Stripped, naked. Flesh, raw.
Eyes burn like lasers, though you are bare.
The light: “a” light illuminates your limbs.
Its gleam reflects each angle of your body.

A nod of the head and there intent is set.
The stroke of a brush, a flicker of lead.
An artist’s projection upon the canvas.
You are: living, breathing and true.

Each curve invites inquiry; of shadow or shade?
Minds race to undress you further,
they peel at your skin.
Attention averts, bound by the three dimensions of your being.

On a pedestal you stand. Flushed and raw.
Though scrutinized and scanned, they cease to see you.
Simple minded are they,
foolish and dull.

The light grows dim.
Squinting with strain, they cannot grasp you.
You laugh and grin
…
Warmth melts your play-dough skin,
as a light illuminates from within.

(Circa 2008)

I wonder of living in a life, in a home,
scattered with open books rewriting the future as it unfolds.
With no empty picture frames and nothing wasted on a blanket of dust.
Bliss, relaxation, and a comfort you can trust.

Two toothbrushes and an unmade bed fit for the sweetest.

And no matter what, knowing that everyday is the best day of my life.

sometimes you land on the Major,
sometimes you live in the Depressive
my life's in the Disorder,
... where now all hopes have drifted.

{What did you do?}

You listened to me read.
You played a song for me.
You opened me up,

you made a heart in a box think it could breathe.

running 'round in my head ,
racing and chasing
they're thoughts i can't put to bed
now i write words
that are better left unsaid
only thing worth reading
are just words re-read
the voices, these things
screaming in my head
they tell me, they tell me
i'm better off dead
once again medication, you've turned a corner
science and technology, a brand new order
you've taken my heart and censored it entirely
pieces of me that have been lost along the way
god hopes that i don't forget, and remember this day
this night , this moment that you've shown your face
the last piece you took,
was all there was to take away

There’s a quiet place in my mind
One that I keep trying to find
Where it’s never trouble
And I always know just what to write

Lying down with head in the grass
These nice, warm, sunny days never last
Watch the smoke rise like clouds
Catching a train, she’s on her way out

With guitar I’m left, hanging here
Still a boy, with poems of “no fear”
Too early to bed down
Simmer the swimming thoughts in my head

I’ll go now…
To that place that I said,
So that I don’t run around here screaming
All the words I left unsaid

Open wide as a window
Deep in his being they show
A door into his soul
Deep and dark as a black hole
To him your life is for naught
By them you are caught
You see not his eternal lies
Lest through his Dark eyes

Sitting here alone in my chair.
Staring at two things so rare.
A Marlboro, which I never smoke.
And your screen name, which I can't invoke.
I click it on, and click it off.
Up comes the window, X makes it disappear.
I write long poems, I put in sad songs,
Only to close it out, cause the pain is so strong.
You sign off, maybe to go back to Lee.
I take a break, to walk it off.
I walk in your direction,
Maybe just maybe to see your reflection.
The rain falls as ice, not quite snow.
I let the tar fill me with hate.
You never show, so I walk back.
But in a way possibly to see you.
Call me a stalker, call me what you like.
But I think I'm a wanderer,
Walking in the dark, searching for the light.
You shine more than anything I know.
Watching you walk, float across the ground.
It's possible you’re the light,
But your light emanates from within.
You won't let me share that light,
At least not anymore.
You give your light out sparingly,
Right now to someone else,
But not all your light,
Not like you gave it to me.
Did I put out your fire?
Did I put out your flame?
I tried more than anything, to make it blaze.
I gave you everything, I gave you my soul.
Maybe that was wrong of me,
Maybe I shouldn't have tried so hard.
I'm just so afraid of loosing you,
So afraid of life without you.
I can live without you being my everything.
But you being my nothing, I cannot go on.
Best friends, we tried, but I think it can work.
We just need time apart, to let feelings subside
We need to be just friends, in the long run it'll work
Because right now, I feel that is.
I love you too much to just look at you,
And see just a friend.
And you either love, or are so used to me,
Being so much more to you, to do the same.
I can't tell if you lost your love,
Or if you ever loved at all.
When I asked you if you loved me,
You said you didn't want to hurt me.
Well saying that hurt me worst of all.
Hence why I said, ill make this easy for you.
And now I'm not sure if that was right of me to do.
But you needed to know, but you took it wrong.
You went to his place, and vented your anger.
I don't know what to do anymore rob.
It’s so hard not talking to you,
So hard not looking in your eyes.
They say time makes it easier,
But god it gets so much harder.
You have "him" to go to, when times are rough.
I go to my bed, with just the memory of your thought.
I hug teddy tight, he keeps me warm.
Because sometimes I can't control my emotions.
And the tears flow like waterfalls,
And I sob like a child.
Knowing your not even thinking of me,
Rather entertaining his wiles.
It’s so hard for me to understand,
We had so much, so much in our hands.
I gave you my heart, and you gave me a cold.
Just let me know, in some form or fashion.
You feel the way I do, your love was true.
I know he makes you happy, and I’m so glad.
The pain you've caused is nothing,
Nothing compared to your happiness.
It may not be safe to say,
But I have a secret I’ve been holding
For these past few days.
Just a few simple words,
When put together, mean more to me than gold.
I can't yell it to you, nor speak at normal tone.
Anything more than a whisper,
And the meaning looses its hold.
Silently now, listen close...
I love you.