I bite my nails,
I’m anxious with hunger
I can’t eat,
this will make me stronger.
I constantly starve myself
I eat bites here and there
anything to stop
the hunger pains of despair
I didn’t do enough crunches
I pray to Ana,
give me strength.
I ate too much at lunch
I have to lose weight!
I usually skip dinner
and go to be hungry
I pray to Ana,
make me thinner.
I lost my school dedication
to spending hours on the computer,
looking up thinspiration.
Ana’s Creed, Ana’s laws,
sentences to live by,
all pointing out my flaws.
I read them day by day,
Memorize them like lyrics,
they turn into my favorite song
Don’t do this, don’t eat that,
A moment on the lips,
a lifetime on the hips.
God, I look so fat!
Collar bones and thigh gaps become an obsession,
I know I complain,
But here’s a confession,
I love Ana.
and I know she loves me.
She always reminds me
how thin I should be.
She doesn’t take try,
It’s do or die.
She doesn’t take cant’s,
But she’ll always understand,
how difficult it can be,
to achieve perfection.
Night by night,
She leaves me exhausted,
She’s the voice inside my head,
She takes me in and fills me up,
with the lack of being fed.
She touches my soul,
and puts me at ease
She whispers in my ear,
Loving words, these:
“Go to sleep,
My darling,
May you rest in peace.
Dream of perfection,
which you can achieve,
Simply follow the rules,
and listen to me,
It’s effortless, you see:
Just
Don’t
Eat.”
(a.f.c)