to
conquer
is like flying
in the gold, hued clouds
and to
burn
is like a gaping black pit
where your golden soul
once was

Lion's child.
Golden boy;
Tell me what it is like to conquer

Fearless child.
Broken boy;
Tell me what it is like to burn

Go to sleep, close your eyes
Dream of broken butterflies

That tore their wings against a thorn,
The pain they've suffered since they we're born

Silver metal, shine so bright,
Scarlet blood that feels so right

Dream of blood trickling down,
Just wake up, before you drown

The moonlight shinning off your tears,
As you bleed out of your own fears

So tonight when you start to cry,
Whisper the cutter's lullaby:

Hush-a-bye baby, you're almost dead
You don't have pulse, and your pillow is red

Your family hates you and your friends let you bleed
Sleep tight with a knife, it's all you need

Slit Your Wrists

Slit Your Thighs

Welcome To

This World Of Lies

Love is a rose

Roses hurt here and there

And die without proper care

I am a rose

Who's been treated unfair

Some days I'm emotionally unstable,
Occasionally putting my problems on the table

Needing a friend to see how I'm treated,
In my loneliness ad depression, I feel defeated

Once having brilliant blue eyes,
Now turning red as they dry

Risking my own self to dangers,
Pain, to me, is no stranger

In my silence I will cry,
Never wanting to say goodbye

Just a cut
Just a scratch

"What's that mark?"

"Just a cat"

Just an excuse
Just another lie


"What's with all the bracelets?"

"Just a fashion, why?"

Just a tear
Just a scream

"Why are you crying?"

"Just a bad dream"

But it's not just a cut
Or a tear, or a lie

It's always just "One more.."

Until you die

One cuts

Two Cuts

Three Cuts

Four

C'mon Darling, What's One More?

Five Cuts

Six Cuts

Seven Cuts

Eight

Oh Dear, What A Mess This'll Create

Mirror, mirror on the wall,
I want to be pretty, skinny and tall

Mirror, mirror if I change my hair,
Maybe then someone will care?

Mirror, mirror if I starve myself
Maybe I'll be beautiful, minus my health

Mirror, mirror if I slit my wrist
Will I feel that I exist?

Mirror, mirror don't you see?
What you show is killing me

I cannot sleep
I will not eat
All my cuts
Are never to deep

Mirror, mirror don't you see?
All you do is ruin me

No one cares
Yet everyone stares
Wondering why
The cat scratches all the time

Mirror, mirror can't you see?
All you're showing is hurting me

For far too long, it had watched her cry
So the mirror decided to reply:

"What you think you see?
      It isn't true,
         The misery is found inside you.
      Don't lock yourself in a broken soul,
         Or I promise one day, you'll lose control"

She can draw a pretty picture,
She'll draw it with a twist

Her paintbrush is a razor,
Her canvas is her wrist

She paints her pretty picture,
In a color that's blood red

While using her sharp paintbrush,
She finally ends up dead

Her pretty pictures fading,
Quite slowly on her arm

Bloods not racing through her,
She no longer can do harm

She painted her pretty picture,
But her story had a twist

You see her mind was her razor,
And her heart was her wrist

Anger is the color of a house burning down
It sounds like the screaming of lost souls
It tastes like smoke, filling your lungs
And it smells like the ashes of a used to be forest

Anger looks like a city crumbling,
Anger makes you feel like you're drowning

I want you
Only you
To keep to myself
To never see someone look at you that way
I shall have you to myself
It´s what I need

I need you

I need to hear your voice
I need to hear your laugh

I simply need you with me

I need you in my arms
I need your lips upon my own


To know that you are mine
Is not enough

I need you badly
Make me happy
Just say yes

I love you,
I need you

I know you
But you don't know me
I've watched over you
And now your soul is free

I'll take you away
To my domain
And away from the decay
Where nothing is plain

You may feel fear
But do not worry
For I am here
I come in a hurry

I do not chose and pick
It was your time
No matter if you weren't old or sick
Or you were in your prime

I've watched over you
I've seen your ups and downs
It was time for your death cue
You are now on my grounds

A drop of red
Down the stairs it goes
It tells you I'm dead
Awash the color of the rose

I wanted to be happy
But my life had other plans
Someone despised me
And murdered me with cold hands

You stood there as if froze
As the knife inside me
I was covered by the color of the rose
You didn't save me

I don't feel spiteful
You were full of fear
I don't feel hateful
But I wish you were here

You don't have to be afriad
For I am here
You don't have to be afriad
For I feel no fear

I feel lost,
With nowhere to go
At a great cost,
I am laying low

I have no one,
So alone, am I
For I am trying to find someone
who would never tell me a lie

I walk, and I walk
To find him
I'm as white as chalk
Yet still searching for him

For someone who'll never tell me a lie
For someone who'll always be by my side
For someone who'll help me fly
For someone who'll never lie

Do you actually know me?
Do you know how I feel?
I do not feel free
I'm trapped in a world that feels so unreal

You may look at me and think of light
That nothing could ever cause me grief
But I'm in a never ending night
With nothing close to relief

