anu: Poems

165 · Mar 2018

): - :(

anu Mar 2018

): - :(

I don't belongs to anywhere
I don't know what to do find everywhere

Just feel like crying
But I don't want to do it as it is one way of killing

God just begging to give me a peace
If not just take me please

Just tired of everything !!

164 · Mar 2019

MY MOTHER WHO WILL BE WITH ME EVER !

anu Mar 2019

MY MOTHER WHO WILL BE WITH ME EVER !

A man who becomes my mother
Love and Care was his place of wisdom
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever.

He presented me a beautiful flower
She blooms the happiness of my brother's kingdom
A man who becomes my mother

Was her power
Who took her to paradise with his presence of welcome
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever .

An eminent founder
Who founds my hidden optimist and sounds it with a feel of awesome
A man who becomes my mother

Was my living saviour
Who views me through prism
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever.

He is my mighty creator
Who could reedem me from dead lonesome
A man who becomes my mother
He was none other than my brother who will be with me ever .

A new type of poetry ' VILLANELLE ' learned today ...
Form - 19 lines .
Repeat 1 st line in 6 , 12 , 18 and 3 rd line in 9 , 15 , 18 .
Rhyme Scheme : ABA ABA ABA ABA ABAA

Important note : My first try - A blend of three heart ... Me my anaaaaa and annnniiii ... ( A wish , picture of best days of our future days )

163 · Dec 2017

I will die

anu Dec 2017

I will die

I am feeling cheap about living
Yes I am cheap
As I can't die
As my wish

Sure I will die one day

162 · Oct 2017

Life Experience !!

anu Oct 2017

Life Experience !!

Sometimes how hard we try
We couldn't describe

How we feel
And wanted to be heal

Oceanic tears pushes hard inside
But a little smile could stop it from outside

Let me walk
With without any hands
But not without any wounds

A thought !!

162 · Aug 2019

For my anaaaa !

anu Aug 2019

For my anaaaa !

Missing u my dear
Am always with u near
Though u r my brother
I miss u like mother
Yes u r my power
I will live as ur sister ever
If can't think the other way ever !

Feelings pour out !

160 · Jun 2018

How long ??

anu Jun 2018

How long ??

Am I born in this world
To long ?
'Yes' I said a word
But how long ?

When having a heavy headache
A heart longs
Will there be a word ?
' R u k ? '

Immediately reality slaps
With a word
' No one .. Move away .. Don't hurt anyone '

No words....

159 · Sep 2017

End

anu Sep 2017

End

I hattest hate

End

158 · Aug 2017

Worst !! Please skip !! Dont read !!

anu Aug 2017

Worst !! Please skip !! Dont read !!

God, Loosing one self
Is such a hard task
Its alright I am okay
Just getting use to it
Will make me strong
I know all will leave me
Inspite of that why I am
This way .
Please do something
And take my life
I am asking you this
From so long ago
But knows well
U too hate me
Its alright
I will live this hell

Sorry for posting

158 · Mar 2018

Haaaaa haaaaa !!

anu Mar 2018

Haaaaa haaaaa !!

How many times will I die ??
Ay God
Go for someone else
I am just a dead one !

See successfully I am gone mad !!

157 · Aug 2018

Paining !

anu Aug 2018

Paining !

The biggest pain in the world
The pain that u can't get from ur beloved hearts !

Feeling very bad
I can't even be there to how he was !
But I believe nothing will go wrong !

157 · Aug 2017

:( :(

anu Aug 2017

:( :(

I will not cry
Just because I am week

I will not stop believing
Just because everything hurts

I will not die
Just because I can't accept living

Nothing could change me and my fate !!

156 · Oct 2019

Alove !

anu Oct 2019

Alove !

When I thought
It was dead
But a tear proved that
It was eternal

Yes
Never eyes met
Hands holded tight
Lips blabbered not
Still
It lives
As pure as it

Because still
I am alive
And it will
Alove

In thoughts
Nothing i wants

Newly i like to coin alove - a love live after its death........

156 · Sep 2017

For me !! I am there

anu Sep 2017

For me !! I am there

In some situations we have to be very strong
But only in that situation
We will have no one
So we have to be
Strong
By our motivation
Self motivation

Even my closest friend couldn't understand me now that hurts me most .. She can't even bare that I am crying but I won't tell her now that I am dying .. Miss her .. Love you Soundu ( soundarya )

156 · Jun 2018

Tried but not yet dried !

anu Jun 2018

Tried but not yet dried !

