Go ahead... No one will notice
They will judge me.....They won't have a clue
A clue...That it was you
Go ahead make him pay.....I can't do it not today
Chicken ****....I am afraid
Then take out yourself....Thats awful to say
You can make it all go away....It would still linger, in my heart it would stay
He deserves it for treating you this way.....He does, your right! Today is the day
Feel better now?....No I feel worse
Your such a sap....I'm human, it' a curse
Soon your have the power of fame.....No love for life though, just a name
You can't have it all ,sometimes you much sacrafice.....His life and my heart , just for a little part

Not your heart you still have that.....What was the cost then? Tell me that!
Something more precious than gold....Heaven help me! you mean my soul!

Didn't you read the small print?.....I can't believe this lement
I've enjoyed this time we've spent...Will I ever see you again
Of course you will we're bond by sin......In the end?
Yes,I will come for you......when?
When? Why when you decend....Until then?

Love that sin....I change my mind!
You can't rewind....I been forsaken?
No mistaken....I don't know what to say
There's nothing more to say it's just the price you must pay....
I wish you never came...
but, I like the game....
My soul's to high of a price...
I know but's it my vice
Please let me go....
I can't even if I wanted it to be so..
There's no hope for me?....
Just enjoy it ,and pretend that your free...
But, I know in the end,where I must go....
Yes , forever with me in the fire down below...
I'm afraid, will it hurt to burn?....
I 'll be with you when it's your turn....
Promise?...
I won't let you down...
Love is cruel isn't it??...
It is my sweet,but just a bit...
How long do I have??...
I can't tell you that...
Until then....
I'll be waiting friend

The rain it trickles down my window
beating on the ***** street
making puddles , and the children splash them with their feet
I sit back and watch
my eyes like the clouds
my cheeks like those streets
my pillow that puddle
but no child here to play
that one missing piece for the perfect rainy day
a mocking of nature ,though the meaning is different
The rain it cleanses and renews
Those tears release the trapped up blues
I wonder to myself , will there every come a day
when I will once again have a sunny day
Eyes sparkling with love for life
the laughter of that child who dwells inside
the beam of a smile that could light up the night
One tear of happiness, to show gratitude to the light

I tried to see the world as it is
Hiding my heart , as if to protect  it
But, no matter how I try
I can't seem to get these clouds out of my eyes
Maybe it's because I am a dreamer
Perhaps I was never ment to be a blue collar skemer
I live my happiest moments
in dreamy visions of tomorrow
Not realizing at the time
That now is passing right on by
Curse these reality illusions
That blends with now and then fuses
Leaving me in a state of warpness
Viewing real reality as rather hopeless
Choosing then and now
to live my life
with my heart on my sleeve
Clouds in my eyes
and wind in my sails
floating wherever
this life takes me
Wrapping myself
in the things that forsake me
Using them to warm my soul
against reality's cold wind blow
And as for love I'll take what I can
For love is the one true gift given
to mortal man

You invited yourself in through a crack in the door
looking around you yawned in a bore
Looking at my trinkets and irrelevant things
Trying to find a piece of me
but,hiding am I
from your piercing eyes
Locked in the closets
safe from your lies
You wander endlessly through my empty shell
tip toe down stairs
to a vision of hell
You thought I was so pleasant
a peaceful caring soul
little did you know of the fire down below
I come out of hiding no longer afraid
No more will I hide my silent rage
You want to know me
and what makes me tick
I hope all the darkness has not made you sick
You crawl up the stairs
shaking and scared
into a soft bedroom
and I am waiting there
at first you stare
frieghten of me
then you stand up
and come to me
I am not evil
I am not angelic
I am a little of both
I am a human
The same as you
breathing
loving
hurting
too......

I watch you through my eyes of glass
A tempting sight from first glance
So innocent and gentle is your way
Nothing like you has ever come my way
You shimmer in the light of the shining sun
You and your friends having fun

I must be careful where I tread
my kind is not welcome or so I have read
I see you from behind the clouds playing silly games
I wish to feel this joy as I hide my steamy shame
my kind would disown me for visiting such a place
Yet I am drawn to you , your beauty and your grace
but I do not belong here and this I must face
If only for a moment I could catch you in flight
I would not hurt , or tarnish your golden wings of light
Just to gaze at you and for you to see me too
Not the creature I am but, what I would be for you
Then I would set you free
and perhaps become more than the monster I have been made to be....

I lay awake in the still of the night
While the crickets sing in the pale moon light
I remember how it used to be
When sleep would come so easily
I would drift upon a cloud so shimmery and white
I felt like an angel taking her first flight

That was before the clouds turned grey
Before my innocence was ripped away
And now the darkness fills my skies
With nightmares that trample my mind
Dark visions of anger and pain
Demented creatures lost and insane
Endless falling ,spinning out of control
Why can't I just let it go

Please God if you hear me grant me this gift
Peaceful dreams of a life well spent
Give me back my soul and take my hand
Please give  me back to dreamland

Love and Hate
Soul and Mate
Give and Take
Real and Fake
Stop and Flow
Know and Show
Mine and Fine
draw and line
eyes and cries
live and dies
good and evil
doom and hope
ying and yang

Four letter words simple and true
Are easy to use to desribe me and you