inside of me
there lives a quiet secret
it could hold the promise of joy
the love of live, it could be my future
but that secret is behind a fortress
which i will not breach
it is wrapped up tight with reasons
which tell me why i should'nt reach
for my  open, honest, life filled soul
which im scared my secret could easily teach
me the answer of who am i beneath all my roles.

i keep a song in my pocket
and a smile in my eyes
and i fight every week
just to stay alive
I run. and i run.
to catch my breath.
to feel my heart like a bird in my chest.
i need fresh air!
to keep me alive.
i plan to live! not just to survive.
i need to sing,
the melody i hear
falling through my thoughts
like tears
and i feel, and i breathe
and i live, and i sing
and i will enjoy
every hour
of this fragile life i lead.

she said this, he said that
tie my hands be hind my back
because  he asks, is he wrong?
and she, she asks what's his song?  
are they friends?
not for long.
neither speaking
but they know
cause' my little lips keep leaking.
i had never joined a side
and now im just reciting lines.
furthering the flames
heightening the blows
maybe best they speak alone
former friend to foe.

meddle meddle meddle worm
had crawled beneath the skin
of a big red juicy apple
to see if it was sick.
that reckless worm dug some more
it warmed itself and wormed itself
into the apples core
and there it saw the rotten seeds
and all the dying spores
and turned and thought
"oh, what a big mess!'
but as it squirmed towards the sky
it opened up its eyes,
and the meddle meddle meddle worm
saw her rotten trail,
and to her big surprise,
she finally realized
that she had been the cause
of that apples slow demise.

sitting straight up
with my silent throat aching
a beat wracks my body
my soul is waking.

at the base of my spine
in the pit of my stomach
my soul wishes of its own mind
to stretch out of my body
and go out of control

music aches in my throat
my body spasms
to my hearts metronome
i need let out my soul.

it bangs around my body
which is its cage
then out bursts a joyous whisper
and i sing, unafraid

so i lost my mind today.
in a simple sweep,
like the wind.
i forgot my lies today.

they emptied out of their host.
all of my sad sayings,
my rotten words,
they finally ate through..

their clutches tore right through my skin
They broke me till they could no longer hold
and i was left
in this mess
surrounded
by my bruised up soul.

i've ripped and torn my knees for you,
and pulled down all these stars
i've sung until the day was through
and ive fought so many wars

i have clung to your smile
and ive  grabbed for your hand
ive hoped i was good enough
though it felt like grasping sand

you enjoyed my effort
for a day or two
but i clung to harshly
and soon
we were through