Sitting here trying to figure my thought process,

Trying to describe the only one I want to impress,

Thinking of ways to give you what you're due,

When all it ever takes is a simple ' I love you '.



The 9th of May 1978, a few years past,

Our 1st public introduction, yet it could've been our last,

You stopped breathing as things weren't going right,

I'm forever grateful, you turned back from that light.



I always had a reputation as a Mammys Boy,

No longer an insult, I am one with pride,

You thought me how to stand up for myself,

Most importantly, to search inside for my strenght.



Along with all of that, you gave me 4 sisters,

For my nieces & nephews, you gave 4 great mothers,

You take on our problems, like they're your own,

You always make sure, we are never alone.




They say all men search for one like their Mother,

Well, 'they' have no clue, for there is no other,

One with such skills, to attempt to name is unbelievablle,

Mammy, Ma... to the girls & I, to everyone else it is Carmel.

I have been deserted, my life is in ruins
Everywhere I turn, the darkness looms
Squeezing my eyes, lost in despair
If I ended it now, would they care


They have no idea, how many ways I tried
To now believe, my only release is suicide
My pain will cease, my problems solved
My heartaches solution, yet countless more caused


Buried within my shadows of doubt
A reason to try, a flicker of light
Focus on that, make it your goal
Surviving life’s major test..... A weeping soul

That night long ago, when you took control

I watched in silence, that glimpse of your soul

I saw it then, what you had suffered

Your eyes weren't as harsh as the words uttered



I knew you were strong, Now the reason why

Others confuse weakness as those that cry

A few months passed, then a simple kiss

Little did I know, you'd be my lifes major test




All that heartship & seven years gone

Most importantly, I dont regret one

Regrets are for fools that dont heed lifes lesson

Those that get bitter, always end up regretting