Monsters have to receive an invitation
Before coming inside
That's what I read in stories
But I never let you in my mind
You didn't come all at once
You came like a thief in the night
But you waited patiently
To start shutting off the lights
You manifested yourself
In comments my mother made
In that sinking feeling I felt
That cut me like a blade
Now that I think of it
You were always there
Reminding me of nights I cried
idontcareidontcareidontcare
You broke the rules
I never gave you an offering
But you didn't care
And now I'm housing all this suffering
I can't think straight
And all my walls are crumbling
It's permeable
And the rain keeps pouring
This sorrow is going to drown me
And I think I might just let it
In a place I can only hear my heart beating
Where I can't take any more hits
It's a truth I can no longer deny
As I'm swimming in this sea
I do not have depression
Depression has me

It is far easier to love someone all alone than to try to get them to receive it.
It is also much less fulfilling.
I try never to rest, never to retreat into myself
And let the love become more important than the giving of it to the person it's for,
But... I understand people who worship at churches.
They are not always worshiping God.
They are simply loving in the safest way possible.
They are writing love letters
On their pressed palms
To someone who can never, ever read them,
And what a relief it must be to know that.
What a comfort it must be to give love to an idea,
And so never have it handed back to you,
Unused, unwanted,
Like an unopened love letter with the postage still stuck on the envelope.

You are a star
Shining in the night sky
There's a burning in your chest
A supernova bursting behind your eyes
Full of life, full of love
I can't help but stop and stare
You help me find my way home
By just being there
You're the kind of beautiful
That makes me want to cry
All of the stars could make constellations
And you'd be brighter than them all combined
I am but a speck
Staring at you from below
But I feel a sense of hope
When I see you glow
You'll look down from up above
The whole earth as your view
You'll never know a tiny speck cries
Because I know I'll never be good enough for you