Gravel under foot to the crunch that
echoed into my memories
For she had gone
Into the distance of a time not ready
for my soul

My time was still here
My garden still in bloom
Yet I knew she waited for my fall
Waiting for the chorus to call my day

Legs that carried me through the mire
Now felt tired and weak in the day
I could still smell her musk
Next to me
Teasing me to another tear
Ripping me to a thousand pieces
Life for another year

The garden still needs me and
I need it
But still I must walk
Cry through the pain
To the ends of this earth
So I can lay in peace
Holding hands

Five years went by in a cold wet
Summer
And
The sky bled a grey
A grey that leached through these
Veins

A stain left
Etched
Scratched
Borne
Carved on my heart

My look painted a story of many
Loves past
Before the dark of the grey
When life was good

Such paleness gave it all away
Lines said so much amongst the quiet
As the voices in my head played their
Song
Inside was warm

No sun to seek in clouds of steel
No flight to run
My autumn was ready and so was I
The colour of the new world was
waiting for my heart
To heal
But you were gone
Lost
Forever blue

My maddening whisper shall be heard
For I am the King
And the King am I
For the glory of power is all mine
And you must not deny my honour

Like the daily sun that blinds you
Then so shall I
For you are my children
You are my sheep
I am your Shepherd and so
I shall do reap
Reap as I sow
On the harvest of my mind
I beat you
Scorn you
Own you
As it is written I am your leader
I am your King

Such words can sound so hollow
Yet do we not follow our
Kings and Queens
Who are they to say they own us
Are we not of the same flesh and
blood
Do we not breath the same air
My cry
My sorrow
My despair

I was not born to follow into the path
On this bee led life
I was born to reach out
To love
To cry
I was born to live
To fight the truth
To show the the world    
Yet ......!!!!

The king is inside you
As he is inside me  
You are your own king
You are your own destiny
Long live the King !!!!!
 Long live the King !!!!!

These bones feel like the very old
Was my thought of some rest
From this mind
In need of some time
Time for me and the all of my

This mind is creaking sad
The shell is broken
My inner all seen crazed
In need of a dream
That saves me

Saves me from the down
Saves me from my heart
Saves me from the darker side
Save me please
Saved from my soul

A look into the night as stars
Show me
Bright is the path as cool is the dark
Stretching for the up
Leave the old behind
And I run
Run faster than the lights that follow
For clarity comes true
The smile shines

My heart is blinded by the youth of
Your eternity
Only your rose tinted glasses to tend
My view
And your garden looks so glorious
How could I not taste your divine
Such is the sweetest nectar
I dare not look away

A tempest touch from your soul
Enters my veins
Breathen's my blood to a beat in a
Thunderous cloud  
Such senses confuse me
Embrace me
Frighten me into the thought's of the
she devils lair
My mind is sacrificed for just a
Glimmer of your most wondrous
Love
Will you love me
As I love you
Will you hold me
As I wish you
Will you care me
Wash me down so that I can be your
Paradise found
Forever and ever in this garden
Our Eden

I knew my life was different
I knew my life was odd
In time I thought I'd join them
Be part ,you know
The club

But many years have passed
My brow
And still I'm on the edge
No word for my acceptance
No nod I'm in the mix
I'm still the one that they ignore
I drinks a lonely drink

The mirror says its not your fault
No help the way you are
A loss for them be lost in them
They don't know
Your the score

My chair remains my only fit
This cat my only chum
These wall my home
That echo flat
My silence rage the din

I made a club that I could join
A time where life looked fine
The only issue I could find
This place is in my head
It's in my head
Just in my head
My head
It's in my head .......

How could I not hold your hand
As we danced onto grass still moist
From the early sun
Flowing like the rain as it patters onto the
Green leaves of the old oak tree
The blackbirds song so sweet in our minds
As we kissed

We kissed with a passion like
New lovers in the old fashioned way
Seeking to search the way to ones heart
Our day to remember
Our love to grow strong
A desire of affection that turns into this
Our blossom of life

And there we lay cold wet warm
In love
No care for the world of anger
Just the look of love that comes
When two souls become
In love