Four letters found
That changed the world
LOVE

Five letters needed  
That do no harm
TRUST

Eight letters lost
Hidden from reality
BETRAYAL

Seven letters wanted
In my life -my
Despair

Four Letters lived for
We live in
HOPE

Letters in the Alphabet

To some words mean everything
To me its all in the music

You see Abc gave me that
Lexicon of love
And I could only Imagine what
Lennon thought
Yet Pulp gave it all for the
Common people
But Bowie was my Hero
Good old Amadeus Rocked me at parties and
Boy George never hurt me as my
Enigma would always return me to innocence
Whilst at the back of my mind I would
Muse to thinking Time is running out

How would you dance
On a moonlight eve
Would you twinkle to the stars  
Light the earth in a beat

Let us dance

How would you kiss
In a sun turned away
Would you shine in my eyes
Light my heart in a breath

May I kiss you

How would you love
In close as we lay
Would you hold me so tight
Take my life taketh me

Yes I love you

The day was dull
Wet
Aching
That's how I feel too

Could it be so bad
Am I singing sadness
When all is in bloom
Of course

For that's how I see
Read
Feed off the earth around me
Tis how I write

For once I wish I could
Lift my head
Smile at the world
Change my fear

Outside the doting sparrow enters the thicknes of the hedgrow
Bugs gathered
Young waiting
Yearning
To eat the death of another creature
So life goes on

The deathly shadows waved as they flashed through
My headlights on their way to another steal
Another day ??
Another time maybe I thought ?
But turn me cold they did to form
Shivers so sharp my deadened eyes
Rasped against their brittleness
I hate the midnight call

This lack of rest was winning to my
Thoughts of a day all mine
Another call to the front
A sound ****** on my echoes around
The quiet room called home

For I am the collector and your soul
Is in my seek
My journey is to help you fight them
For they steal all your promises  
They eat at your want and relish at
Your need

Allow me to protect you till you move
Till the change is complete
Into your fade of this cold place  
Till you brave the land I know
Take my hand
Let me explain ....life

Drips of life fell into my dreams
As the rain leached onto my window
Echoes bouncing as I struggled for the light
Another day needs a beginning

Still as I wake the pain returns
Aches from a body faded to grey
Years of the enslaved bite my unseen
wounds
Once the days were good

Life was young then
Life was free and I cared no further
Only now do my regrets take their toll
As my mind smiles through a face in pain
Bitten are the yellow stains in my grin

Take me
Take me from this ever decreasing circle
That lays claim for my body
Show me the other turn
Claim me for the better off in life
Cold is the dawn

Cold is my life
The empty bed leaves no comfort
From my curse to stay  
Life work me hard so my pain can continue
Let my destitution come true
My day has begun

Into the road of my dreams I must walk
A path so full of clutter
Cobwebs of anger
Fury
Mess
Steps made from the colours of life
My life
Yet blackened night takes its bow
Hides my smile
Reminds me of its power
The darkness hides that way
Left or right
An easy choice for regrets
I know my heart will glow
No matter what the rest
No matter what the hurt
Let the blackness commence
So I shall seek the light

My eyes felt so lonely
Was it the look that I never saw
Maybe the view hidden from my wall
Or just the looking down watching these feet
Drew my drawl

I wanted no one to see
The look in my window
Hidden
Shameful in my mind
The world felt heavy

So this is the way
No looks about
This chin stays low
And loneliness friends me  
No harm

The lonely hour woke me
Left my mind aloud
So here I am
Telling

Do you feel the dark as I do?
Tis almost a rancid stench
That never leaves my blow

The haunting never fades
Nor do the thoughts
As I sweat the lay
Dread the crawl to water
Till I start another day

So that is my wake
My call to become
But never does it go
It's cold blackened want
Waiting
For the lonely hour
Again

Eyes come closed to the darkness
Mind open to the thoughts of another age
Long long ago when the grass was green
And the hills smiled full
Full of golden

