Do you remember those days when we were young and naive where we would believe anything said by anybody.
Those days of innocence,
we didn't really know things
It seems the second you learn new lessons you start to view life in a different image.
As if we're so alike,
we're not different.
You lose trust once,
then it seems like you can never give it.
We've exchanged our imagination and vivid imagery with thoughts of hate and jealousy giving up on creativity because now we don't just believe what's said, we live in it. We took those words of advice for granted thinking we had our two feet planted thinking this world can't stop me, now we're damaged.
So do you remember those days?
Where our parents paid for our freedom while we played with our best friends.
While we enjoyed and basked in the life that was given, now those words of advice are returning,
All those lectures and times you were told things. You thought you had it figured it out like you know what life was when you've barely been living.
Now reflect on what happens every day ask yourself where's the fun and time to play, oh right that's every weekend Friday Saturday, sometimes Sunday.
Every other moment your a slave,
You just don't see the chains..

Test

Why can't we just treat each other how we want to be treated, why do people have to be so... ___

I hate people but want friends.

Give me back the day of no stress
The days where every moment was adventurous
Give me the time where riding my bike was my life,
Give me that adrenaline that you get,
Cuz I've been missing it,
reliving it,
talking about the things we did.
day dreaming bout when I was a kid.

Here we go another day,
with a smile on my face
I cant seem to replace
even tho the grinnings fake

It's hard to watch them grow up,
Knowing all the bad stuff,
Knowing that their soul,
will be ripped apart.
What's the goal,
why'd Noah make the ark,
Tell me
was this world really worth saving,
I think not.
Every human is fake or rot,
Don't tell me,
that you're not
I've seen it all,
I know what you got,
To offer,
its awful.
I hate you,
it's bottled.
I've play the game
since I was 5,
I'd played with it.
I don't believe words
I need evidence
I think I'm cursed..
Due to my relationships.
They say having kids,
is a blessing,
To me its just a lesson
we keep forgetting
He showed us innocence
Yet we re-molded it
Into our own images,
This isn't what it's meant
When having kids.
You're supposed to show what the struggle is
let them know how you were suffering let them see life for what it really is,
after you show em all,
Tell em, don't be like me
cause you're unique
the way you are the way you speak
That innocence has long left me.
Teach them their heros...
Didn't get far,
living in the same homes
Wearing all the same clothes
Driving around,
with the same car.
Snorting stuff up their nose
Smoking blunts to feel good
Drinking drugs, changing moods,
**** it...
this world is hateful
I should've thought
twice before I had you.
Bringing life into a hell
That's filled with a plagued view..
If only I knew it wouldn't change you.
Maybe then I wouldn't feel the way I do..
I don't know what the future holds,
And that's all I know,
Or is it I don't.

Remember the past we would laugh and play
we were children back then so no struggling days,
we had this picture painted of how things would be
once we were adults we thought we would all be free,
no adult figure to tell us what to do
we couldn't wait to grow up we didn't have a clue,
then we're adults no more children's laughter
thrown into a new world that's filled with disaster,
from racism, stereotypes, and jobs that don't hire
we slowly lose all those childhood desires,
now the canvas where our picture was painted
lays in a corner all ripped, damaged, and tainted,
a new canvas has overtaken its place
where you only see a picture of a distorted face.

I've reached the end of this chapter.
No fairytale happy ever after,
this isn't Disney, real life's more grisly.
Happy moments only last briefly
Memories are permanent,
Life is no tournament,
you'd be fortunate to find a family who's worth all this, ****.
That people spit the judging nods and disrespect.
Never showing up then apologize for your neglect,
never hit each other up
Saying I've been busy, 'bulshit'
we all got time we just choose who to spend it with
afterwards we're looking over each others graves and ****
talking about we had so many great moments, ****.
That's life am I right,
we'll never have the same people by our side til the day we die.
That's nothing but a bulshit lie
Real life is more ahh f--- those guys.
I have it up to here,
I need new vibes,
Some new people in my life

Come to me for you closure,
You know that when I'm closer
The winds blow a little softer.
The weather gets a lot better,
Tell me that,
I'm what you're after.
I've been set up,
with some disasters.
You wouldn't believe the aftermath
A destructed path..
The pain I felt it was so bad.
The worst gift I'd ever have..
A black box, with a black bow,
I opened it fast,
Cause I didn't know
The bulshit it had,
Even after closing it up
It was expose to my soul,
Now It has a dark little spot..
the brightness you got I feel
It might make it glow,
So ask me to stay don't tell me to go.
Tell me if we got something special or no?

