Driving through time,
Reflecting on memories
The flashbacks come
In a spiral of streets

All it takes is a whiff
Of sweet salty air,
To think of that day on the beach,
When love was in the air

Driving through time,
I think of you, It's
Enough to make
Me carsick.

2/11/14
(a.f.c)

A slave to the memories
Bound by the ankles
My mind is always overseas
The flashbacks take over me.

What the ******* take me for?
My mind and heart are always at war
You don’t even have a clue
I’m gonna go tie a noose
Hang myself over all my troubles,
Try to save me,
    don’t be subtle.

You can cry and you can try,
Hey, don’t stress it,
I’ve already been dead inside.
Ain’t that a kick?
It don’t even matter,
So when my soul starts to shatter,
Don’t act like you didn’t know,
Saig will come and steal your soul.


(a.f.c)

One day I was happy,

Before I knew it, life was a mess
And all of a sudden
I felt a noose around my neck.

My Lord thy God,
He lifted me up,
And now I look down,
Down upon you, my love.

You look so beautiful,
Living your life,
Living in peace,
Finally out of strife.

From above, I watch you smile,
From above, I watch you cry,
I know that life is hard,
But darling, you always shine.

I know you miss me ,
I know you think of what we shared,
If only when I was living,
You had shown how much you cared.

Maybe if I had known,
I wouldn’t of done what I did,
Maybe you could’ve  saved me,
You could’ve kissed my lips.

And that’s how we’d stay,
Together at last,
You belonged with me,
My future, present, and past.

But there is nothing I can do,
Nothing to do but wait,
Until the day you come to join me,
Babe please! Don’t be late!

You can see me in the sun,
You can hear me in the rain,
“Darling, come to me,
   I want to touch your face.”

There’s only one thing to do,
The only thing you can think of,
So you take the tie of a shoe,
You make a loop,
You tie a noose..

You can hear me calling,
“Come, baby,
    I’m just beyond the horizon.”
You can feel the falling,
You can almost feel me there..
“Don’t look down baby,
    Don’t be scared.”


(a.f.c)

Don't look outside,
It's fire and rain.
Block your ears,
If you want to stay sane

The demons, they crawl
and fly and roar
They're looking in the windows
They're coming through the floor

You can't escape them
They have their hold on you
You can try and run
But soon they're in your head

You're not yourself,
You're depressed and sad
You have a rage you can't contain
You have anger you can't tame.

The demons, they whisper
they tell you things to make you afraid
You're gone, gone from earth
You transported to space

You can't control anything
It's like it's left to chance,
But soon nothing is worth it
Your life is left to a trance

The demons, they cut you
They slice you and burn you
They pull your hair
They fill you with despair
Fight if you dare,
But you don't even care

They wear you down to the core
They drain happiness out of every pore
Your brain is blank
And your insides are at war

Your slipping down, down through the floor,
Where the demons originally came from
There's nothing left to care for
So you let them win,
Your head starts to spin
The thought of what you're about to do
At least it's not them, but you
You can only control this one thing
The shot fires with a ring,
and you start to sink,
down,
     down,
Down to meet your demon king.


(a.f.c)

All it takes
Is a short plane ride
And now I'm gone
On the other side
Of the world

Away from you,
Away from my favorite chair,
Away from all the memories we were going to make
And the future we had planned together

Now I'm gone from my home,
I'm on the other side
Of the world,
and I'm alone

And maybe you forgot about me,
Maybe you forgot how it was always us or we.
Not one or another,
Together forever

And I miss you, I do
But maybe this is good,
and being independent will help me grow,
And maybe I won't come back.


(a.f.c)