Amanda Shelton

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

I would give you 0* if it was
possible.

This isn't a game it's a
advertisement for your wallet.

There's no rewards.

Everything is about advertisment
and we get stuff.

Playing the game doesn't reward
it's another ad break
even after watching an ad
for double the rewards.

Still no rewards just next level
after watching another ad.

Ad, ad, ad, ad, ad and
I lost my sanity after
the third ad.

Ad me on the no more
I'm uninstalling this
sanity theft it's another ad!

Awwwwwwwww!
Please spare my sanity.

Now I am hallucinating ad's
I dream about ad's,
I eat ad's,
I drink ad's.

Ad's ad's ad's!

Now I am writing a poem about ad's.

Thanks Google!

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

Tourette Syndrome

Boom pop woh yeah, meow buddy
just like that twitch to the left
now **** to the right. Real quick!

Like a robot doing the twitch
and a pop with strings,
tug on that.

Tourettes got me twitching,
hiccuping and meowing.

Muscles cramping and joints
are grinding, creaking and
popping, like microwave popcorn.

2 minutes to go!

Anxiety's on a roll,
the embarrassment is a monster
stabbing me in the back.

I don't even know who I am waving at.

Why am I doing that dance
in the middle of nowhere?

Did I see a cat?

Do I have the hiccups?

Nope it's tourettes!

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton

Tourette syndrome is horrible. I have it and anxiety makes it worse. If I get embarrassed I have a full blown tourette attack. People staring, people whispering, people making too much noise can cause me a tourette attack. Just walking into a building can cause me anxiety because I am always worried people will be there and they will notice I am different and stare at me. I've had people come up to me in public because I look different and act different. They don't understand I have a movement disorder and they are making it worse by making me the center of attention. If you see someone who looks different or acts different please don't stare don't engage them, live your life and let them live their lives too. You might make it harder for them if you engage them. Unless they engage you please move on. Tourette syndrome is effected by a person's emotions and the environment. We all are part of the environment so the best way you can help us is to be aware of the situation and be respectful. Thank you. ❤️

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

Red Bull

Red bull gives you a heartache
and then gives you wing's.

That's a bull in a shop with
an angel and beautiful antique's.

Toro toro!

Did I crush your dreams?

Nope the Red bull did it with
his horns and the devil
danced in gay delight in
the background, while you see
the light and crashing antiques.

All them dollars go down in a pile
of crushed dreams.

Instead of birdies flying in circles
above your head it's bulls being
chased by angels saying, toro toro!

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton

Red bull kills our dreams with it's caffeine overdose and too much over processed junk. It's a heartache in a can pretending to be a red bull that gives you wing's. Makes me wonder if the company is aware of the health risks. Why would they claim it grows you wing's if they don't understand the health risks? That hipper feeling is your dreams dieing they go weeee! Bye your heart goes pop! Bye! Should have had a water instead.

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

Shadowed Dreams

Inside my mind I live
in a dimly lit room
full of lost dreams.

I am the only shadow
but my dreams follow.

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton

This is my depression.

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

Growing Poetry

Upon this plot I plant my roots,
row by row I built my garden.

I grew my thoughts like seeds
with love and care I hydrate
and feed my poetic flowers
for everyone to read.

Emotional and deep my expressions
seep deeply into this digital ground,
my roots grew strong and deep
in this plot I’ve reaped.

I am growing poetry, like ****’s
grow wild.

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton

Thank you for the support and views. I wish you all well. ❤️

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

Survivor

Let me help you step through
the looking glass so you can
see what's on the other side
of me.

I am a survivor!
I will not be silent any longer.

This is me pounding on the post
yelling at my ghost.

Leave me alone, why don't you take
what you came for?

Why don't you leave me and take
everything so I can start over?

I don't need this abuse,
you have nothing but excuses.

I am not the failure, you are the
damages that follow my every step.

I am a survivor! PTSD is my struggle.

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton

Amanda Shelton Feb 2023

Victim

Until it happens to you
you won't know it won't be real.

Just listen and see the truth,
no victim is invisible unless
you turn away and say nothing.

Don't blame the victim,
some weren't even conscious.

When they say no that means
go don't stay and push the
button.

Bruises are not always on
the skin, the scar's are not
always visible they grow
from within.

Sometimes I am screaming inside
reliving my damaged life
over and over again.

Don't blame the victim,
some weren't even conscious.

I was dead inside bruised and
beaten emotionally damaged.

For seven years I fought
until I was exhausted
and done, I felt unwanted
and scared.

The paranoia is still here,
it's always lurking in the dark.

A noise or touch can make me jump.

The constant reminder he's been here,
lurking in the dark ready to pounce.

His perfumed memory turned into a
monster that kidnaps me in my sleep.

His corrections and accusations
cut me deep.

Leaving emotional lashes on
my heart and self esteem
its raw and painful,
making it hard to sleep.

Don't blame the victim,
some weren't even conscious.

©️ 2023 By Amanda Shelton