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Oct 2014 · 565
Dear, Chyeanne.
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
Chyeanne called me last night.
She told me that she wanted to be home,
and I could feel the longing
instilled with every word
her weary voice spoke.

But I don't know if I can leave them, Chyeanne.
I just don't think that they'll understand.
And although I love the way the sunset looks in your eyes,
we will always be
distant lovers
for what could
have been.
There's a lot of heart in this.
Chyeanne, Wyoming.
Oct 2014 · 784
A Birthday Poem
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
I can't give you
the world, the
stars, nor grant
all of your wishes.
But I can give you
my word when I say,
           my life is better
           knowing that you
           are a part of it.
I wanted it to be subtle and sweet.
Enjoy, and Happy Birthday, again, Jenna Nold!
Oct 2014 · 627
Come with me,
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
and together,
we will breathe life
into the possibility
of tomorrow.
     And the sweetest dream
of waking by your side
could finally be something
that happened
yesterday.
This is one of my first hand-written pieces, and one of my new personal favorites. Enjoy.
Oct 2014 · 1.5k
Anyways.
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
Things can't always be the
way we want them too,
and I'm trying to fall
in love with this idea
that no matter what
I end up doing with my life,

it wouldn't have
really mattered anyways.
I say this with positivity.
Oct 2014 · 732
Flashback Friday?
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
I caught up with an old friend tonight.
And after a couple of laughs (and a decent amount of heart-breaking memories) I found myself left with this question:
"Is this life only about giving and taking? Can this really be the only thing that keeps our stone-hearts beating?"
And then it hit me, like a lighting-rod in the midsts of an electrical storm;
This life is about accepting and understanding that not everything will be golden on this yellow-brick road that we call life.
And in despite of it all,
you will be okay.
Wrote this shortly after it happened.
It's more of an extended thought than anything. :b
I reused a few lines from some of my earliest pieces to coincide with the idea that I "caught up with the past" a little bit.
Oct 2014 · 643
Any Day.
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
I woke up this-morning
feeling like I didn't
belong here.

And it took
every ounce of me
to convince myself
that I should stay...

Getting
out of bed
shouldn't be the
hardest part
of any day.
Couldn't seem to smile this morning.
I'm okay now though!
Oct 2014 · 547
If only.
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
I thought about you
thinking about me,
and then I simply accepted
that it was all just a dream.
****.
Oct 2014 · 967
Envy.
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
Some people want
nothing to do with you
until your success
becomes something
that they **envy
Don't let those people fool you.
Oct 2014 · 505
This path to hell.
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
There is a ton of beauty
and innocence in this world,
and I'd like to believe that
most of it
lies within your eyes.
I understand that I'm no saint,
and that there has
(and always will be)
consequences for my actions.

This path to hell
was most certainly paved with
my best-intentions.
My heart is heavy and
my mind is worn.
Oct 2014 · 1.0k
You (III)
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
You're full of dreams,
     and all of
        the sweetness
           in this beautiful world.
My first "trilogy."
Enjoy.
Oct 2014 · 1.0k
Lonely:Alone
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
I didn't want to be lonely;
I just wanted to be alone.
And I know that sometimes
silence can be your best-friend,
but I needed something
so much more than that.
Now I'm stricken with this
resentment;
this unsettling feeling that my
attempts at isolation have been
nothing but selfish-acts of
pitiful-shame.
I need someone now
more than ever,
but I can't seem to admit
my need.
For you late-nite readers.
Oct 2014 · 1.6k
I kissed you in the rain,
Andrew Durst Oct 2014
and somewhere
in-between
forgiveness and
forgetting,
you took a part of
me by surprise.

And I could have never
imagined that I would be
falling in love with you tonight.
Here's some fiction for this rainy day. Enjoy.
Sep 2014 · 1.3k
Today.
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
That temporary smile;
           that temporary pain.

I've been so stressed about tomorrow,
            that I forgot to live today.
Be easy.
Sep 2014 · 874
Give and Take
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
And I know I'm not alone whenever I feel chills rush up my arms
and down my spine.
And I know that all of this time I've
spent by myself will not go unnoticed or in vein.
I used to believe that the burdens we carry and all of the things we have lost were just part of some elaborate game of give and take.
                    But I see now,
          and I believe now;
we are not the mistakes that
we made yesterday.
LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU TRY TO SAVE THE WORLD.
Sep 2014 · 1.6k
You (II)
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
I smile whenever you smile
and feel the clenching
pain in my chest
whenever you feel low.
                 But you are not a burden.
    Love cannot be true
    without every ounce of
    you.
And just as beautiful as you are;
the scars on your heart
will not go in vein.
You are loved.
Sep 2014 · 2.3k
Silence;
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
it can either be
the greatest gift
or the most
painful response.
I haven't been writing short poems lately. Feels good to get this one out.
Sep 2014 · 1.3k
Remember;
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
yesterday's pain
could be tomorrow's
grace.