The world of mine
Is so plain
Me And my love for appa ama and my ana
And I wanna
To be with them forever
And will live only for them ever

Anaaa ....
this word becomes my life
Who could bare me in all his strife

Hope can walk with a thought that I have some reason to live .. I lv them truly.. Ana ... Appa... Ama... My absence may hurt only this three.. May be ..my Sudar will miss me but not my soundu ..

155 · Apr 2017

Why don't you ??

anu Apr 2017

Why don't you ??

Everything is changing in life
But why don't you ?
Everyone is leaving and going in life
But why don't you ?

I don't want things to be changed
But they change
I don't want them to left me all alone
But they leave

But I forced a lot
To throw you out

Still you are with me
My PAIN

I LOVE YOU
PAIN

Never expected that life has to many turns like this !!

155 · Apr 2017

Panic !!

anu Apr 2017

Panic !!

The word that I shouldn't hear
I am heared

The life that I shouldn't live
I lived

Will live with this pain
And I could take any pain

155 · May 2017

Why !!

anu May 2017

Why !!

Why
All these things happen
Why
I understand everything that happen
Around me
Why
Am being so lovable to all
Why
I don't have two faces like others
Why
I can't find answers for all these
Whys

??

154 · Feb 2018

Listen My Heart !!

anu Feb 2018

Listen My Heart !!

Though your fate is crucial
Don't let your fate
To make you crucial

You know well nothing changes
Then why don't you have changes ?

This is for me !!

154 · Aug 2015

YOU LEFT ME AGAIN

anu Aug 2015

YOU LEFT ME AGAIN

You said,you came here to reach me
But now u gone IS IT TO TELL
THAT YOU DON'T WANT ME??

This is your most harsh behaviour
WHY I'M CRYING
I GONE TO HER
AND NOW SHE GONE

God please hereafter
I should not love anybody
in this world especially in terms of friends

I Controlled all my feelings
But this things things
Forced me to pour it all out

She says" Im leaeaving.
If i stay here, or If I respond to your words,
i would end up in hurting you.
I dont want that to happen.
so its better to leave before its getting on my nerves, and before its getting more worse.
moreover i have no energy to fight or argue."

But hurted i like anything
God,She willn't be well in my absence
Give all the things that will help her to be happy..
YOU LEFT ME AGAIN

PAIN..Just can't control..(sorry for posting this)

154 · Oct 2017

Just tired of everything !!

anu Oct 2017

Just tired of everything !!

Every bit of seconds
I am dying

But one thing is sure
I will live

And I will live

Really its horrible !!

154 · Feb 2018

My last prayer !

anu Feb 2018

My last prayer !

God ... My last prayer
Make me deaf and dumb

I will not cry .. I will not pour out ..only then I can become mad .. Ya one day I will become mad sure..

A dead girl
Who is living
For the life of parents
Who lived already
And who is living for them !

A dead girl ..
Will die one day

154 · Jun 2018

Can u change, Mr. CHANGE !

anu Jun 2018

Can u change, Mr. CHANGE !

Change
What a word is this !
Will it change
That whatever happens in this !
Will it can change

Know well nothing will change
And known this
That I too want to change
To face this

A pic temt me to write this ..
One who told me that who can't change at all is changed
But one who wants to change can't change !
Ha ha always bounded with irony of life !

154 · Sep 2017

Sleep !!

anu Sep 2017

Sleep !!

Just decided to take tablets
To sleep
Only to sleep

Because I don't want to disturb anyone's sleep !!

153 · Oct 2017

Dot ...

anu Oct 2017

Dot ...

Just to pour out I decided to write
But tears forces words gets blocked

But one thing is sure
In any world only you will be there for you

No relationships is true..
Parents friends brother sisters lover husband children etc

Even God is Fake
Sorry to tell this
Sorry God
I shouldn't tell you fake
But I should say that
'You think that we are fake to u'

May be u r to testing me
But I am not book of job
And I am not a real true follower too

Dot .…...

153 · Sep 2019

Where??

anu Sep 2019

Where??

