I'm tired of waiting for us
to be on the same page.
I'm tired of you deciding
when we can see each other.
I'm tired of secrets.
I'm tired of crying over you.

Even after everything-
after all this ******* time-
I'm not tired of loving you.

It's not a relapse if you enjoy it.
It's not addiction if you still like it.
It's not your life so don't worry about it.

I want to experience
everything.
I want to
live
every life I can.
I just don't know
how.

I want to take back everything
I've ever said to you.

I don't want you to know
anything about me anymore.

I can't believe
someone likes me
this much.

things are getting
really bad again.
i wonder when
someone will notice
this time.

I just get really
really
lonely sometimes.
I don't think
I have feelings for you.
I think I just missed
being close to someone else.

another crush
on another stupid boy
that i've hardly ever spoken to.

from how things have gone before,
i'll probably never pursue it.
but, oh goodness,
he's rad
and way too good for me.