Over and over,
we played this game,
cat chasing mouse
and vice versa.

Over and over,
you told me youre sorry
you love me
i want you
i need you.

and then you went back to her,
held her in your arms
layed her in my spot on the bed,
and let her take my place.

over and over I cried,
feeling like if you pushed me
I would shatter into a million little pieces
all across the floor for everyone to step on.

Over and over
will be no more,
you will not manipulate me
you will not crush me
you will not keep me in this rut,

I am wonderful,
beautiful
talented
outgoing,
someone will appreciate me
love me like you won't
make me feel like I'm the one
the only one.

I will mend myself and that is what I look forward too.
I will get over you and I will be utterly happy,
over and over without you.

As soon as they told me my heart stopped
I ran as fast as I could
for safety behind doors,

swung at the first sight
let the anger flow out
before i let the tears,

my mouth made awful sounds
as i clutched my face in pain.

have you already found another?
after all that I've been doing?
just to get you back?

i guess you didn't notice,
i was chasing you
but you were chasing her.

my fist is swollen
my eyes are swollen
my heart is swollen,
all this pain you're causing me.

I don't know how much I can deal with this,
why can't i sever the ties between me and you
i just want to be able to breathe and live
without a constant reminder of you.

Is love at first sight something real?
Or is it a concept created by media?

Is it just an idea to keep us looking?
Keep us searching like pirates for gold?

Is love even real?
Or did everyone just settle for what they could get?
How will I ever know if I only see it in movies?
Did they spread it around like an idea also?

Did they use it to make people keep hope?
To make people realize that there's nothing worth this life
but emotional turmoil and endless working for a societal outcome?

Maybe there is love at first sight
maybe there is love
but how do you teach your children that when all they see is pain?

Today you walked into class like you were some big shot,
to be honest it made me mad as hell,
but I pretended like it didn't.

I watched you take your seat where we used to sit,
the cluster of desks looked so empty without me next to you.

Before you looked around i averted my eyes,
I wouldn't allow you to catch me slippin'.

You placed your bag on your desk,
still rocking your head to some unheard beat.
It just seemed to add fuel to my anger.

You sat there all class talking aloud,
asking me small questions here and there,
I ignored you.

Who are you?
Who did you turn into?
Why are you not the boy I fell in love with a year and 5 months ago?
Why can't I hold you or talk to you or even look at you?
Why can't I stop looking at your facebook everyday?
Why can I not regret unfriending you?
Why can't I move on and you can dance and laugh and smile and sleep under bridges go to concerts and act like your whole world hasn't changed completely and just seem like we never existed?!
Like I left no impression on your life, like I was nothing and you lost your memory?!
Why did you make me feel like everything sometimes and nothing the other?
Why Why WHY WHY WHY WHY?!

Its ok,
i looked up today and I saw,
I saw you look away fast and look around the room,
Even when your eyes turned to mine I didn't look away,
In that moment I felt more alive then I have in a month.
I felt happy and warm,
and I miss you so ******* much and I don't know what the **** I'm doing,
and I just hate you because I love you and I hate me for being young and stupid,
and just another ******* girl caught in love at a young age.
******* for doing this to me,
******* FOR MAKING ME SO ******* HAPPY

******* for letting me leave so easy but yet not so fast.
you ripped the band aid to slow,
now I'm left with a longing after ache.

Have you ever played with fire?
Felt the heat reach for your skin?

Embraced the rush of discovering the meaning of risks?
Clinged to the intensity of the danger you're in?

A little burns at a time,
in our young teenage hearts.

The more you feed it,
the bigger it gets,
the more alive you feel.

That's why I love playing with fire,
but one day I'm gonna get burned
and that's what scares me the most.

On top of the stairs her silhouette dances,
She sways with the beat making her hair flow with rhythm.

Good God Oh God
she moves with such grace
I can't look away I want her embrace.

She pulls up a square straight to her lips
takes a long drag and lets the smoke fog drip.

In one bony hand she grasps her own bottle,
constantly taking swigs she would be my favorite model.

Her arms swish back and forth next to her sides,
boys keep approaching her left and right.

Their mouths keep moving but it doesn't reach her,
she never stops dancing like shes been in a trance.

My palms get sweaty as I watch them walk away,
Now mys chance as I stand from the floor.

I try to catch her attention shifting in front,
but like all the others she ignores my approach.

I stand there awhile embarrassed of failing,
noting the shine in her long black hair.

Oh God Oh God,
why not me Evanjellion?

I take a few notes before I saunter away,
turning my back I'm hoping she'd watch,

Glancing back I catch a blue eye,
my body burns with passion.

But I just let it fly,
I'll remember this night and try again next time.

Do my best try harder,
than maybe just maybe,
she'll love me like no other.

-Alicia Hubert

In a sea of faces,
would you recognize me?

We can jump right in and swim in circles,
occasionally side glancing the other.

We'll play a game of cat & mouse,
will you do your best to find me?

Would you wade through the masses
of cheeks and elbows,
to meet my icy gaze
from across the way?

Would you tire yourself
to cross the mounds of
skin bags filled with bones?

Just for plain ol' me?

If I'm the one,
your heart desires
I'll wait for you
on this side.

But may I warn you my darling,
time is of the essence.

-Alicia Hubert