You asked me where
My home was and
I explained to you that rainy night
That my home wasn't a place but
A time in my life
When hope was around
Faith still here
The gun wasn't loaded
And I wasn't filled with fear

***** and red bull
Allow me to forget
How you don't love me
But it only provides
Temporary relief

There's nothing left for me
in this town.
Nothing to left to do
but drown
in hopelessness
and thoughts of you.

I know what I have to do.

I've written a lot lately
Poems I refuse to post
Not really sure why
But it's her that bothers me most
I don't feel comfortable
Not with anything I say
I just wish I could erase my memory
And stop going back to those days
The betters ones
When things were different
When I wrote love poems
But now everything, I resent
Maybe I'll disappear
To where I can't be reached
At least not by the one
Who keeps me out of reach
To everyone, I'm distant
Cold all the way to the bone
This love will soon turn to hate
But even then I'll still be alone