anu: Poems

185 · Aug 2017

Neither I couldnt create nor I couldnt destroy !!

anu Aug 2017

Neither I couldnt create nor I couldnt destroy !!

Just everything couldnot stops me
From enjoying
From my memories

I couldn't stop
My own imaginations
Which forces itself
To calm my wounded heart

Thanks dear
But you don't know that
U will hurt me
More than what I am

Anyhow
Thanks dear
(To my imaginations)

185 · Jun 2019

A Magical World !

anu Jun 2019

A Magical World !

Me stood on the seashore

A wave of memories
Merged me in the sea of magic happiness

A baby pepble
Hugs me with its innocent voice
' Ma '

A grown rock
Dashes me with its innocent noise
' priya '

A sudden storm
Caught me in net of reality

Me came out with an oceanic droplets

Just try over.....
Sum up of what my mind does....

04/06/2019

185 · Jun 2018

If u r ready to help , read this !

anu Jun 2018

If u r ready to help , read this !

Why ??
I am moving and searching
For true love
Care
Affection
Everything ??
Always I am search
Everywhere I am failing
But my heart doesn't feel satisfy
For my extreme love on me

Pls readers if someone could help me here I will be happy !

184 · Nov 2017

Questions for answering !!

anu Nov 2017

Questions for answering !!

Everywhere everybody is facing hard situations but still everybody keeps moving its because they have focus ... No I think it doesn't mean that ?? They don't want to quit and this is fate and we should take and move as much we can ... This is the reality that I found .. If that's the case what's the role of a God ?? In what way His presence is shown ?? Does that can be measured through the way He supports us by giving us a situations or by giving worse situations to make ourselves a strongest ?? .. If this is the case then what is actually happiness ??? And for whom it is meant for ??

Just feel like sharing whatever I feels..
Dear readers if you could answer feel free !!

184 · Jun 2018

Y not me ?

anu Jun 2018

Y not me ?

I can see a baby with father and mother moving with a smile
Y not me ?

I can see a baby with her ana (brother)who were playing happily
Y not me ?

I can see a baby with her friend
Who hugs each other
Y not me ?

I can see a girl who is having happy life who was blessed by Lord
?
Y not me
?

Pray for me
I can see a girl who was dead by accident
Y not me ?

182 · Aug 2017

( o _ o )

anu Aug 2017

( o _ o )

Nothing could describe my feeling now

Just I want to tell this

MISS U BRO

@ jobira Bro
Knows well something may be there for your silence
But sry
Missing you Bro !!

182 · Aug 2017

:( :(

anu Aug 2017

:( :(

I will not cry
Just because I am week

I will not stop believing
Just because everything hurts

I will not die
Just because I can't accept living

Nothing could change me and my fate !!

181 · Jul 2017

Goodbye !!

anu Jul 2017

Goodbye !!

Every seconds I am planning
To quit my life

I have not did that
Just because of two souls
But now I hate those two souls

So
I have all those reasons
To implement my plan

But still I wait
As I don't want to hurt those two souls

I hate u Lord
Finally u succeed
Be happy God

Am not aa book of job !!
S lord am just a normal girl

S I confessed
U be happy God

181 · Nov 2017

Stronger vs Strongest !!

anu Nov 2017

Stronger vs Strongest !!

Facing problems
Will make us stronger
But answering problems
Will prove us that we are strongest !!

I have made myself stronger
And not yet strongest !!

180 · Jun 2020

Last lines !

anu Jun 2020

Last lines !

Unwanted and Uncared
Is highest poverty in the world

Yes
very soon
I will die out of this poverty

Hope so !

Hope this must be my last poem.

180 · Oct 2017

Hurt !!

anu Oct 2017

Hurt !!

Never been hurted like this
Feel like going out of this too
For me
My poetry is
Extreme way of expressing my feelings

Its doesn't mean
I am always
Negative

A kind request to everyone
Don't think that negatives
Are waste creatures

U can avoid
But don't hurt

Never expect that I will get a moment like this in HP..
If me and my writings hurts anyone
I am sorry

180 · Aug 2017

Oath for My next year !

anu Aug 2017

Oath for My next year !

Last year too I thought
I was born only to die everyday
I stated this
Because I felt this

But this year I hope I have grown better
Its not that everything changed
I think I have changed
According to the situations

Still I hold tears
But with a gentle smile

Yes it shows
I am grown
One year ahead

Hope I will travel
With the same way
By having a gentle smile
And making everyone
To have that smile ever !!

