Midnight and my heads under the covers
Typing away
Hiding the light of this cracked screen
Hiding the light in my words
He can't know I'm happy
but my words spew out
Because I went from the glass being empty
to my core being full
of a feeling that scares the **** out of me
It scares my skin
And my goose bumps don't come up
just because I'm cold
My body doesnt know how to react
So I cry
being the only thing I've ever known how to do
But to cry you have to breathe
So that means I'm still alive
And I remind myself that these tears
aren't an over flow anymore
they're tears of joy
And I never really thought that was a real thing
But I didn't think love was a real thing either
well I didn't think it was real for me
Because I use to think breaths weren't meant for me
but now I think you're meant for me
And I've never trusted a thought of mine
more than I do now

don't tell me its going to be okay
i know your simple mind
can't grasp he fact that i can feel worthless
without feeling at all
& i'm sorry i didn't hear how your day went today
because my thoughts are screaming a me
but in all fairness
zquill is helping me more than you are at this point

The silence is killing me
I'm going insane
Make a noise, save me
Bring back the rain
I can't take the quiet
it's driving me mad
Shout at me, screech at me
till your lungs go bad
The darkness is scaring me
its making me shake
Shine a light, make it bright
before my eyes start to ache
My pupils are growing
at a dangerous speed
Larger and larger
they take over me  
But in place the silence
takes over
and the darkness seems
to grow
You couldn't save my body
I've already fallen below
a.m.