They're whispering saying things
I shouldn't think filling my head,
with hatrid!
I feel depressed, I can not manage this,
I feel the quits, they're sneaking up
I hear the cricks I hear the creaks,
I feel defeat
I'm panicking so this is it
I failed to live.
I'm giving up
I'm giving in
I don't deserve to live like this,
So what it'll be.
A knotted rope
Or a slit wrist...

Will I finally get my rest
Who deserves all of this?
At least in death,
we have, a restful guess..

Lately I've been losing sleep,
counting sheep ain't helping me
my OCD is killing me,
with late night things,
I barely blink,
cuz all I think.
it's coming soon
It's coming quick
I can not snooze
My eyes will squint
I might doze off, a lil bit.
But that's just it, a lil bit.
It's always just, a lil bit
A lil smidge a lil bit..
It's always just a lil bit.

When will I,
Take my own advice.
When will I,
Change for better life.
When will I,
Be a better person.
When did I,
Begin to sin and worsen.
When did I,
Lose myself in the world.
When did I,
Begin to treat others cruel.
How can I,
Find the answers quick.
How can I,
Fight these cancer sticks.
How can I,
Learn from my mistakes.
Where will I,
Find the place that's great.
Where will I,
Find my inner peace.
Where will I,
Let loose and release.
Where did I,
Go, I feel lost.
Where did I,
Gain this heart of frost.
Where did I,
Find the bad vibes.
Can I,
Take my own advice.
Can I,
change for better life.
Can I,
Do it, and be alright.

Never learn what I did.
Ten fingers can't every sin,
Can't count everything that I did as kid
Do you think to forgive that you need to re-live the experience again,
to go back to a place you don't wanna face
retrace every step of the hurt and the pain,
remind yourself why you went through the change.
Then ask yourself was it worth it..... Today.

I don't like what I'm noticing
it's my reflection,
I'm smirking
But I see he's hurting.
So many imperfections
So much agression
So scared of rejection
Is that a slight hint of depression
Maybe it's time this kid accepts it acceptance is something he aint never getting rejection is his best friend.