All these people putting fake smiles in these pics.
Idgaf just let the camera click.
They be scared to let them see who they really is.
So they posting fake images,
No witnesses, no one to snitch
No one to say..
Yo what is this.
Just the likes they're get-ting
the hearts that make em grin,
Makes them feel wanted,
accepted, loved,
oh my god it's all fake it don't mean ****
Especially if you're not the one behind the pic.

I got everything I could ask for,
N- even then I want more,
Is it selfish, am I heartless.
Could I be someone I impress.
Coz lately,
I ain't liking my image..

Like a tub filled with warm water
A beach day during summer
Like hot food when it hits an empty tummy,

Like a razor blade pressed against the skin
A dying flower in need of watering
Like a race that always begins and never ends.

Like love could really last
Like love could really match.
Love has become nothing but lust
It doesn't ever last,
so we keep asking, what's love.

These words are worst than a punch
They'll go through your soul,
Make you lose touch
Make us think love is not enough.
I'm so ****** up my thoughts have rot,
I'm stuck inside a box,
I climbed into, it was for fun.
Didn't think that I get stuck
Now I'm looking up,
waiting for someone to pull me out.
been long a time now,
I know they won't come
I think love is just a sound
That we make with our mouth.
I love you. yeah me too.
Next week, your thinking wow.
How could they leave,
a month later you feel relieved.
Cause now deep down you believe
You didn't need anybody
I think it's funny.
The deception of love,
It's imperfect to all
Still we search for it like when looking for jobs.

Her delicate skin
Her whimsical smile
The thought of her touch,
Well, it drives me wild.

Today is the day,
the day I open my heart
I'll scalpel away,
no care in part.
I'll make her see together it's art.
A hidden treasure
searched in the dark.
Making it so much harder to find,
now that I found it,
forever she's mine.

Part 2
Born out of darkness
Sworn to be heartless
Torn down to small bits
Horns on a savage
Thorns deep in my head.
Mourn for the undead,
Formed all *******
Arms around their neck
Charmed into breaking them.
Because,
killing for me is evident
Don't you see the evidence
Gun residue from the next door residence.

With ****** hands.
he's running, dam.
One last time to see his fam
tell his momma he's sorry,
Let her know his story,
media outlets turn everything ugly..
So he's running all these thoughts rushing
his hearts pumping
that's when he hears the sound of a gun cocking.
Bang!
Everything stops then...

The shooter missed, he hid real quick.
The shooter yells, I'll get you yet.
He hears the steps he starts to sweat
he killed a man was this revenge,
He's thinking fudge it, this it.
the steps get close, he sees the grip
he goes to tackle in self defense.
Both men down
struggling,
swinging fist,
wrestling.
Trying to live.
Human beings,
this is it.
Doesn't matter who you is,
When the guns at your feet
it's you or him,
Bang! bang!
Now he killed another man! Dam
the brother to the other man! Fam...

With ****** clothes a runny nose
He sees his home, he's getting close,
Two cop cars pull up real slow.
Blue, and red, start to glow,
They yell hands up, he refused
That's when the cops start to shoot,
Bullets flying, sizzling by.
he's just a kid he starts to cry
The mom clueless opens quick!
He jumps in front before it hits....

To be continued.

Born out of darkness
Sworn to be heartless
Torn down to small bits
Horns on a savage
Thorns deep in my head.
Mourn for the undead,
Formed all *******
Arms around their neck
Charmed into breaking them.
Because,
killing for me is evident
Don't you see the evidence
Gun residue from the next door residence..

