The smell came in waves
Beautiful full waves of
Money,power and madness

I had entered a different world
This world contained things like shoes to purchase
So expensive a mere mortal like myself
Could only ever dream of owning

Chocolates did fuel my eyes
That only my lips could whisper a wanting never to be fed
This was the smell and look of greed and slavery
And I was its servant

Over the years my hands had bled for hours
Bone grinded to dust
Just to feed
Yet they laugh
Our masters
At us
The servants

But here I was mesmerized
I wanted it all
Diamonds,gold and incense
So I could become one
A master
But for who will then be left to be my servant

The hanging tree is here
Peacefully wanting
Joy in its stance
Within a hidden sadness
It waits

In a place of tranquil its roots
Lay ready for madness
Loss
Tears

Beckoning my way
I'll fight it come May
To water it's moss
My tears
Failing heart

Be when I am old
Worn past tired
Rot in my hell
I'll visit this place
Go say my last grace

The Killing Kiss

As the wind blew
These eyes wept
For once they knew
I'm so alone

The sad ,my lonely
A care I wish
No smile to warrant
The Killing kiss

A once remembered
This time now gone
The tears still flow me
Drowned in love

Into the morning hour
My eyes bleed from no rest
Who am I to question this deed
**** the night
Dam the demons

For I hear their laughter
Ringing within me
Reveling at my thirst
For sleep
I cry

My voice wakes no one
Nothing is said
Only the laughter within me
Is rattled
Echoed in my head

They think they are winning
A coldness inside
But I'll tell you a secret
The demons are
Mine

I write of loneliness and fear
The demons rattle
Inside me all is not clear
These wishes granted
Washed to the sea
Darkness cometh
Blindly I lead

Walk as they do
For they know I will drown
Follow the blind man
Join in the crowd
No fighting the water
No screaming allowed
Follow the blind man
Follow the crowd

They wash in my sorrow
They drown all for me
For I am the wanted
Be raised from the sea

And so I look on them as down they must go
The blind and the foolish
I'm watching below
For now I am risen
Above all my sheep
My dreams all awaken
The future I weep

The colour never changed
and its purpose
Well...who are we to challenge?
The muddy puddle held it's dankness
And I was ready to jump

A place I'd spent my life avoiding
This wet and murky
An avoidance that held no solace
No wanting
And for sure no appeal

The days,weeks and finally the years did pass
As bones became a little older
My mind wandered
Why had I avoided it?
What had made me jump like the sheep for their master?
And so became my question

The very next day
I continued on my walk
The path ...my life
As always the puddle waited for me
Only this time
When I jumped

My aim sharp
As quiver gripped my body
I flew
Higher than ever before
With my head held high and eyes wide shut
The middle of muddy puddle was ready
This place
My unknown

An avalanche of cascading water
Deafened my thoughts
The water was deep
My muddy puddle was playing its role
For not a single drop of water
touched me
I remained the dry

I was scared
Why was I dry?
Dare I open my eyes?

Of course I do

A smile broke out over my face
As my aged eyes took in their view
Such beauty bequeathed me
For the muddle puddle had painted my world

All my greys and blacks now gone
Flowers seen like never before
and a sky of blue so perfect
I could cry
The tears flowed as blurred eyes took in the reality
My life of past had been so colourless
And now
And now I would smile to make a million people smile with me
As I splashed and danced
I began to live

Ears that bleed
On a call not wanted
Eyes doth weep
Cries
On these scenes of a madness

All in a day
For the eve of this Christmas
For done is the will
Tis cherished
Our life

Your time is not measured
It's us as we
Are
Lucky to live
Be born from this star

Christmas
This Christmas
Remember the fell
Do bless all the loved ones
So live
Live it well