They say don't wish your life away,
But I wish my life would end today.

Mary had a shadow
It followed her around
Mary had a shadow
She found it in the ground

Everywhere that Mary went
The shadow would follow
Everywhere that Mary went
She felt very hollow

Mary tried to get rid of it
But the shadow wouldn't go
Mary tried to get rid of It
But there was something she didn't know

Mary was her own shadow
And the shadow lived with in
Mary was her own shadow
She was fighting what's within

Some nights
I feel like its coming back
The darkness
That was taking over me
In my body
Taking my soul to a black place
I won't
Go back to that place
Can I
Get through this
Could I
Be strong enough
Dear god
Help me fight this
I'm sorry
I'm not a good person
I apologize
I've been so wrong
But help
Before its dark again
And I
Loose my soul again
To the
Darkness inside me
Its coming
Back to take me in
But help
Before its to late
And I
Have to fight myself
To stay
Alive and not not die.

Earlier today
I was shaving my legs

It may be strange
But it doesn't happen much

I put my leg up
On the side of the tub

Starting smearing on the soap
All over my right left

This time was different
I noticed something strange

Little white lines
All over my leg

I thought they were gone
I must have done bad

I had never felt like this
So disappointed

A remi der of my pain
From many months ago

The scars from the razor
That released my pain

So how do I go on
Knowing what I did

Will they ever go away?
Dear God I hope so.

So maybe I should shave blind
To hide the hurt inside

I don't wanna see my mistakes
Ever again

But that's too bad
Have to move on

But every time I shave my legs
There'll be a reminder

Of  the things I've done
And what I've become.

Look in the mirror
He said
And say these words
to yourself

You are beautiful
Just the way you are.

I couldn't
I couldn't say those words.

I couldn't even look
Look myself in the eyes

Not without crying
Not without dying

Why sir
Why should I do this
I cried to him
He just looked at me

You were made
To be perfect

You are beautiful
On the inside

That night I knew
I had to change

I couldn't do it anymore
Hating myself

I had to find peace
With myself

So that night
I looked in the mirror

But I saw something
Something strange

It was me,
But I could look into my eyes

So I did
And said those word

You are beautiful.

"You are patient"
She said.
I'd never heard those words
I've always been the one
to jump the gun
Its really hard for me
To sit back in my seat

But I'll wait
Don't worry
I'll wait
You really must be special
Because I don't have patience
Its something for me to learn
And I'm alright with waiting.

Just hope you appreciate
The tings I do for you
Cause baby you so special
That I'll be patient.