Wish to midst in the air
As who breath longs as an air
Never known when will i get into air
To known atleast do i fix there

Enough getting tired

153 · Nov 2017

What's life ??

anu Nov 2017

What's life ??

What is life ?
Its nothing but a empty dream

Shakespeare is right
But I want to wait

To ask him that how can be a bright
To put it straight

Life is empty
Just I could feel that emptiness

Once I read Shakespeare's lines
But now expresaing those lines

152 · Feb 2018

Its for you Lord !!

anu Feb 2018

Its for you Lord !!

God please I don't deserve living
Please beg you
Take me
I don't want anyone
And I don't have anyone too
Please take me
My Lord
At least if you really love me
Take me
I am ready to beg on your legs
I am scared on living
Just let me come to u
Please Jesus
At least do you think that I am true to u
Kindly take me

More than everything
When you know
That u don't even have one heat to think about u
Then it's really
Serious

152 · Aug 2017

Neither I couldnt create nor I couldnt destroy !!

anu Aug 2017

Neither I couldnt create nor I couldnt destroy !!

Just everything couldnot stops me
From enjoying
From my memories

I couldn't stop
My own imaginations
Which forces itself
To calm my wounded heart

Thanks dear
But you don't know that
U will hurt me
More than what I am

Anyhow
Thanks dear
(To my imaginations)

152 · Sep 2015

Being with Myself

anu Sep 2015

Being with Myself

Never loved loneliness in my life
But today I loved my loneliness
Wished to have this forever

I cared myself
I comforted myself
I loved myself
I wished to be like myself

Is it that NOTHINGNESS made me to feel this way?
Or my love towards my parents made me to feel this way?

Being all alone
Comforts me

Felt Never want
Anybody or anything

I love talking and chatting
But today MY Silence
Comforted me like anything

Sometimes than Humans
Songs, Films AND Books
Have the Greatest Human tendencies.

Happy(not exactly) with being myself...

152 · Sep 2017

Deadly living !!

anu Sep 2017

Deadly living !!

I am broken completely
Not even the pieces could make me what I am
Because I am a living dead soul

Thank God

151 · Aug 2018

Hate LOVE !

anu Aug 2018

Hate LOVE !

I hate the four letter word
LOVE
I hate that as it kills who is
TRUE

Hurting me to the depth
God please I believe u will help me to hear sth good in the morning .

149 · Aug 2015

For Her??

anu Aug 2015

For Her??

Can I Forget her???
Can I Hear hear her??
Can I See her??

pain

149 · Sep 2017

Ignore !!

anu Sep 2017

Ignore !!

If your closest souls hurts you
Just ignore
To not to hurt your closest souls

But how much I can do it I don't know

149 · Aug 2015

What wrong i did??

anu Aug 2015

What wrong i did??

What wrong i did??
I Should preparee my heart hard again
Why all these things should happen??
Is that My God wants me to see crying??

pain...

148 · Jul 2018

My wish !

anu Jul 2018

My wish !

Preethu....
Ana ....thank God
U Came back
I just want to tell two words na
THANK GOD
Once In life u made me feel complete
Ana ..... Even after my absence
Please don't cry
Because I will come back as ur sister or daughter or as ur karupa ( my ana's bike )

I can't be without ur affection
I wish to sit next to u and talk and before leaving u I should die with a smile

Yes I am mad
But I am blessed to be ur thangachi

God really I don't want anything
I wish to c his happiness
If my presence makes him happy
Let me be there
If not take me away from him
Because I know he is like u
My LIVING GOD
Who made me to think to live for his brotherly affection

148 · May 2020

What for !

anu May 2020

What for !

Just running for peace of mind
Begging for peace of care
Longing for drop of love
Looking for drop of kind words
Sitting for piece of peace
Waiting for drop of God's mercy

God.... Don't know what to say...

147 · Jul 2018

Long ! For how long !

anu Jul 2018

Long ! For how long !

Loneliness

It was made for me
And I was made for it

Only it wants me ever
And I am here for that only

We long
Not to long as we become we

Long & Life has 4 letters
But I gave my life to this 4 letter long

Long ! Long ! Long !
I am in this for so long !

Tried sth like Anaphora ....
Tried some new way of expressing ..

147 · Jan 2018

Hope ! I will be with this hope forever !

anu Jan 2018

Hope ! I will be with this hope forever !