This was the time
This was the place
Where my pa held my hand
Where we played
Where we danced

Long long ago
When the trees held the fruit
Was the time for the present
And life for the full
Where we chased and laughed
Fell into the grass
Where he held my hand

Pillow wet from a blurred view
His hand no longer touching
As I remember today
Bring me the past
So I may live this way
Long long ago was a place I remember
Memories of the best of days
Where
My pa held my hand

The pain in your words so cut me apart
Do slice through my heart
Go blind my eyes with your venom
For I am I and you are
Lost

Lost to a world so apart from the truth
Binded to faith
Bitten by anger
Scared for the through
Hurt from a past all
Lost  

Time ago we'd never say
Never cry the pain
Nor show teeth so ****** red
Waiting for the ****
Scared yes but never
Lost

So I will run
Hide
Take a different path
Hold my loss
So it be
Even I become the
Lost

Her eyes shone to porcelain
With a smile that devoured
Bronzed skin to a glistening crack
She was beautiful

I could only look from afar
Bite down on my lust
Bow my head
Dream of her scent upon me

Was I the fallen one
Madly in love with a sway
I couldn't think
Focus nor cry

The train left
Plumes of dust covered my face
She was gone
And I was forever lost

Lips dry from the point I made
There's fire in this belly tonight
If only my wallet was a large as my tongue
Then the world would be mine this night

No food for my thoughts
No cash for the splash
I'm fed up of working
Consider it tax
Don't get no more thought on
Not even a rest
Just work me to hell
Why not !
I know my place

Clouds of rain swept across my view
The pain inside my head
Became bitter and twisted
I was jealous
I was cross
I was broke
I was lost

I only needed one lift up
Just one good will from life
Yet here is my pride a bottomed out pit
I'll lay here a while
I cry

There are many places in many times that mean no more
Than the spoken words before me
Yet here it lays before my heart this mountains subtle Grey
My convictions  
My life
My dreams

These decisions in me now regretted
Looked back
Harmful for my soul
Madness in my mind
Tears in my torture for I have failed

In my youth I was young ,fresh and free
No hill be my wall
No mountain face to fall
For I was ready and my grass grew a path
No mortal could devour

Then life bestowed me life
The sun fell and the clouds became cold
Dark
Hungry
My convicted soul now blackened from the scars
Of broken dreams

I could feel its tremor as this rock before me
Fell
Gone its stability
Crumbled
And like the thoughts in my mind
The pebbles washed away
Into the sea of the broken wings
As I became the lost

My hand to touch your lips
Tastes of heaven
Lovers kiss
In my arms
My love our love

The pain when your not here
Hurts me inside
I tremble
Fear
Love

Your whisper traps me
Holds me
Takes me
I love your voice
Husky high

So take my hand
Come walk with me
I'll show you sky
We'll be in heaven
Our love

Let us sing to the angels
A voice for all to hear
Our lives forever lovers
All one for all
In love
Our love

Money may ache a grin
Think your the topps
Etch a style that accustoms you
It's not love

Fancy cars that force a swept glance
Shoes glowing a shiny suit
A house that days come to clean
Still not love

And that's it
A broken kiss
That look so missed
No no no
No love 💔

The passion in my anger
Saw my rage
Tasted in your eyes
Eaten from your heart

You doubted all my wisdom
I hated all your lies
My fear of never finding

This love
Forever blind

My burst of giving all to you
The pain I felt my life
This world has stopped
I'm changing lanes
The fish have come alive

The pond is full
Yet hunger waits
My hook is frail and torn
The hurt inside is red from raw
I fear a lovers burn

The passion in my anger
Saw my rage
Tasted in your eyes
My sorrow
Eaten from your heart

You doubted all my wisdom
I hated all your lies
My fear of never finding

This love
Forever blind

My burst of giving
In to you
The pain I felt my life
This need
This world has stopped
I'm changing lanes
This fish has come alive