Thank God
I am matured
Hope I will move my next year
With this matured smile
Though nothing changes
As everything hurts
I will !!
Thanks God
Hope u bless me with ur presence ever
Only then I can handle all my situations
Love you Lord !!

179 · Sep 2019

Where??

anu Sep 2019

Where??

Wish to midst in the air
As who breath longs as an air
Never known when will i get into air
To known atleast do i fix there

Enough getting tired

179 · Jun 2018

Tried but not yet dried !

anu Jun 2018

Tried but not yet dried !

The world of mine
Is so plain
Me And my love for appa ama and my ana
And I wanna
To be with them forever
And will live only for them ever

Anaaa ....
this word becomes my life
Who could bare me in all his strife

Hope can walk with a thought that I have some reason to live .. I lv them truly.. Ana ... Appa... Ama... My absence may hurt only this three.. May be ..my Sudar will miss me but not my soundu ..

178 · Apr 2020

NIAP

anu Apr 2020

NIAP

I am sacred now
I am hurted now
I am depressed now
!

Want my Bro
Want my Sondu
Want my happiness
!

Disturbed enough
Hurted enough
Cried enough
!

Will move on
Just to go on
Hope will have on
!

Nothing is changing
Couldn't beg to God anymore
........

178 · Aug 2017

Interpret And Answer ?

anu Aug 2017

Interpret And Answer ?

What is life ?

A _ that doesn't have life
is called life.

Yes !! I found this real definition of life

177 · Jun 2018

Can u change, Mr. CHANGE !

anu Jun 2018

Can u change, Mr. CHANGE !

Change
What a word is this !
Will it change
That whatever happens in this !
Will it can change

Know well nothing will change
And known this
That I too want to change
To face this

A pic temt me to write this ..
One who told me that who can't change at all is changed
But one who wants to change can't change !
Ha ha always bounded with irony of life !

177 · Apr 2020

Lovely deadly CORONA !

anu Apr 2020

Lovely deadly CORONA !

I Love Corona
Just because It made even the unheard heard
(Peace of nature)
I Love Corona
Just because It made even the blind to see
(Beautyof birds )
I Love Corona
Just because It made even the handicap to walk
(Forest Animals found its way to walk)
I Love Corona
Just because It proves even the power of God
(Humans started their amnesty)

I Love this
Just because It is the high time for us to think

175 · Oct 2017

You !!

anu Oct 2017

You !!

When I saw you talking to someone
Why should I get hurt ??
When you comment someone
Why should I feel that you don't even seen my scribblings ??
When I am here
Why I should check
Whether are you here ??
Though its not love
Its because of care
That you have given me
And I think that now it was taken from me

I have written this for ....
Let me wait !!

175 · Nov 2019

Want this !

anu Nov 2019

Want this !

When will be the last day
When will be the last seconds
When will be the last moments

Will it be atleast mine
Will it be atleast mine !

Just tired extremely....

174 · Jun 2016

Me and u!!!

anu Jun 2016

Me and u!!!

I am feeling being
Only when I am longing

Wrote earlier.. But feel like sharing..

174 · Oct 2017

Life Experience !!

anu Oct 2017

Life Experience !!

Sometimes how hard we try
We couldn't describe

How we feel
And wanted to be heal

Oceanic tears pushes hard inside
But a little smile could stop it from outside

Let me walk
With without any hands
But not without any wounds

A thought !!

174 · Dec 2017

I will die

anu Dec 2017

I will die

I am feeling cheap about living
Yes I am cheap
As I can't die
As my wish

Sure I will die one day

174 · Feb 2020

Unlove Love !

anu Feb 2020

Unlove Love !

Love

It doesn't know
What's good and
What's wrong

It doesn't know
Who looks so fair
Who looks ugly

It doesn't know
What He/She has
What He/She doesn't has

It doesn't know
Where to go
Where to stop

It doesn't know
To analyse which is to be loved
Which isn't to be loved

Then
What it knows !

It knows
Only to
GIVE LOVE
UNCONDITIONALLY

Sometimes it knows
To give
Even after hate !

173 · Jul 2018

Long ! For how long !

anu Jul 2018

Long ! For how long !