Hello everyone
Hope going to have a happy morning
Reminded of morning mantras
"Be positive
Don't worry
Everybody has life "

Missing my samiyanadha's wishes
I am positive
Once I tried for this too
But now I could
As someone is there
To hold me and say
"I will be there for you as your friend forever "
Thank God
Though I am cursed with problems
I am blessed with beautiful positive soul

147 · Oct 2017

Hurt !!

anu Oct 2017

Hurt !!

Never been hurted like this
Feel like going out of this too
For me
My poetry is
Extreme way of expressing my feelings

Its doesn't mean
I am always
Negative

A kind request to everyone
Don't think that negatives
Are waste creatures

U can avoid
But don't hurt

Never expect that I will get a moment like this in HP..
If me and my writings hurts anyone
I am sorry

146 · Mar 2019

Happppyyyy !!

anu Mar 2019

Happppyyyy !!

Happy poem
Which tells me Who I am

I am a good *****
Who will be very happy when his ana call her in his busy

I am preethu
Who always adore her positive enthu

I am his good thagachi
Who always wants her ana to be in her katichi

I am his chamathu Kuty sometimes
Who prays for her ana to be very happy everytimes

I am always happiessss
Just because I am always with my Samiyanadha's smileeesss

Thank God .. I am writing very happy poem .. Its because u blessed me with what I deserve .. I realised ..
Ana - my brother
Thagachi - me ( preethu )
Dedicated to my ana who is more than my friend !!

146 · Nov 2019

Want this !

anu Nov 2019

Want this !

When will be the last day
When will be the last seconds
When will be the last moments

Will it be atleast mine
Will it be atleast mine !

Just tired extremely....

146 · Sep 2017

Self write 2

anu Sep 2017

Self write 2

My mom is seeing me and crying
I tried my level best
Not to come to this situation
But fate
So please I should be very strong
Be the strongest version of you
Its for me
Only for me

:(

146 · Nov 2017

For myself !!

anu Nov 2017

For myself !!

I am pouring
Just because I got hurt
Ya everytime I got hurt
But I learnt to pour it out
To be cool out
But I cannot be out
Without
Memories
Which makes my worries

I should put my worries down
Self write

144 · Oct 2020

Hope !

anu Oct 2020

Hope !

Even a dead man could survive with hope !

God pls.......

142 · Dec 2017

Happy New Year 2018

anu Dec 2017

Happy New Year 2018

Let this new year brings
A wings

To fly
To reach sky

Let this
Brings

A positive vibes

To face
And chase

All that life needs !!

This year started well
Hope it will take us well

A happy new year to all my dear hearts !!

142 · Jun 2018

Mad's rotuine !

anu Jun 2018

Mad's rotuine !

Wake
Cry
Work
Cry
Eat
Force to sleep
And sleep

My routine

Wake
Cry
Work
Force to sleep
Sleep

S
Wake
Cry
....

A mad's routine

140 · Jun 2018

How I could wish this !

anu Jun 2018

How I could wish this !

Never thought I want to be a boy
Never even thought I will wish to be boy
At least once a boy

But today I wish to be a boy
Because I don't want to get to permission to meet my ana
To be with my ana

Yes I wish to be a boy
And for the first time in life
I wish to be a boy forever

Actually u know na
I hate the word even ' boy '
But promise today I wish to be a boy

To be your brother !!

A remarkable day in my life
23/06/18

A notalble day
Talked more
Ana .. Appa .. Amma..

140 · Jun 2019

A Magical World !

anu Jun 2019

A Magical World !

Me stood on the seashore

A wave of memories
Merged me in the sea of magic happiness

A baby pepble
Hugs me with its innocent voice
' Ma '

A grown rock
Dashes me with its innocent noise
' priya '

A sudden storm
Caught me in net of reality

Me came out with an oceanic droplets

Just try over.....
Sum up of what my mind does....

04/06/2019

139 · Jun 2019

Pray and start a day!

anu Jun 2019

Pray and start a day!

Everyday has everyway
Everyway has every ray
And I want to move this day
With a say
' That I will pray '
To stay and play !

Try over in hurry !

139 · Jun 2020

Last lines !

anu Jun 2020

Last lines !

Unwanted and Uncared
Is highest poverty in the world

Yes
very soon
I will die out of this poverty

Hope so !

Hope this must be my last poem.