Sometimes, we don't have a choice
We do what we can to enjoy.
What a pain
These thoughts keep me drained
I tug at my chains
But I can't break free
From bad habits
It's a shame just to see
My whole life, I've been damaged
Sometimes, I wanna scream to the top of my lungs, but the breath inside wouldn't manage
I can't breathe. You're my tree
This oxygen is not the same.
Without you, there's no me.
I'll fall to my knees as I beg, and I plea
I'll fall to my knees as I pray for the day
I'll fall to my knees as I put this gun to my head
I'll fall..
With tears in my eyes,
I'll squeeze as I cry
Inside, I think..
I don't wanna die!!
but staying alive would be painful,
and I
I'm tired of pain.
I'm tired of seeing the same people act like they're ok .
I can see past your flesh.
I can see past your lies
I can see I'm the problem.
It's been like that all my life
Mister sweet heart,
mommas little angel, but down deep, they know I was danger.
The therapy
psychiatry
the medicine
The punishments
the lack of love filled with neglect
The hungry days won't go away
This messy home where I was raised
The secrets that I'll take to grave
With ****** hands, my soul,
the price I'd have to pay..
For all the sins I committed for being raised without proper supervision
Like a disease, I spread my infection. Who knows how many lives I've affected for having such selfish intentions.
This guilt
A collection,
it builds with suspension.
All a child needs is protection.
This reflection only shows my rejection and the holes never filled with affection,
I suppose this is why I'm different
This is why I don't fit in
This is why I don't want this
This life keeps me haunted with the past
I should've died on that rope.
Or under that truck on the road,
I should've died when I got in that car with that guy I didn't know
But God had other goals,
So that day, it poured rain as I ran home, and the blood stain washed away from my clothes,
I'm alive, but the price is my soul
Take a life, and that's how it goes.
That pocket knife was lunged in his throat!
wide eyes as he made ****** jokes.
I chose my life, but I lost all my hope
But the second his hand reached my thigh,
I didn't think twice, my trust, my pride he overstepped that line.
I'm not fine. I've never been,
The fear in his eyes I was feeling it
But that's life,
the fear of never wanting to die.
While fighting to prove you're alive.