Loneliness

It was made for me
And I was made for it

Only it wants me ever
And I am here for that only

We long
Not to long as we become we

Long & Life has 4 letters
But I gave my life to this 4 letter long

Long ! Long ! Long !
I am in this for so long !

Tried sth like Anaphora ....
Tried some new way of expressing ..

172 · Jun 2020

Move on

anu Jun 2020

Move on

Life has to move on
Go on
Hope on
Move on

Move ahead with hope

171 · Sep 2017

Deadly living !!

anu Sep 2017

Deadly living !!

I am broken completely
Not even the pieces could make me what I am
Because I am a living dead soul

Thank God

171 · May 2020

To My Lord !

anu May 2020

To My Lord !

Whatelse I should do my Lord ?
Why am I suffering this much my Lord ?
When will I get peace my Lord ?
Where else I could go my Lord ?
Who else can I ask my Lord?
Can't I fit to live in this world my Lord ?
If so please take me with you my Lord !

.....

170 · Oct 2017

Dot ...

anu Oct 2017

Dot ...

Just to pour out I decided to write
But tears forces words gets blocked

But one thing is sure
In any world only you will be there for you

No relationships is true..
Parents friends brother sisters lover husband children etc

Even God is Fake
Sorry to tell this
Sorry God
I shouldn't tell you fake
But I should say that
'You think that we are fake to u'

May be u r to testing me
But I am not book of job
And I am not a real true follower too

Dot .…...

170 · Sep 2015

Being with Myself

anu Sep 2015

Being with Myself

Never loved loneliness in my life
But today I loved my loneliness
Wished to have this forever

I cared myself
I comforted myself
I loved myself
I wished to be like myself

Is it that NOTHINGNESS made me to feel this way?
Or my love towards my parents made me to feel this way?

Being all alone
Comforts me

Felt Never want
Anybody or anything

I love talking and chatting
But today MY Silence
Comforted me like anything

Sometimes than Humans
Songs, Films AND Books
Have the Greatest Human tendencies.

Happy(not exactly) with being myself...

169 · Aug 2017

Lulaby !!

anu Aug 2017

Lulaby !!

Singing lulaby to me
Nothing

A Melancholic
Sleep
Sleep
U Could !!

Self lullaby

168 · Aug 2017

Worst !! Please skip !! Dont read !!

anu Aug 2017

Worst !! Please skip !! Dont read !!

God, Loosing one self
Is such a hard task
Its alright I am okay
Just getting use to it
Will make me strong
I know all will leave me
Inspite of that why I am
This way .
Please do something
And take my life
I am asking you this
From so long ago
But knows well
U too hate me
Its alright
I will live this hell

Sorry for posting

168 · Aug 2018

Paining !

anu Aug 2018

Paining !

The biggest pain in the world
The pain that u can't get from ur beloved hearts !

Feeling very bad
I can't even be there to how he was !
But I believe nothing will go wrong !

168 · Jun 2018

How long ??

anu Jun 2018

How long ??

Am I born in this world
To long ?
'Yes' I said a word
But how long ?

When having a heavy headache
A heart longs
Will there be a word ?
' R u k ? '

Immediately reality slaps
With a word
' No one .. Move away .. Don't hurt anyone '

No words....

167 · Jul 2018

My wish !

anu Jul 2018

My wish !

Preethu....
Ana ....thank God
U Came back
I just want to tell two words na
THANK GOD
Once In life u made me feel complete
Ana ..... Even after my absence
Please don't cry
Because I will come back as ur sister or daughter or as ur karupa ( my ana's bike )

I can't be without ur affection
I wish to sit next to u and talk and before leaving u I should die with a smile

Yes I am mad
But I am blessed to be ur thangachi

God really I don't want anything
I wish to c his happiness
If my presence makes him happy
Let me be there
If not take me away from him
Because I know he is like u
My LIVING GOD
Who made me to think to live for his brotherly affection

167 · Apr 2017

Why don't you ??

anu Apr 2017

Why don't you ??

Everything is changing in life
But why don't you ?
Everyone is leaving and going in life
But why don't you ?

I don't want things to be changed
But they change
I don't want them to left me all alone
But they leave

But I forced a lot
To throw you out

Still you are with me
My PAIN

I LOVE YOU
PAIN

Never expected that life has to many turns like this !!

