Not a word, you refuse to speak, you look into my eyes and my heart plunges way to the deep
Not a kiss, nor a smile, no notion you will stay awhile
Do the words "I love you" not say enough
Or were you maybe just to tough
Not saying anything to me
Doesn't change a single thing
Because when I look at you, I can't stop the  s t i n g
You can't stop my love for you
It's like a thousand pound frieght train
Does this thing we had, have to go down in vain
Or should I just let it rain
Let the tears
F
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l
    l
And not answer any calls and maybe just disapear
What does it take to get your love.

Go ahead
Do it
Be mad at me for caring
But your anger is usless
I can't stop
C a r i n g
For you
I mean how could I
What kind of sister would I be
What kind of a person
I'm sorry I don't want you to end up      b   r  o  k  e  n
Like me, like this mess of a girl
I'm sorry you don't know or can even begin to understand what goes on behind closed doors
Closed memories
     Closed people
I'm sorry that you don't know or can even begin to understand how It feels for me or for anyone else outside of yourself
But most of all I'm sorry I couldn't have cared just a little more to protect you from what you are becoming.

Little baby* ohh so small.
You're such a little baby.
You c r y all day, and c r y all night if nothing ever works out right.
You **** on the world, whenever you feel, because since your a little baby you can't tell whats real.
Laughs can't take away the t e a r s, because when you grew older you struck everyones hearts with fear
You decided to walk away from everything that was i m p o r t a n t to you one day, and found darkness and took comfort in it's stay, I tryed to help you out of this dark abyss you got yourself into, but you decided to pull everyone down, including, my l i t t l e  b a b y you.

I’m trapped
In a labyrinth of thoughts
A complicated irregular network
Of nonsensical passages
I wonder
Will I ever escape
Will I ever get to feel
Or to taste
What this place
Has conjured up
And passed off
As reality
But in my heart I know
I never will
I’ll exist here forever
From this place
I’ll watch my body rot
And feel my mind disintegrate
My only escape
From the present
Is the future
Though I know
It’s nonexistent
So what’s the point
Is there a reason
Because I need one
I’m beginning to tire
Of this never-ending puzzle
When I think I’ve found my way out
I get lost again
When I begin to see a light
At the end of the tunnel
It flickers off,
toying with my head
And I’m lost again
Was there ever a time
When I wasn’t
Was there ever a time
When my mind could be free
I can’t remember

For today is brand new,
It is of circumstantial glue.
For today is a day,
Unlike most yet still the same.
For today Ill give in,
Not sure if Ill be able to again.
For today ill forget who I am,
But not how to be a man
For today, just for today,
I want to be us again...

Sinking smiles and golden brown spots
Silver lining on every edge, drifting deeper into the horizon.
Blue drops fall silently down,
Sinking into the light brown surface.
Evaporating.
Evaporating back into the black empty holes.

Up from a disintegration, its meaning less to go back.
To hard to start over.
Sorrows show flashes spread across darkness.

A small opening.
Just enough.
Closing up.
Black inside and out.
Pitch black.

Breaking into song until its too loud.
quicker, quicker.
Wishing it would stop.
Noises stop for just a moment.

Silence.
Waiting for it break.
Peacefulness gets swallowed.
Resting in sobs of tranquility.

I told myself I would live forever
Imagined death and scoffed
They told me life is fragile
But I brushed their warnings off.

I knew that death could not claim me
He was simply an old person’s fable
But were he to approach me in the night,
I would be Cain and he would be Abel.

I told myself I would never die
Death would never claim a soul this free
But then I met you and sure enough
My heart quit beating and he came for me.

Every time I set foot in this city of dreams,
it beckons me and, yet, makes me feel like an outsider.
With its tall buildings and crowded roads,
with bridges built on sweat and blood
and empires built on character.
With its sticky wind and fast pace
you try to embrace the city,
but before you know it,
you get entangled
in this city of dreams,
this empire of hope.