when will i be able to let go?
will i be able to?
if i don't, where will i be?

They say to love you first have to love yourself
   Well, to know, you first have to know yourself
I'm still looking because I lost my way
   somewhere between here and there
The past haunts my present
   my present haunts itself
I don't know whether to look right or left
   Been looking down, so maybe the only place left to look is up

the promise of you was my favorite part of coming home,
knowing my nights wouldn't be spent alone

the promise of you was what got me through

two plus two was you
   and i'm the fool who couldn't count

if you're leaving
then go

don't linger so

say you miss me
i wanna feel it when you kiss me
don't just say it baby
show me

Look at the clock, it’s not yet two
But if by 1:45 I’m still thinking of you
I’ll get out of this bed and head straight to the car
Just to drive to places I’ve never seen before
And I’ll roll up some love and smoke it all down
Cause I can’t be sane knowin’ you’re not around
You walk in and out of my mind like a wandering kid
And you make me question everything I said and did
While I’m here thinking of you, whether by choice or not
You’re all the way at home not giving me a second thought
And I chose this position and I knew I’d go crazy
But I thought it’d all be worth it cause I’d have you, right, baby?

we both know i got in too deep,
      too fast and
             it's too late to turn back.
cause i'm hooked on your smile
      mesmerized by your presence
             addicted to your body.

it's you babe,
      it's always been you.

the slow songs remind me of you
remind me we're through
and I question if it was true,
real,
authentic in any way
and my heart says "yes"
but my head says "no"
then my gut says "how could it not have been?"
and I'm still stuck here,
questioning my sanity
thinking to myself "maybe it was all a dream."
but it wasn't; I remember.
now I'm left with memories
and recollections
and hopes
and dreams
and longing.
a longing for more..
more time
more you
more we
just us
and some lust
and the chance to show you the love
that I never knew I had for you

We bonded over Brickbreaker the first time we met
and I knew he was someone I wanted to know;
But time, money and a sort of fame got in the way.
He changed for lack of a better term.
He became someone I shouldn't know.
And his friends told me I met the wrong guy that day.