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Alyssa De Marzo Feb 2017
One day she stopped feeding me
I was 4
She was pregnant
Something so simple as eggs
But I NEVER fed myself first
I served her
Because I loved her

One day she threw plates at me
I came to see why she was crying
I was 6
She was bleeding
I wrapped her hands
Because I loved her

One day she punched my mouth
I asked why dad hadn't come home
I was 10
She was pale
I brought her a blanket
Because I loved her

One day I cried in anger
Because I knew she never cared
I was 17
She was dead
I became numb
Because I didn't know why
I still love her

It's easy to hurt someone that looks like you
Especially when you hate yourself
I still love you mom
Alyssa De Marzo Feb 2017
It's all lies
Don't you dare tell me different
I'm here asking you what's the matter
Yet you complaining no one will listen

When I ask you how you is
"I'm Ok"  isn't sufficient
I can see you deteriorating
Cut the **** be explicit

Tell me what words hurt you
And whose mouths caused the pain
I know you know they didn't mean it
But the burn will still remain

Was it your man that ain't your man
Or was it that girl who doesn't have to try
Don't keep telling me they mean nothing
I see the tears behind your eyes

It's okay to have feelings
I'm in them all the time
I feel heavy if I don't express em
Baby, why you think I rhyme

Tell me what it is girl
Tell me what it ain't
Tell me how you feel girl
'cause I know you ain't "ok"
Alyssa De Marzo Feb 2017
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One who is not admired by others
May not know what it means to be lonely
Loneliness is isolation of the mind

The mind

                

                                                                          *What a mess
Alyssa De Marzo Feb 2017
Your mind likes to wander
But the thought leaves you cold
You can feel your heart drop
And you remember every word you've been told
It pains you to think
But there is no off switch to your mind
Your bed is where your head only works in rewind

All of the above remains the same
In love
In hate
In pain
Alyssa De Marzo Feb 2017
She will fall in love

She fears the intensity

Walks away broken
Alyssa De Marzo Jan 2017
Fists can only clench so tight
And I hold every ounce of pain inside
Never know where I'll be sleeping the next night
Behind my smile depression knows he can hide

My knuckles bleeding out my heart
The pieces shattered all over the floor
Holding on to my broken home
Because I prepared myself to meet the door

My body moved by anger
My heart overwhelmed with fear
Pills never seemed so sweet
I convince myself I belong here

Inhale
Exhale
In then out
I plan life to go north
Then it all crumbles toward south

I've been feeling a lot like rain
Falling into love but in love with pain
I feel more than the average human
just enough to go insane.

Well too late because
I'm crazy
I'm ******
I'm gone
I'd say I live my life in silence
But on the contrary I'm a living song
Alyssa De Marzo Jan 2017
Constantly falling
      But always on my face
World keeps turning
      And I'm running in place
Stuck in this hell hole
      But I can help others out?
I end up back where I was
      Just every time, a different rout
Questions unanswered
      Lost state of mind
The untold truths
       The streets beautifully unkind
Sleepless nights dark and cold
      Long days fuelled by caffeine
While the rest of you be moving on
      I'll probably be stuck in 2016
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