You just have to
wake up and find-out
for yourself.
Keep pushing.
Sep 2014 · 941
How Ridiculous Is That?
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
For the past couple of months, I have been staying-up way too late and have been sleeping-in way too much.
      My days have been consistent of waking up just to wish that I could go back to bed.
          How ridiculous is that?

At one point in time,
I could've sworn that things would be different right now...

But not too much has changed...

       Just my attitude.
           And the long list of failure's that continues to grow.
This is personal.
Sep 2014 · 5.1k
Love yourself.
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
We are all
just lifetimes
searching for
       infinities.
     And the broken
    parts or who
we were
      should never
          be excluded
   from the beauty
of what we
are.
     -Andrew Durst
Sep 2014 · 1.4k
State-of-Mind.
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
I've come to accept that all of my worries about tomorrow and how I'll be remembered yesterday
has manifested itself into something far greater than stress.
And I know living with this
            state-of-mind
can only make every situation worse instead of ever getting better.
But right now,
       in this moment,
                     I am okay.

And that is good
enough for me.
I absolutely NEEDED to get this out.
Sep 2014 · 570
Is it justified?
Andrew Durst Sep 2014
In the midst of my confusion-
             I find peace,
Even though I haven't slept in weeks.  
              -is it justified?
I'm always asking questions like
           "how?" or "why?"
Because believing in something
      is just too **** hard to try.
             Can I compromise?
Please, can I compromise?
                Is it true that we only ever
              practice what we preach?
         And that everything in life
is simply based on our beliefs?
         Is this all a dream?
                 Is this all a dream?
Aug 2014 · 1.1k
Letters.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
I wanted to thank you
for being everything
to me whenever
I had nothing to
call my own.

You didn't just
get me out of a "rut."

You saved me
from the empty,
soulless shell in which
I was about to
become.
This is for the people that have helped me and have had my back. I will always be there for you all as well.
Aug 2014 · 1.3k
Holding back.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
Only the
past is set
in stone,
my friend.

You don't have
to continue
being the
person you
were
yesterday.
Aug 2014 · 728
Writers block.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
I feel
something.
   It's kind
        of
          like,
   desire.

But I just
     don't have a
          spark,
to save this
     wildfire.
I haven't written anything new in almost a week. I've been having difficulty formulating my 'emotions' into words. Feeling low without writing.
Aug 2014 · 651
The Difference.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
"Not giving a ****"
and "acceptance"
are two entirely
different things.

        One lets you
   walk away,
           and the other
        lets you sleep
   with yourself at night.

   Don't mistaken the two for
          being the same.
Sorry for the language.
I felt like it helped prove the point.
Aug 2014 · 592
Awful.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
Maybe I should
shoot you,
          and maybe you should
    shoot me.
But in the end,
      it really won't change
                         a thing;
          you're just
an awful
         human being.
This was a completely random idea. I do not have a problem with anyone!
Aug 2014 · 1.0k
You.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
For a moment,
        I'm right
            where
               I want
          to be.
      And I have everything
           I could ever
                  need.
8/9/14
Aug 2014 · 658
Issues.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
Last night,
in a moment where I was lost somewhere between doubt and honesty, I found myself left asking only more questions;
       Left with more answers that
    I don't have "right now."

This moment revealed something to me, as well as made me think of many other people in my life.

We are all just kids with
commitment issues that are
trying to make everything
"okay."
But God is good.
Aug 2014 · 594
Head & Heart.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
This heart is no longer
a home. And my head
is no longer a bearing
place for your dreams.
8/10/14
Aug 2014 · 1.6k
Lately,
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
I've been trying
to convince
myself that I
don't
need anyone
at all.

Just sleep,

and long
intervals
of insanity.
Proud of this one. Been trying to formulate this into words for a while now. Happy with the simplicity.
Aug 2014 · 1.7k
Expectation.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
He longed for
something surreal...
But she spited
him with reality.
Aug 2014 · 568
Pieces.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
We are not broken.
So why has this life
constantly been about
"Picking up the pieces."?
Aug 2014 · 614
8/9/14
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
You looked me
         in the eyes
before you
     said your
         good-byes,
                           and I could've
                   sworn I felt
           our hearts
stop beating.
...
Aug 2014 · 849
Tossing & Turning (II)
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
I feel empty...
And there's this numbness in
my chest that has been
keeping me awake
late at night whenever
I try to sleep.

