The distance between us feels hard to break

Everytime you're not around
I want to isolate

The distance is getting further now
I can't reach you

I don't know how

You disappear from my life
You're the fog in the night

I'm scared for my life
You've got my heart on a rope
You tug and you tug and im starting to choke

Why am I tainted,
Broken,
Abused.

Why can't I shake this
Warped
Point of view.

Love is presented,
I don't know how to accept it.

I'm scared that I'll be left,
Neglected.

My walls are so high,
I can't see over.

I want to hide,
Or run,
Be over.

But your heart seems so kind,
Can I trust my own mind?

I want to let you in,
Bare it all,

But I don't know if the rush,
Will be worth the fall.

The best feeling in the world and the worst all at once.
I hate myself and you love me.
I love you but not how you deserve.
Two people in love.
And it's toxic.
Makes me sick.
But I'll never forget.
You.
All of you.
All of us.
You changed me.
You changed my life.
Heartbroken and hopeful.
I love you.

no calm inside me
bombs arise me
i long for peace
but it denies me

when i see you im speechless
your eyes see through my soul
i dont wanna be useless
but when im with you im whole

why cant you understand what im saying
it makes me mad
and it's very aggravating

I feel so bad when i hurt your feelings
but why cant you understand

i was dealt these dealings

replace your fears with happiness
there is so much good here
don't dread what happens next

i look at everything positively now
you see it negatively
makes me question how

how am i supposed to feel
am i doing the right thing
am i making the wrong deal

ive made mistakes before
and i know the warning signs
that part of me is tore

I wont do anymore
I dont want that life again
please dont make life a chore

I know ive hurt you in the past
and your scared
all you can do is let this last