Getting a message from the edge of the universe saying "come get me"
Accepting that that place is accelerating away from me faster than I can comprehend
Realizing that the journey may very well not be worth it

But I've been wrong before

I’m sending all the letters that I wrote to you.
Each on paper; plain, lined or scrap,
in pencil or pen with misspelled letters
and scratched out words.

A text would have been faster
a tweet would have been easier
but I can’t tell you I love you
in any less than 3 pages.

So I’ll take them to the post office
and send them out today
they’ll make it to you first
but I’ll be on my way.

We are friends
But of late
I have been looking at you differently
And
Inside
There is a longing
I have to repress.
You are already in love and happy,
I see:
I would never harm that, my friend.
Though Secretly,
I wish
Your love was for me.

There have been times
Where I have almost disclosed
How I feel
But
It wouldn't work
Just cause hurt.
I can see how in love you are
I would never harm that, my friend.

Secretly, I will love you from afar.
Secretly,
I love you!

How many have been in this position
Loving a love already loved,
Honoured
That union,
Loving in silence
A love repressed,
A secret love
Love still a bud
Never having blossomed
And
Taken to the grave?

I'm good at saying no
It's plain to see

Saying no
Is good for me

Tuesdays and Thursdays
I walk under trees

A three day work week
Is what suits me