        I feel as if
  everything
I believed in has
    turned on me,
    all at once.
Aug 2014 · 878
Vibrations.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
Lately my thoughts
have been reduced
to suicide and intoxication.
      Lying in bed at night
   looking for any kind
  of good-vibration.
Obviously I've been nothing
      but ****-out-of-luck.
Because every morning
         that I wake-
    I feel like nobody gives
           a ****.
Sorry for the language.
Just frustrated.
Aug 2014 · 546
Eighteen.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
Is it the
time for
priorities?
or is it
the time for
simple
things?

(14w)
Aug 2014 · 1.0k
Hooked.
Andrew Durst Aug 2014
The way you
  walked was
    vivacious,
and the way
   you spoke
was taunting.

       When you walked into
       the room my eyes became
                     hooked...
           and the fixation
      continues to
manifest.
Jul 2014 · 871
Strong.
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
the only word
  that comes to mind
      when trying
           to describe my
          father is
              strong.

So it shook
   me up a bit
to see him
in a hospital
             bed.
My father is doing well! Thank you to all who reached out. You know who you are<3
Jul 2014 · 1.1k
The Burden (II)
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
Some day
I'm going to
wake up
with a smile
on my face
and this burden
of your
beauty
will no longer
be weighing
down on my chest.

But today
is not that
day.
Jul 2014 · 1.5k
Worried (10w)
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
I'm not
used
to being
worried,

let alone
worried
          *sick.
Jul 2014 · 501
I will wait.
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
and I will
bare every
burden
that it brings
me.

Why?

Because you
are worth
it.
Jul 2014 · 497
Be yourself.
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
and you
will be
loved
by the ones
who matter.

Why change
for the ones
who
don't?
Jul 2014 · 390
I Love.
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
I'm sure you
were expecting
something after
"love."

But It doesn't
always work
that
way.

(15w)
I think this is pretty clever and I am proud of myself. HA!
Jul 2014 · 872
Faithless||Faithful.
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
What do you do when your
faith has been shattered?
When the very words that you have been dreading to hear have finally
been spoken?

What do you do when the
answers to your
questions
leave you more broken
and disassembled
than ever before?

I don't know...
and I cannot fight these tears
in my eyes any longer.
Inspired by a movie I watched tonight
Titled "heaven is for real."
Jul 2014 · 938
18 (1 year on HP!)
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
I never knew
       this day would come
    as fast as it did.

                 I always thought
              that I would just
               stay young
                       forever.

Because
         honestly,

      being young
is the only
           thing I'm
      good at.
It's my birthday today c:
Today also marks ONE YEAR that I've joined this site and I would like to personally thank all of you for your support over this past year.
I would like to also give a huge amount of love to those of you that reach out to me on a regular basis, message me, or just make sure that I'm okay.
It means so much knowing that I have people looking out for me even when I least expect it.
You guys keep me leveled and strong, and I don't know where I'd be in my life today without THE COMMUNITY OF HELLO POETRY!<3
Jul 2014 · 636
Hiding. (15w)
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
An open
ear
that can't
be seen
will hear
all the
truths that
lie beneath.
It's amazing what people will say about you whenever they don't know you're in the room.
Jul 2014 · 690
Life (and Love)
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
How low is low when you're already being kicked while you're down?
And how high is high when your feet refuse to leave the ground?

How do I get to the destination
of weary dreamers and broken hearts?
How do I finish this game of life (and love) when I don't know where to start?

Maybe one day I'll be able
to think things through.

But nothing will feel as close
to the way that I loved you.
Wrote this for a friend of a friend.
Jul 2014 · 1.3k
Fed-up.
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
I'm sick
of constantly
being on the
back-burner.

I am not someone
you can just use.
I am not,
and never will be,
"the second best."

Give me your all
or give me
nothing.
Jul 2014 · 472
Philosophy (III)
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
It's nice to see that
there are still people
in this world
that continue to do
good deeds on
a daily basis-
without their intentions
being of praise and glorification.

Good deeds should be done
because its RIGHT.
Not because
you might
get some sort
of "prize"
out of it.
Jul 2014 · 672
Go ahead;
Andrew Durst Jul 2014
take my kindness
and throw it
back in my face.

Go ahead;
walk all over
me and use
me as you may.

Go ahead...
do exactly
what everyone
else does-

I'll remember
*all of it
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