Why do I like you ?  
Is that everyone adores you ?  
Is that everyone praises you ?
Is that everyone takes pride of you ?

May be

Is that your broad view ?
Is that your are always new ?
Is that who aims always to grew ?  

May be

But it's because your my Jew
And you who make me blew
With your caring cue

Though I am far away from you
Nothing can depart me from you
As my beats of thoughts are only about you

Yes anaaaa it's you
Who wants to see me grew !

Hello everyone
Hope going to have a happy morning
Reminded of morning mantras
"Be positive
Don't worry
Everybody has life "

Whatelse I should do my Lord ?
Why am I suffering this much my Lord ?
When will I get peace my Lord ?
Where else I could go my Lord ?
Who else can I ask my Lord?
Can't I fit to live in this world my Lord ?
If so please take me with you my Lord !

Wake
Cry
Work
Cry
Eat
Force to sleep
And sleep

My routine

Wake
Cry
Work
Force to sleep
Sleep

S
Wake
Cry
....

Singing lulaby to me
Nothing

A Melancholic
Sleep
Sleep
U Could !!

Prayers to thee
Lord
Amen !

Only I think
In human form
God have power to ****
Even the dead one like me !
Yes I am dead
And dying again
And will die even !

Shedding tear is no use
God become deaf and dumb it seems
Very soon
I will decide my own end

Let this new year brings
A wings

To fly
To reach sky

Let this
Brings

A positive vibes

To face
And chase

All that life needs !!

Whatever happens life must go on
Keep going
By keep saying

Only if you go
You can

Never thought I want to be a boy
Never even thought I will wish to be boy
At least once a boy

But today I wish to be a boy
Because I don't want to get to permission to meet my ana
To be with my ana

Yes I wish to be a boy
And for the first time in life
I wish to be a boy forever

Actually u know na
I hate the word even ' boy '
But promise today I wish to be a boy

To be your brother !!

A remarkable day in my life
23/06/18

A day
Where I will be beside my anaa
Waiting for a coffee
From my sweetest anniii

' Latchu ............ '
Said my anni
' Anniii........... '
Said with a smile
Just a moment
As like cuckoo's voice
' preethu ........ Ammu ......
...............'
Whispered my anaaa

Just beside them
A baby feels heaven in earth

The most awaiting moment
A rocking voice reached me
' preethuu......... Lunch is ready '

Me and annnniiii
Moving to have a feast

Having fun
Playing and sharing
Will end the day with
Most precious tears !

Anaaaa....
Like u
So much
Nobody can find
Why I lv u
So much
Still I  will like u
So much !

Amaaa....

Everyday has everyway
Everyway has every ray
And I want to move this day
With a say
' That I will pray '
To stay and play !

I am lounging
Just to cry
Where someone will be there
To say
' Don't cry . I am there for you '
This is what I want to hear
But I am hearing it everyday
Doesn't know why my ears are deaf to my words !!

Life has to move on
Go on
Hope on
Move on

I wish to walk
Without any talk

I don't want any
Though I have many

I love to see nature
Though I am a poor creature

I should never stop
Until I reach the top

A builder
Took  every bit of sand
Cement, paint
And
Coloured

But
A sudden wave
Dashed everything

Can a builder
Dash that wave back !

.....

Love

It doesn't know
What's good and
What's wrong

It doesn't know
Who looks so fair
Who looks ugly

It doesn't know
What He/She has
What He/She doesn't has

It doesn't know
Where to go
Where to stop

It doesn't know
To analyse which is to be loved
Which isn't to be loved

Then
What it knows !

It knows
Only to
GIVE LOVE
UNCONDITIONALLY

B
L
E
S
S
E
D
B O R N    B A C K  B Y   B R O  !
B
E
C
A
U
S
E

Finally
Its better to leave this world
It seems

Better
To die everysecond
Killing thyself
Is best

When everybody feels happy
I will long on seeing them
But now I am going there
I am putting myself there
Is it mean I am grown
Or my problems and longing grown ??

Drowning in the longing sea.......

