you're lovely.
sweet
but there's an acidic quality about you,
one that stings
reminding of every scrape and cut.
but me,
I'm resilient.

i might fall flat out on the pavement
or i might fall head over heels in love with the idea of love

but i've so much to learn
and so much to feel

and i'm both eager and terrified

i fluctuate along the boundary of complete control and utter chaos
equations and imagination
the reality opposed to the uncharted territory in my mind

i walk the woods behind my house
and though you no longer walk them with me,
i feel you there.
and though half of our memories are gone,
replaced with a daycare center and a parking lot,
they still exist in my mind.
and in my subconscious,
you're still here.

filler is the contents of the words i say
just so i can be close to you
sometimes they're empty compliments
or observations
and you'll always reply in the same way
with filler
because i guess we're not close enough for a real conversation

Memories of the trails on the backs our hands.
Growing each day,
Digging in sand.
Skin on skin and the nights I can't forget.
It's good to be young.
Too young to regret.

I miss the days where nothing mattered at all,
And now all I can think about
Is how I could fall.
I miss the days where I could talk to the trees
And imagine the world
As if they'd talk back to me

I'd like to say it's all complex,
But I know that it's just me.
I just want to fade out.
But I can't bring myself to leave.
I'd like to sleep for my whole life,
But it won't go away.
So **** indecisive
Can't bring myself to stay.