You haven't felt this feeling
You wouldn't know

His hands; You haven't held
His lips; You haven't kissed

You haven't been on his high
You haven't been through his lows

For him; You haven't cried
You have not felt those fears

You don't miss the laughs
You don't know the excitement

You have not felt the pain
His eyes full of longing tears

His skin; Never on you
His heart; No ache for you

Your heartbeat does not speed
Not for him

When he is gone
You have nothing to go through

So why do you act that way
Like you know

Don't tell me how I feel
You have not been there

You are not aware
Why do you put on this show

He is my everything
Forever just us

Let us be
You wouldn't last

I love him and he loves me
Therefore you do not know

And that you can trust

my past  is a blur
but of very clear scenes

something I will never forget
someone I'll never be

lies and excuses
came from my mouth

you may think you understand
but you don't know what my life was about

quietly walking
sliding the door open so slow

climbing the fences
my rebellious side began to show

hopped in a car
a prized one at that

black interior
leather seats is where I sat

sometimes on him
or maybe someone other

I laid myself across
never thinking of my mother

she was sick
she was dying

I was begging for attention at night
I spent over a year trying

drug deals I watched
bottles I drank

I was aboard a scary ship
one that was bound to be sank

drinking so much
the taste was good on my tongue

although so was his mouth
alcohol created so much fun

alcoholic, sexaholic
both very strong words

I fell within both
it was quite absurd

knifes and fights
stitches and blood

crawling through tight spaces
ruining clothes with mud

cops were the enemy
from them I always ran

afraid of my own self
welcoming any man

I started to get help
from close ones to me

they helped me out
they made me believe

throughout all of this
I am proud to say

i'm happy for my past
I wouldn't be who I am today

strong-willed, and responsible
upon my shoulders, a good head

always sticking to my word
never forgetting the promises I said

happy and calm
no longer someone wild

I have grown into a woman
not anymore am I a child

this may scare you
hearing about my past

but this was only a summary
the real thing doesn't go by so fast

I keep most of it secret
only myself will ever know

now happy and go lucky
i'll stick with this new flow

why hello there, who are you?
why wear a mask, why not be true?
do not question me, for this will make it hard
I am here doing a deed, don't play a guilty card
a guilty card, sir what ever do you mean?
are you here for a reason, are you here to hurt me?
I repeat, no questions. tis not fair
neither are those pretty eyes and long gorgeous hair
why thank you kind sir, it really means a lot
but really why are you here, and why do you hold that knot?
this is not a knot, this is a rope
its the only way out, the only way to cope
I was sent on a mission, to find a little girl
one with pretty eyes and long hair, one that lives in a whirl
so come to me, I will make it all better
slip this rope around your neck, and i'll lift you like a feather
excuse me sir but I don't understand
you came to get me, that was your plan
I do live in a whirl but I am strong
so that rope is not good, that rope is wrong
you come here, and let me hug you
take off the mask, please be true
you foolish child, don't you see
i'm no good, that's why the death lives in me
it is okay, I promise you this
don't live in death, because life is something you cannot miss
you make me feel different about what I do
did you do this on purpose? how can I trust you?
I may be young, but I am quite smart
come with me, we'll never be apart
okay I will live only for you
*I will remove my mask, I will be true