Never be burden of someone life
Who ever it is
Definitely at point of time
Atleast for their happiness
We will loose them
I have decided to loose all
Know well that nobody will be there
To cry for my loss
Never even want that
Not to stand as burden
I have decided to move
Will move
For sure
Telling to myself
If I really love them
This would be my stand
Killing myself
And not disturbing anyone in anyway

If I want to curse God
Only one thing
I will ask him to be me
To have this pain !

Headache of financial issues
Will there be any online work?
I am not techy
But a teacher
But ready to learn and work

Dear poet friends
If anybody could help me in this area
Kindly text me...

I have showed myself
That I am changed
I showed that
I don't have any hurts
But the reality is different
It started to its depth

Ya I am bleeding inside
God its alright
One day I can

I miss my happiness
I miss you
You and happiness
Doesn't gives two different meaning
A sweet memory
Came like a breeze
But a thought
Poured out a storm
And the sweet wheels
With tears !!

Once I will cry
By thinking that I don't have anyone
But now I am smiling
Because I realized that It is the way
Through which God made me strongest

Nothing will change my dear
Until you change

Noone know
How much do you long
For this 27 years

Though God know
He will not do anything
As you  want to long
To  have his Love even

Tears will never get dried
Until your emotions are dead

I know
You dead everyday
But still dead with this deadly pains

One day
You will die my dear

Always am there
To say you
'Don't cry... And I am there '

But I know
Your heart is deaf to my voice

Still I console you
You cry
I will pray for your death

Me and my inner heart's voice !

Why do I mis you na?
Why do I like you so much na?
Why do I think of u everysecond na?

Like u so much na
Miss u so much na
Feeling so much na

Yes na
You're the one who gave me extreme affection na
You're my everything na
Known well that i couldn't be without u my ana....

But am I hurting u na?
Or
Disturbing u na ?

If  So
Sry na
Very sry na !
Just missing u na !
Couldn't be without blabbering to u na !

Known well
Still you saw my poems
As I am following you

Still
Friendship  is same
More than me
Ours is true and loyal

Blind can be accepted
But if pretend to be blind
Nothing could help you

Not expected anything
Including ur forgiveness
As I am not wrong anywhere
Not only me
But its 'We'

Take Care
Thoughts will be there
As ours is true...

Every time
GOD
Proves me that
He is there for me
Love you my Lord !

God
Only one thing
I want to beg
If u hear me all these 25 years
Just take me in the corona
Pls
If you love me
Give release from this deadly pain
I don't want to be burden anymore
To anyone

Never thought
Two words
Could stop my twenty hours
Hallucination

Yes everyone's words can't do that
My Living God's word can do that
My anaaa....
My everything.....

I feel  nothing
When I  miss my everything

I feel empty
When I miss my happiness of plenty

I feel scared
When I miss my ama who cared

But

My ana wont let me to feel
As He will there ever to heal !

Hate the one
Whom I love the most

He is not the one
Whom I trust the most

He is not the one
Whom I care the most

He is not the one
Whom I adore the most

But today He is the one
Who love only his son the most

So I hate that one
Whom I love once the most !

God is there
He blessed me here

A Sweet Soul
A broken soul
But an innocent soul
Which is not ready to broke any real soul

For my sweet thambi
Sanju

@ sady boy's poetry

She is in pain
Diseased even in vein

Symptoms often crying
Self haunting

Doctors said
'Helpless
******'

Magician God said
No

'Though u don't come to me
I will come to you'

Human God
Without even testing
Found her dying

Healed
By a word
'I am there'

Dead girl
Born back and smiled

And called
'My Anaaa...'

Why everybody is locked ?

Is it to pray everyday ?
Is it to love nature everyday ?
Is it to know who works for our happiness  everyday ?

Why everybody  is locked ?

Is it to known who loves us so deep ?
Is it to known the sacrifices of the one who reap ?
Is it to known how wives feels when
babies weep ?

Why everybody is locked ?

Is it to realise?
Is it to do exercise ?
Or Is it to make you revise ?

Why everybody is locked ?

Is it to call friends ?
Is it to call relatives ?
Is it to call old teachers ?

Why everybody is locked ?

Is it to pray for someone ?
Is it to think about everyone ?
Is it to be useful for anyone ?

Why everybody is locked ?

Why ?

I think
Everybody is locked
Atleast to think
Of these 'why' !