I'm starting to question everything.

I can feel myself unraveling.

My mind takes me to a place,
Where I feel a giant space.

The more I think,
The further away I feel.

Am I just here to make you feel better?
Or are we in this together?

I'm scared

Terrified

I'm scared

To speak my mind

I'm scared

To be rejected

I'm scared

To be neglected

I'm scared

You'll leave me here

I'm scared

That you don't care.

The distance between us feels hard to break

Everytime you're not around
I want to isolate

The distance is getting further now
I can't reach you

I don't know how

You disappear from my life
You're the fog in the night

I'm scared for my life
You've got my heart on a rope
You tug and you tug and im starting to choke

Why am I tainted,
Broken,
Abused.

Why can't I shake this
Warped
Point of view.

Love is presented,
I don't know how to accept it.

I'm scared that I'll be left,
Neglected.

My walls are so high,
I can't see over.

I want to hide,
Or run,
Be over.

But your heart seems so kind,
Can I trust my own mind?

I want to let you in,
Bare it all,

But I don't know if the rush,
Will be worth the fall.

The best feeling in the world and the worst all at once.
I hate myself and you love me.
I love you but not how you deserve.
Two people in love.
And it's toxic.
Makes me sick.
But I'll never forget.
You.
All of you.
All of us.
You changed me.
You changed my life.
Heartbroken and hopeful.
I love you.

no calm inside me
bombs arise me
i long for peace
but it denies me