With blood on my hands
I ran and I ran and I ran and I ran.
Didn't ever think I'd **** another man,
Dam, can I say it's self defense
would that even make some sense,
As he stood there weapon less.
Deep down I knew it was me or him.
So I started shooting
eyes close tight I didn't wanna do it.
What can we do tho
when devil keeps pushing
momma told me be careful where you point it.
I should've listened.
I should've listened.
I should've listened.
Now a family out there has a tragedy,
Cause their son is missing.
We're all a victim,
that's what I'll say as I plee innocent...
If a gun fell at your feet during a fight and you know it was you or him,
you'd pull the trigger to save your life from the fear of death we hold within.
If you say otherwise that's a fudging lie
Everyone wants to be alive.
So yeah I took his life
I'd do it again, twice!
Fudge it thrice!
anything to stay alive..

With ****** hands.
he's running, dam.
One last time to see his fam
tell his momma he's sorry
Let her know his story,
media outlets turn everything ugly..
So he's running all these thoughts rushing
his hearts pumping
that's when he hears the sound of a gun cocking.
Bang!
Everything stops then.

To be continued...

The lord is my pillar
The lord is my home
The lord is a killer
To sins in my dome
The lord is a hero
The lord is a pro
The lord is my saviour
Forgiveness bestowed
The lord is the light
The lord is so bright
The lord you should fear,
stricken with fright!
Can you not hear,
The lord is in sight
The lord is my shield
The lord knows the deal
I'm weak when I kneel
I'm not made of steel
I'm fake but I'm real
I hate when I feel
I can't eat a meal,
I try to conceal
So my pain won't unseal
Or reveal the ordeal
But the lord knows the deal
The lord's all I'll feel
The lord is my reel.
The lord you should praise
The lord do not hate
The lord is our grace
Just stare at your face,
Remember we're great!

It all started with a brown bear
Who knew we'd end up here
With a goofy stare,
love is ******* rare.
Especially when you find some one who really cares
Even when you just wanna grab them by their hair.
Wrap it around their neck oops no air.
I love you so much I ******* swear!
I see your face everywhere
I took a **** I saw it there
Didn't flush,
Cause your my ****,
you aint going anywhere.
Only you get to see this *** bare
You take away all my air it's so unfair.
I'm scared of losing you so late at night I'll do a prayer,
Check on you in your night wear
we'd make such a special pair
Love is in the air as I watch you sleep from this chair through the eyes of my brown bear.

It always starts with one voice telling you something
then you start to argue with yourself like it's nothing
Acting like it's counseling and you're the counselor of counseling,
This session is a thing that never ends
Cause when the thoughts begin
You're hearing them
Judging and talking bout nothing
Telling you that it means something.

They laid there surrounded by broken glass and the smell of burning rubber, they couldn't move right away but they could hear everything. Others were yelling for help some were crying, asking God why? As if God was the one to be blamed for our sins and our destruction. They crawled to each other trying to hold one another for the last time knowing this was it, this was the end. They heard the whistling noise again, Boom! Another bomb came down a few blocks away, they rushed there, crawling, grasping at the ground trying to get to each other desperately. He was missing a leg but his love for her was so strong he did not feel pain he just kept crawling. She couldn't move anymore so she waited for him to reach her
The whistling noise came again this time closer than before, it hits the building above them and he sees the debris falling down. He lets out an agonizing yell as they stare at each other one last time. He sees her lips say I love you, then she's gone. He lays there with sadness and anger, asking God why? Why couldn't you let us die together? All we wanted was to be together why God, why? Everything around him shined white then he heard a voice ask him why. Why did you take part in this war and ****** your fellow brothers and sisters? Why have you taken away so many husbands and sons from their families? You ask me why I didn't give you the satisfaction of dying together with your lover. But how many others have missed out on this very opportunity because of your hand. Don't ask me why, just know this is the price for your sins. The voice was gone and the man lived on.

Can't u see that I'm broken inside the exterior shows it all I have nothing to hide,
Still I feel like this picture isn't drawn clearer cuz I'm yelling inside and no one can hear me,
No one can hear the screaming in here its just me and my shadowing fears,
Shadowing fears that drown me in sorrow always have me wondering if there is a tomorrow,
A tomorrow where I can pick up my broken pieces and see the lessons this life teaches,
Bcuz this life teaches so many wonderful things only u can choose what to do with the will within,
The will within all of us which we control some of us forget how and loosen the grip we hold,
The grip we hold that helps u move forward and those who lose it eventually get cornered.