167 · Feb 2018

Its for you Lord !!

anu Feb 2018

Its for you Lord !!

God please I don't deserve living
Please beg you
Take me
I don't want anyone
And I don't have anyone too
Please take me
My Lord
At least if you really love me
Take me
I am ready to beg on your legs
I am scared on living
Just let me come to u
Please Jesus
At least do you think that I am true to u
Kindly take me

More than everything
When you know
That u don't even have one heat to think about u
Then it's really
Serious

167 · Sep 2017

For me !! I am there

anu Sep 2017

For me !! I am there

In some situations we have to be very strong
But only in that situation
We will have no one
So we have to be
Strong
By our motivation
Self motivation

Even my closest friend couldn't understand me now that hurts me most .. She can't even bare that I am crying but I won't tell her now that I am dying .. Miss her .. Love you Soundu ( soundarya )

167 · Jun 2019

You and its only ' you '

anu Jun 2019

You and its only ' you '

Why do I like you ?
Is that everyone adores you ?
Is that everyone praises you ?
Is that everyone takes pride of you ?

May be

Is that your broad view ?
Is that your are always new ?
Is that who aims always to grew ?

May be

But it's because your my Jew
And you who make me blew
With your caring cue

Though I am far away from you
Nothing can depart me from you
As my beats of thoughts are only about you

Yes anaaaa it's you
Who wants to see me grew !

My anaaaa ( Samiyandha)
Positive try over.....

167 · Oct 2017

Just tired of everything !!

anu Oct 2017

Just tired of everything !!

Every bit of seconds
I am dying

But one thing is sure
I will live

And I will live

Really its horrible !!

167 · Oct 2019

Prayers

anu Oct 2019

Prayers

Prayers to thee
Lord
Amen !

167 · Apr 2019

Personal feelings

anu Apr 2019

Personal feelings

Anaaaa
Feel like as if I was in a fire
I long for u
Am I not sister na ?
Soon wish to get better days
Only I decided
Not to hurt you
I know
My anaaaaa
Will come to me
Missing every second
Missing everydrop
God I should be strong
I should be strongest !

166 · Feb 2018

My last prayer !

anu Feb 2018

My last prayer !

God ... My last prayer
Make me deaf and dumb

I will not cry .. I will not pour out ..only then I can become mad .. Ya one day I will become mad sure..

A dead girl
Who is living
For the life of parents
Who lived already
And who is living for them !

A dead girl ..
Will die one day

166 · Jun 2020

Born to die !

anu Jun 2020

Born to die !

Only I think
In human form
God have power to ****
Even the dead one like me !
Yes I am dead
And dying again
And will die even !

166 · May 2019

Hope for that Day !

anu May 2019

Hope for that Day !

A day
Where I will be beside my anaa
Waiting for a coffee
From my sweetest anniii

' Latchu ............ '
Said my anni
' Anniii........... '
Said with a smile
Just a moment
As like cuckoo's voice
' preethu ........ Ammu ......
...............'
Whispered my anaaa

Just beside them
A baby feels heaven in earth

The most awaiting moment
A rocking voice reached me
' preethuu......... Lunch is ready '

Me and annnniiii
Moving to have a feast

Having fun
Playing and sharing
Will end the day with
Most precious tears !

Really could feel that tears now !

Imagination may fail but Hope will never fail

God ..... Bless me with this day soon

165 · Sep 2017

Sleep !!

anu Sep 2017

Sleep !!

Just decided to take tablets
To sleep
Only to sleep

Because I don't want to disturb anyone's sleep !!

165 · Apr 2017

Panic !!

anu Apr 2017

Panic !!

The word that I shouldn't hear
I am heared

The life that I shouldn't live
I lived

Will live with this pain
And I could take any pain

164 · Oct 2019

Self Motivation

anu Oct 2019

Self Motivation

Whatever happens life must go on
Keep going
By keep saying

Only if you go
You can

164 · May 2017

Why !!

anu May 2017

Why !!

Why
All these things happen
Why
I understand everything that happen
Around me
Why
Am being so lovable to all
Why
I don't have two faces like others
Why
I can't find answers for all these
Whys

??

163 · Apr 2020

😔😔😔😔

anu Apr 2020

😔😔😔😔

Finally
Its better to leave this world
It seems

Better
To die everysecond
Killing thyself
Is best

Thank God