I seem to always cry
And no one comes to my side
I might be able to fly
If no one willingly lied

Someone rescue me
I don't want to feel this way
I want to be free,
To be able to fly away

Do you actually know me?
Do you know how I feel?
I'm the little girl who isn't free
Living in a world unreal

When I was a little girl,
I believed in all things nice
I never saw the bad things,
But now I know to think twice

I would always look at the stars,
shinning in the sky,
and believe they would grant my wish,
But now I know not to try

I was always optimistic,
I would think everything'll be alright
I could make myself feel better,
But now everything's in a huge fight

I was always completely happy,
there was no such thing as fears
But now I'm scared of everything,
And it's hard to hide my tears

I used to think life was great
But now I can respect,
That life is not a fairy tale,
It's never going to be perfect

I used to believe in happy endings and true love's kiss.
I used to happily believe someone would change for me.
I used to believe in a lot of things.
But look at me now, I'm broken.
And now,
I believe true love's a joke, in which you're the punchline
I believe no one will ever really change, especially for me
I used to believe a lot of things, and look where it got me

I once had a bright red balloon,
It would rise and rise until it reached the moon

I once I had a bright red balloon,
It would sink and sink until it popped

I once had a heart,
Same story

Hush my darling, don't you cry
Take my hand, and together we'll fly

All this hurt, and all this pain
Can't bring us down, we'll fly away

Days and nights,
Nights and days

I cry in the corner, because I have nothing

No friends, no home, no love

Words were knives,
Knives were words

I cut myself down because I was missing pieces

Of life, of happiness, of this world

Hating love
Loving hate

As I held grudges keeping them locked up

In my mind, my heart, my soul

The tormented world,
Tormented me

Giving me false hopes of freedom unreal

Unimaginable, unforgiving, unappreciated

What is love?

An emotion?

A lifestyle?

A person?

Love is when you see a flaw,
And fill it with perfection

It's when you see a tear,
And catch it before it falls

Love is when your walls crumble,
along with your fears

It's when you try everything,
and anything for a touch

Love is full of longing,
and lust

Love is open,
or secret

Whichever, it's when you live for their touch

Their lips

Their voice

Their everything

Cold, wet, shaking
Stood there, slept there, fell in there
Feel lost, feel gone, yet I wander between

My soul left my body long before
He left me to die
Staring into my reflection
Watching my blink

Screaming was useless
When I'm the only one who can hear

Eyes refocus on me
I'm all they see

Smile before they blink
Eat before the think

Save me from who resembles you
Before I have to lie to you too

Fed the pill of insanity
The labeled me
Crazy

The light shined in my eyes
I realized I was blind

Humoring me and my perfect sanity
To me it was more

I've tasted freedom
And I don't plan on leaving

Our lives are not our own.
From womb, to tomb, we are bound by others.
And by each crime, and kindness, we birth our future.
“Everything bad that’s ever happened is my fault.
      Nobody wants me here.
I don’t have a family.
                  Everything I touch falls apart.
       Maybe I deserve to be alone.
Why would they care?
   I am nobody.
I never came when they needed me.
   I am a failure.
Stupid *******, make a wish.
   I wish I was dead.”
I want it to end.
  I’ve always wondered if there was something wrong with me.
    Ever since I was young, I felt like I didn’t belong.
       I always thought I wasn’t good enough, so I never showed the real me.
         I hated myself.
But then I realized something important.
    That no matter how alone and helpless I felt,
          whenever I looked around me,
             I saw millions of shinning stars.
No matter how scared,
  Once I finally jumped,
      My wings started to grow.
And the further I flew,  
    The stronger I got,
       And I know you can be strong too.

The neon lights mock me
The siren alarms me

But that didn't stop me

Heartbroken defeat is all I feel

I hear the call, the whistle, music to my ears
Yet dangerous to my heart

If I had been there when you called, would you have lived?
Or just survived like I did

My first love, oh how silently you have gone

Sleep takes me
Fear awakes me

Gasping breaths
I held it in

Beautiful notes
Break me within

I paint sorrow
Your face on a canvas

I call to you

Amidst the rain from my eyes
Please come back

The reflection haunts me
Taunting me

Showing the truth
Reality becoming blurry

Becoming what I've always feared
My insides screamed
Clawing the set edges of my seams
Never to be set free

I'm sorry I couldn't pick up
My internal struggle wasn't enough

I can't escape this eternal hell
Even if I tried,
I always end up walking back to the same cell

Once a world dies, another is born
Mine tumbled,  and stumbled,  and burned

The dark touched me, so I searched for light
But I didn't belong here anymore

I set fire to the petals, no struggle at all
Except sorrow for the world that has dissolved

Opening the gateway, feet thinking before me
I walk the hall of necessity

My world too has been dead
It's been sweet for too long

So I walk my own way
To find my place

Maybe never
Maybe someday

Maybe forever
Maybe already dead

I was too late
To save her from her own fate

I hope she'll forgive me
For my past me

I bear the blood of my own
I did it for the health of my own

But now I'm alone
I'm broke at home

"Please dry my eyes"

I call for you but I hear no reply
I am alone