The day he left for Rome I cried
I wouldn't see him for 35 long days
To get some air I went outside
The fresh mowed grass reminded me of his beard
The sunset reminded me of his hair
Tears fell of my face when mum asked are you alright
I watched movies on youtube late into the night
1. Today I slept a lot
I felt mad when I woke up and saw that he'd texted me while I was asleep
And sad
I think his perfume is making me sneeze
He gave me his jumper to cuddle while he's away
2. Today I worked
Had plenty to do but it still felt weird
He texted at lunchtime
Said he missed me and loved me
I love him too
I think he might be the closest thing to perfection
I want to live with him forever
Tonight I worked
Had one too many assignments to do
3. Today I worked for 5 hours straight on my new business
My man texted me when he woke up and sent me a picture
Das my man
We texted for a bit
I think he's missing me as much as I miss him
He still wants to know what's going on
Procrastination tbh
I still have the oral presentation to write
And the slideshow
Uni *****
Never do it
Find yourself a man that will love you without a degree
Trust me
Sheesh I love him so much
Sposiamoci
4. Welp, day four and we fought
FML
So after crying a lot and questioning everything
I slept
**** uni
**** assignments
**** life
*** does he think he's doing
Saying that he loves me
Then hating on me
What's a good enough answer
To being told your life is going to be ****
And you wont get what you want
*** is the point of anything
If i dont get what I want
Call me selfish if you like. idgaf
Maybe I shouldn't be with anyone
****** if I do and ****** if i don't:
-Tell him what they say
-Ask for what I want
-Keep trying
Day 5
If anything or anyone is making my coat-tails flap
I think everyone knows who and what that is
We took a 'family' trip
Saw dolphins
And a blow hole
Things are so different now
I'm not in charge of anything
I'm not expected to be helpful
I suspect I 'should feel bad'
But it's less stress on me and that's great
I wanted to get a photo with grandma
Prolly be the last time I do anything with her
But no time seemed right
I forced myself to have a zest for life
Spent time with everyone
And really, it was beautiful
The way the sun sparkled off the waves
I hardly thought about what it would be like
To throw myself in
And sink
Day 6
Today was a day
High but low
Very animated
Singing, laughing, running, working hard and fast
Getting a lot done
But teetering on the brink
Having to savagely tear myself back
After the email from mum
She got the job!!
I'm glad
(But no, it's not what I'll be ever doing)
And scared
Life's just rushing along like a torrent around me
I dont matter
Nothing I do really matters
It's good
But what if I get left behind
With nowhere to go
What if I drown
Alone
While everyone else is
Head long
Full pelt
Going places
Young men in a hurry
But good things did happen
Felt like they did at least
Come to think of it...
The best thing was that Ross and Rocky saw me and said hello
It's ages since someone said hello to me
It's even longer since someone said hello to me that I didnt want to punch in the face
So yeah
Boyfriendless Fridays ****
Day 7
Today I slept in really late
I'm feeling good
Recorded my oral presentation
It's 12 minutes when I read slowly
So I've cut some words
I'm a *******
Gosh I'm grateful for people that help me
This assignment *****
xoxo