The pond is full
Yet hunger waits
My hook is frail and torn
The hurt inside is red from raw
I fear a lovers burn

The blossoming colours raged like a
Golden rainbow
Spellbound in beauty
Maddening Lilies played their only
Hand  
They looked wild

The land was ready for the taking
Perfumed to the air
Let the course be set
Hypnotizing music from the swaying
Leaves of love
The maddening Lilies were ready

Yet like I
Flowers easily fail
Scent becomes lost
Foliaged green burns for the sun
Then the weakness comes
Until the end

Our end
Our colour
Our weakness
The maddening Lilies lay broken
As we
Reached for the sky

As I wake to a cold lonely bed
From these eyes that open blankly
My reach
My love
Is waiting
I know your close
Your near  

I'll wait until the mountains fall
I'll wait for ever.... be my role
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

This head is full
It's all of you
I want you here
With me
To feel your breath upon my chest
Let's sleep my love
Let's sleep

I'll wait until the mountains fall
I'll wait for ever.... be my role
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

One day my eyes will wake to you
To watch you eyes
All closed
I'll kiss you softly
Stir your soul
Our perfect
Magnifique

So whats ya problem she shouts as I sit there sniffling in me own little world
Man cold ......I whisper
Uhhh is the response
Take some drugs and crack on I hear
Did she not hear me
MAN COLD .......

The slow shuffle from my seat to the kitchen creates a groan
Even the dog looks at me sad
Man cold ....... I whisper
I'm sure I see him smile
Pheerrrr
GIVE ME DRUGS .......

Ahhhh ...back I go to the safety of my chair in a walk so remote from my normal bounce
Man cold ...I whimper  
Blanket ready for a tissue overload
Remote cuddled and ready for the daytime dross TV
Man cold ............

Sympathy found they crowd round me to leave me unattended
kissed from afar ...I'm ready
Man cold .....party
All alone the switch is flicked I'm up and dancing
Man cold... prancing
Video games ....It's FIFA time  
No pots I'll wash nor face to brush
It's beer o clock lets party rock
Man cold .......

The toll is heard, my blanket wrapped to a weary sound from a snuffly head
I'm back she calls with sympathy shots
How ya feeling
Man cold ...I whisper...
Oh bless you please Ill look after you now
A cup of tea ...she is my hero  
Man cold ......

Remember guy's don't shout it out
Man cold rocks there is no doubt
Just keep it quiet when she does sniffle
You know the drill
Don't blow the whistle

OK love
Just going to the pub for a couple
Will you be alright ....!!!!
Yeah ...I won't be long!!!

Shivers that rattled fillings
My skin a prickle
This mind all hated
It's man flu

Pathetic in my voice
Aches to the bone
Chicken soup and hot tea
My man flu

I went to bed at eight
Dripped sheets still damp
I'm sneezing from the heavens
La man flu

Two paras at the ready
A quota almost full
This nose is running a marathon
Only man flu

I staying here
Downstairs can wait
Please give me strength
Man flu

The bar was filled with the matchstick people
Thin,thick ,tall and some fat
Doing what they did last week
And the week before
Maybe even the year before that
So my shiver told me

Wine,red cold and nasty
Dribbled down this unopened jaw
Trying to escape my wanted lips
As I watched them
Yes there I sat mocking and thinking
Is all the that

Strange as I see them
My smile could not come
For I felt in their sorrow a life almost done
Accepted for society this pleasure for hard work
The drinking game a folly that hides a life of dirge

Yet leaning back on the creaked out chair ,I swallowed
The wine now warm,felt fuzzy and inviting
Contemplating life,my mind raced  
I could never be a matchstick
The box would never take me ,nor I want to fit

My time had come,
Up I stood ,yet no one noticed me,no one cared
With my glass half full I left
Out I walked
Into life,into the open
My glasses bore a fired refection,as I turned
I could see them burning  
Deep within I knew that all matches fade away to nothing
Oh the shiver