Really feeling very bad to write sad always
And guilty too
To the world I can act
But here I couldn't
When I read poems
My longing increases
And think y God hates only me
When see some poems sad
Just think y am losing my sense of poetry too
Once I record my sadness as beautiful poetry
But now I hate myself
I don't want to write
So went and heard music
Still am same sad
Music is awesome
But am got some
....insane
Sort for posting

I love HP like anything
But I think I need to quit
To save lovable HP

Sorry ...

God, let me know one thing
What mistake I did
Ya I am this way
If you want me to change ??
U could have done this
When you have created me
But this how u made
I will be like this only
Why I can't be all alone
In this world
Please stop everything

God, why
I could ask you
Is it that u too so partial
That only few should live their life

What wrong we did ??
Is it that Satan is giving this
As he has given Job

Or do I don't deserve anything in life
Do you think am I selfish Lord
See I have been trusting you
From my matured days
Even from my unmatured days
Could you point me that by telling
'You have asked me for this on this day for you '
But why ??
My lord !!

I have seen people who are suffering is always why
How long
As we were dying each seconds
Why the hell we should have this life my lord

Though am suffering
Could you found me changing in trust with you
I won't
Because that's the way of showing my love to you my Lord
I will trust you ever

As you know
am living to see smiles
On my lovable souls
My parents
Let them live happily for ever

You have blessed me
With wonderful souls
Like my parents
Friends
Well wishers
Students
Hp poet friends
Everyone were very good around me

Then why I couldn't find peace with me
Is it that am I a ******
Or sadist

No its just that am loving all too much
Who will not reciprocate
Or could sustain with me

U r giving
And u r taking
But am dying

Still I trust you
And I will trust you

Sorry for everything Lord
Just I thought
And I talked

Really sorry if anything hurts you my Lord
Bare me or take me my Lord

I will ask everything in the name of Jesus Christ
AMEN !!