showed in this 2nd face..

Every sunrise has a sunset
Every day has a night
Every up has a down
Every start has an end
         BUT END
NEVER HAS AN END ....

The World Celebrates This Day
For Workers

But I Celebrates This Day
For A Worker
Who Born
To Work For Me

Her Mom Gave A Life On This Day
And She Gave Me Birth TO Celebrate This Day..

Mom,Happy Birthday..

Feels achieved the purpose of life
When I saw him smiling
After receiving my gift
For his birthday
Love you dad!!!

Wish to be a deaf and dump often
Were I  can’t hear hurting words from my loving hearts
Were I willnot  wish to talk to my loving hearts
Who hates me and hurts me often..

Want someone for me
to hear me
to care for me
to love me
to love only me

Well Known that
i cant get someone like that

longs,longed, will long
cried,cries,will cry

self consoling
is the worst thing

in the world
but seems as a bold

how can i escape
can't die
can't fly

but to write
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I  HATE  LIVING  BUT  I LIVE.
                  because
I  HATE  HURTING SO I LIVE.

when  someone become close to my heart
suddenly they depart

At the time,I just want to cry
And move to sky

I just want to shout
As i want them to love a lot

I just want to stare
And i want someone to share

I just want to be unmoved
As i still wait for them who moved

At the end,I just  don't want to do all these things
As I had the 'SWEET MEMORIES' to bring..

How hard this thornful life is
Though i'm telling
Everything will be alright
still strugling
Runing behind wories
And i'm in quarries
just want to run away
But cant even move
Trust lord
Not to hold my life
But to take me
To pour his real love to me
Almighty,Hears me often
Though i'm unheard
I can't keep mum
Lord, trust you forever.

Fresh morning air
Assures me
That I can bare
Anything to me
That I can care
Anything for me
And It is fair
To think about me

Miss you
Miss you

                    WHAT  ACTUALLY  I  MISS ?
                                      
                                        BUT
Miss you
Miss you

How Hard I Tried
Nothing Dried
And I Can't Hide
All My Pains
Which Fills My Veins

Never care
How worse the situations are
Never care
How clever the traitors are
Never care
How challenging the lives are...

When I went near her
She moved and glowed

I got a spark
That why shouldn't I rock
With her mark

I Know dear (my friend)
You are angry with me

And i know
I got your wrath

I too was angry with you
untill i sat near you
untill i saw your smile

But when i saw that
Beautiful eyes and smiles
I Forget that
I was angry with you for miles

Longs to be with you
Smiles with you

And want to be with you
For a day
And i may
Have a happy moments with you.

Very painful
Its is not that i felt for which she doesn't like me
But i felt for which i doesn't know that for this long time

I miss her
Even i doubt once that she doesn't like me
But i convinced myself that she will like me on one day

But when my well wishers  told me real fact i was stunned
Because   I too know that but  my false convincing heart died
Still my heart likes her and wants her

But I Don't want her
Because i never want love to be begged

All these painful words never means that
She was bad or rude

She was absolutely
good
kind
nice
and lovely...

All these qualities
made or force me
to love her still

She says"I DON'T WANT HURT YOUR FEELINGS"
But how can i hurt her by my mad love..

When there was a heaven drops
           sparrow smiles
           cuckoo wets
           nightingale sings
           leaf  shines
           flower blooms
           tree dances
           river glitters
           sea swings
           cattle enjoys
But  Still your crying remains
Is that you feel for humans
DON'T WORRY !I'm there for you to feel your pains...

Really feeling very bad to write sad always
And guilty too
To the world I can act
But here I couldn't
When I read poems
My longing increases
And think y God hates only me
When see some poems sad
Just think y am losing my sense of poetry too
Once I record my sadness as beautiful poetry
But now I hate myself
I don't want to write
So went and heard music
Still am same sad
Music is awesome
But am got some
....insane
Sort for posting

I love HP like anything
But I think I need to quit
To save lovable HP

Sorry ...

Often my tears sings lullaby to me
But yesterday, the cry of happiness
Doesn't allowed me to sleep

I am Recollecting and Reading her Words
Again and Again that She too loves me so much

God,you are great
You Gave me a wonderful Gift
For My Long Agony

Does this seperation is to test or our love?
Or to tell us that our love is true?

Thank God..

A..,I Struggle to start
but ,you are very close to my heart

                  As
A-you are the starter for my unknown world
                  Ama/pa
A-you are the initiator for my lovable world
                   Affection        
A-you are the motivator for my challenging world
                  Aim
A-you are the consollor for my dark world
                    Alone
And A -You itself the protector for my every world
                    Almighty


A..,Now I like to give my  tribute
  For your precious gift
And that is this poem
  under the pen name of Anu
which starts with your 'A'...

Though I was in the middle of the lively hell
I could feel some paradise's warm welcome
From hp

As i'm going to see my aka(elsa)
through her poems
And my consolers
who often consoles me
with their great writes

Thanks HP
You gave my friend back
My inward smile...

Never expected this cheapness from her
Just want to delete her

This is for me
If i love her further
**** myself

And
I Sould not love anyone

If I ! surely
Will **** myself