I'm left here
my feet on the floor
I'm staring at the door.
To leave
or to stay...
so many options
but where would I go?
I have no one
I have no where
other family
yeah, funny
I'd just be a burden
but that's nothing new.
Why?
why is this feeling
taking over me
leave me alone
LEAVE ME ALONE
My insides are flowing
but slowly
I was never like this
I was always happy
have I caused this myself
am I creating my own nightmare
It's blowing up
but I won't show it.
It's blowing up
inside of me
but it's a secret
I would never share.
For once, I don't know
for once, I need help
but would anyone understand?
I know they wouldn't
I think I'm crazy
but am I?
Do other people feel this way
I'm not just myself
there is someone else
inside of me
someone else making my decisions
I don't agree with myself
I can't fight this anymore.
Who am I?
What have I become?
Where am I going?
When will this go away?
Why me?
How did I let myself get here?
I am up and down.
constantly
I'm done
with me
and them
and everyone around.