In the early morning hours,
She's tucked in.
Wide awake and dreaming,
Of some place she hasn't been.

In the early morning hours,
She'll count sheep.
Too many thoughts and people,
To distract her from her sleep.

In the early morning hours,
She will sigh.
Questioning existence,
And the never ending 'why.'

And we all just wanna grow up.
And we all just wanna act tough.
Because we think that if we grow,
Our problems will soon go,
But little did we know,
Little did we know.

And sometimes in this crazy maze of life we get misplaced,
and we lose ourselves.

Everyone grows up wanting to be somewhere they're not.
Anywhere but here.
In this town, those who stick around are the ones who succeeded, the ones who gave up, and the ones who never tried.

What a *****.

Physically,
She sits in front of you in math.
She's right in front of you,
In this tired town,
Wishing she wasn't.

Mentally,
She's dreaming.
Fantasying of the places she'd rather be.

Some nights I lie awake,
Wondering about the future.
The late night slips into early hours of the morning,
And I'm still undecided about everything.

Whenever it was painful,
Whenever I was away,
I'd miss you,
And I miss you.

How did I let you go?
Did you regret 'us' when you left?
Did you watch me as I broke?
Did you look back as you walked away?

All she wants to do is show them.
That's all.
She hides deep beneath a mask,
But she's going to show them.
She's going to have a reason to stand a little taller,
Stay a little longer,
Smile a little wider.
She's going to show them,
Show them what she can't put into words.

I always like to think that having a boyfriend would make my life better. That all of a sudden, there would be someone to help me through the tough parts of my life...
But in reality, it'd be so much worse because I don't have time for myself, let alone someone else.

If I died tomorrow,
I'd want my ashes to be spread around the world.
Even though I'm not there,
I could visit the places I wanted to go.

5 o'clock in the morning,
We're half asleep on the floor.
A conversation that makes no sense,
But to me it might mean more.

She accepts the love she thinks she deserves,
I'll sit down and wait because I'm not really sure.

And once again,
It's two AM.
And she's awake,
Writing about him.
She can't explain in words,
Those feeling that occur,
When his face drifts in her head,
So she sings about it instead.

When he says hello,
Her thoughts just melt like snow.
And when he walks her way,
She forgets just what to say.

And once again, my friend,
I'm up at two AM.
I sit here all alone,
My thoughts shift into poems.

He'll  hate me if I do,
I'll hate me if I don't.
I am only one person,
Just doing what she won't.

In the dark,
In the backyard,
Right before you go away.
Just once.
4 simple seconds.

I'm sorry that I'm not the perfect daughter you had hoped for.
I'm sorry that my grades aren't all A's.
I'm sorry that I look like I'm about to laugh right before I cry,
And I'm sorry that after being your daughter for my whole entire life, you still haven't realized that.
I'm sorry that I have friends.
I'm sorry that I spend so much time on my computer.
I'm sorry that I listen to music and I'm sorry that I write poetry.
I'm sorry that I stay up so late.
I'm sorry that we have different priorities.
I'm sorry that I wrote this,
And I'm sorry I'm not perfect.

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love
Great clouds roll over the hills
Bringing darkness from above

And I'd love to take you,
And care for you,
And fix you.

But that's a waste of time,
And not my job.

I am like the inner core,
*too much pressure to melt.

And I don't think
I'll ever
fully
understand
how
some girls
can just
throw

it
all





away.

Broken glass heart,
Shatters on the pavement,
Because the ones we love,
Aren't as perfect as they seem.

If I were not human, I'd want to be a mountain.
Strong and wise,
Unchanged.
Tall.
Only those who work hard would make it to the top.
But if I weren't a mountain,
Or a human,
I'd want to be the ocean.
Wonderful and intriguing,
Lovely and dangerous.
I could be full of life as I gracefully swallow others whole.
But if I were not the ocean,
A mountain,
Or human,
I'd be a beach.
Even if you don't live near me,
Somehow my sand will still end up all over your house.
But I'm not a mountain,
An ocean,
Or a beach.
I'm slightly confused,
Lost on this mountain,
Sinking in this ocean,
And waking up amidst the sand.

There are so many things that I wish I could say,
And I don't know how,
But I know that I must.

My ears are constantly ringing.
It's my mind,
Trying to match a sound to this awful silence.

Nobody won;
We all lost.
But who cares.
Game Over

I get it.
You're upset and just want someone to talk to.
I'll be that person,
But don't mistake me for a backup plan.

I've always felt like I'm rushing to go nowhere.

I wish that I could find a way,
To tell you what I mean to say.
I wish that I could hit replay.
I wish that I could fly away.

Take me back,
To that one night,
Where we laughed around the fire,
And the stars were bright.
For a split second,
It felt so right.
Before you left the country,
Before the plane took flight.

The sunlight hits him,
Making his dark eyes a warm shade of brown.
His hair's a mess,
Mine is worse.
I don't care.

Because for a split second,
Nothing else matters.

And maybe deep down you feel it too.
Maybe you're just too afraid to say.

Maybe you just want to be friends,
And I'm fine with that.

You've got a beautiful smile.
I love it when you smile,
And when I'm the one who caused it.

And there she goes.
When will I learn?
Another nice guy,
Who she doesn't deserve.

Once again,
Why am I wrong?
But knowing her,
This won't last long.

And we're just 4 friends,
Running around like a bunch of 10 year olds,
Growing up in the 90s.

He's 99 days away.
2397 hours.
So close.

She's clueless.
Clueless and empty.
I know it,
She knows it,
We all know it.


*Why doesn't he?

Crowded basement,
Come as strangers,
Leaving as new found friends.

She looks at his picture.
"Someday," she whispers.

He looks out into the crowd.
"Someday," he whispers.

He's out there,
And he's amazing.

And she sat in her bedroom,
And thought about him,
And wrote this poem.

He's thousands of miles away,
Across the ocean.

The planets are light years away from each other.

We make up a tiny little piece of our galaxy,
Which floats amongst many in this vast universe.

And suddenly,
The distance isn't so far.

Call it what you want,
But I wouldn't consider us as 'friends.'

Some problems
are untouchable.

With good intentions,
You mess with it,
And it gets increasingly worse.

You try and try to save it,
but only end up in
a downwards spiral
of insanity.

Somethings are better left alone.

The hardest part of letting go
is knowing that all you can do is watch.
Watch all of your work,
Disappear.
Watch him walk away.

We were inseparable.
We were one and the same.
But we weren't careful.
So who should we blame?

And we wake up,
Saying 'It will work out.' 'Somehow,' 'Surly!'
At the end of the day,
We both know this isn't working.

We're drifting apart.
We bring out the worst in each other.
We know it's not smart,
To be around each other.
It's dangerous,
It's war.
But I know,
For sure.
We're drifting,
Apart.

I don't know what it is,
But suddenly, everything's moving too fast,
And I can't keep up.

February,
The hardest month,
Approaches a close.

Did I tell anyone?
Yes.
Did they care?
No.

For some strange reason,
I always feel like everything would be better,
If you were still here.

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above are sizzling like a snare
Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore

I'd go out of this world for you.
I'd chase you through the stars.
Though they seem so very close,
They really are quite far.

I'd walk with you through galaxies.
Through lands we've never seen.
Places where the grass is blue,
And where the sky is green.

We'd roam around the universe.
'Together,' we would pledge.
Anything for you, my dear,
I'd follow passed the edge.

Trillions of miles away,
There are millions of other galaxies,
Billions of planets.

I like this...
Makes my problems seem extremely small.